I don't sleep unless I'm beside you
I forget to eat unless you're eating too
I get shaky and nervous and empty and sad
And I don't like how I look when you're not looking at me.

He talks like a fool
But oh when he sings
My knees done melted
At my hearts plucked strings
The wolf does howl
The wolf does cry
But when he sings
It brings a tear to my eye

I probably shouldn't talk to you
Or listen to your thoughts
I probably shouldn't be there
When you want to talk about your anxiety
Or about what clothes you should wear
I probably shouldn't look you in the eyes
Through hazy spectacles
I probably shouldn't tell you you're beautiful
And worth more than your scars
Or your insecurities
I probably shouldn't offer you hugs
When you come to me broken
I probably should never have met you
Because you're only going to fall in love with me
For building you up
And leave me when I become what you were

In Summer it was hot
Too hot to cuddle but the sunsets were breathtaking
We went to the beach and swam in our underwear
Stayed up all night smoking and listening to Mr Suicide Sheep.
In Autumn we would walk
Through leaves the colours of our everchanging hairstyles
Our gloved hands mingling, letting passers by know we are in love.
In Winter we kept warm to the sounds of Melancholy
Skin on skin, snotty noses rubbing
Laughing at our misfortune of finding the hot water bottle with our frozen feet.
In Spring we took sick days together
The colds couldn't stop us but the hay-fever sure will
We adopt baby mice and curse at the moody weather
We watch each other grow like the lambs and bloom like daffodils.
Spring is nearly over...
I hope our next season is even better than our last
And every season to come*

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