That moment in life,
When you feel like, You are losing everything.
And all you can do is,
Just Stand there and watch.

Every Single day feels like a struggle to get through,
and Every Single day I am just surviving and not living.

I am just so done with temporary things in life
Temporary people
Temporary Emotions
Temporary Efforts
Just do not want anything anymore,
Selfish people who thinks about you right after done thinking about themselves,
Situational care,only done when it's so easy to do.
Sticking together when it's all good to be with.
Being understanding when they are in a good mood enough.
Saying we are not two people,"we are one" just for the sake of saying.

In such a selfish world.
There is only one person you can have completely is Yourself.
And I dnt want incomplete anything.

That moment where you stop feeling Everything,
Songs are just words,
Music is just sound,
you just listen without feeling it,
and it no more syncs with your heartbeats.

The light makes everything visible outside,
And the Darkness makes everything visible within.

So many hopes tied to just this one line.
Its all gonna be alright.

Sitting here alone at the beach,
Actually not alone,with so memories accompaning me.
Earphones plugged in and loud music,want to feel isolated around so many people.
With calm breeze of air,brushing through skin and hair.
As if trying to tell me,everything will be fine.
Raging waves hitting the rocks,just as reality strucks sometimes.
Waves moving up and down,mirroring the ups and downs of life.
Everytime it goes backward,it comes with even more force than before.
As if telling me to do the same,to go back in my past,dive deep into it and emerge back even stronger.
To never give up and keep moving.

You just Know,
Its time to Leave.
When they start Noticing,
Everything thats not good about you
and cannot see
Everything thats good about you..

I Choose to be without you.
Because I choose,
To be sad without you,
Rather than ,  not happy with you.

Whenever I say goodbye to someone,
It takes me back to all the memories,
Where people left me,
Where i left someone,
And every single time it hurts so much more than it actually is.

Not all questions are meant to be answered,
Some are left unanswerd forever.

"I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU"
This statement is so over-rated.
Nobody dies for someone
Either they live in misery or accept the  fact and move on.
Life doesn't stop for anyone,It goes on.

So stop saying this,as its so hard to believe nowadays..
Instead say                                
" I WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU and Mean it"

Why Do i Feel Guilty about
deleting my drafts or my hidden poems,
It feels like deleting a part of me
that i will never find again.

And even more Guilty bout calling my writings as poems,
because they don't rhyme or have any pattern,
They are not wrapped in the most beautiful way.
Just raw untouched thoughts.

I know you love me,
Just,
Not in a way,i want.

With every wave that flows,
With the wind that blows,
With every movement of the clouds in the sky
I realise,i m so much in love with you.

With every heartbeat,
With everytime the eyelids meet,
With every breath i take
I realise,I m so much in love with you.

Love
One word but like so many feelings attached
So what exactly is love?
Nope
Don't expect any answes in here
Bcoz I myself is for searching for answers.

When we were small, innocent and with not so much of brains
The concept of love was so simple,
Two People meeting each other, falling in love and staying together forever.

But as we grow up,we find out that it's not so simple,
And it just gets complicated as we keep growing.
The more we try to understand it,the more complicated it gets.
The day we think we have figured it out and this is what exactly love is supposed to be,it just changes completely.

So what exactly love is,
I know we do love our parents and our family,
That is what,we compulsorily have to do.
These are the people we didn't choose for loving.
They are there with you and no matter what, you know they love you and you love them.

But what about the people we get to choose in our life's.
How would we know that we finally love someone enough to spend our lives with them.
How would we know that, that someone is made for you.
Or do we have to go through the process of taking chances with people and see if it works out or not and then keep doing that until we find the right one or get tired and settle for less.

So is Der a new and better process to find and know that if someone loves you and you actually love that someone?
Or we still need to follow the same old method .
The process feed into our minds through these movies and books and songs.
That if we think about someone all day long and smile and want to be with someone all the time, and just care about someone a little more than usual.
And yayy u r in love.
But this things, they are just so temporary and can be shifted to different people.

What if this concept of love fed into our minds doesn't exist.
Just forget it for a second
And then think how love would have been for you.
What would be your concept of it.
And then how would you know that you finally love someone.

I am just Tired,
Not Because My body Hurts,
or i dnt have any energy left inside me.

I am tired of Keeping up with everyones expectations,
I am tired of this questions inside me with no answers,
I am tired of calling my friends everytime with they not doing the same,
I am tired of taking all the efforts all alone,
I am tired of being the only one who does everything,
I am just tired of trying to keep everyone happy and failing,
I am tired of thinking that every one is so important in my life and giving them that importance,
I am tired of trying to be happy and all excited all the time,when there are just people around you, who dont let you be that way.
I am tired of starting all over again everytime it ends.

I am just tired of being tired.