I sang
The words
Of
Silence

I sang
The words
Of
Pain

I sang
The words
Of
Damnation

I sang
The words
That I
Meant

I remember these words
Vibrating
Inside my throat
Clawing outward

I remember these words
Burns on my arms
Branding me
With names and numbers

Words that soothe
Yet still
Ache

I sang
The words
That
Blind you



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The misery
Ridding up my skin like a disease
The sympathy
Screeching up my ears, till I can't hear
The enemies
Following me but I can't seem to see

My energy
Displaced and diverted for survival
My happiness
Nonexistent since your appearance
My appearance
Don't matter cause I am the baddest batter

I swear
I'll never  be an angel or a saint
I promise
That you will forever rue this day
I expect
Everyone I see to be my enemy



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I know that this journey is treacherous
And we might lose our way
But remember
All the pain
All the suffering
That we endured

Our home is now long gone at this point
No reason to shed tears
So remember
All the prayers
All the blessings
Bestowed on us

The road ahead holds many blockades
But we will still march onwards
Just remember
All the promises
All the dreams
That we carry

Even if our bodies are broken down
We will fix each other
Please Remember
All the strength
All the wisdom
That we have crafted

The road underneath is mysterious
Filled with unthinkable questions
But I remember
All the truth
All the words
That you are here in my heart



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Un deseo a cumplir
Realidad se cambio
Mi camino es diferente

Pero realise

Que en esta noche
Hay pura mentiras
Sobre de mis suenos

Cuando quise escapar
No habia puertas
Me dormi en la oscuridad

En la bella noche
Se me cai las lagrimas

En la bella noche
Se me va la esperanza

En la bella noche
Se me va la riza y la luz y compassion
Se me va la felicidad

En este mundo
No te quise decir
Que no existe maravillas

No te queria llenar de desepcion
Yo queria verte feliz

En la bella noche
Se me va las lagrimas

En la bella noche
Se me va la sonrisa

En la bella noche
Se me regresa el depression y angustia
Veine todo mal

En la bella noche
Se me va la fantasia

En la bella noche
Se me va los deseos

En la bella noche
Se va mi juventud y esperanza
No mas queda la realidad

El noche esta lleno de estrellas
Que llena el cielo con poquito de fe
Pero se que todo esto es una mentira
Para traparnos en una fantasia que no tiene nada de vida

Cuando quise escapar
Mis manos levantados
Listo para tumbar todos los paredes
No te quise lastimar
Pero esto es la unica manera
Para escapar de este mundo cruel
No te quise hazer dano
Pero ala mejor es mejor
Que no recuerdas la verdad
De este cruel mundo
Y como nos mentio
Llenando nos de mentiras

Que deseos si se cumple

La bella noche se va callendo
Y nosotros somos que lo tumbo
Con nuestras manos lo vamos a
Destrozar
Quemar
Cambiar
Vamos ser nuestra realidad

En la bella noche
Vamos a garar fe

En la bella noche
Vamos comer las estrella

En la bella noche
Vamos ser la luz que brilla para el futuro
Y crear fantasias



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

A desire to fulfill
Reality was changed
My path is different

But I realize

That on this night
There are only lies
About my dreams

When I wanted to escape
There were no doors
I slept in the darkness

In the beautiful night
I shed my tears

In the beautiful night
My hope left me

In the beautiful night
I lost the laughter, the light, and compassion
My happiness left me

In this world
I did not mean to tell you
That there are no wonders

I did not want to fill you with deception
I wanted to see you happy

In the beautiful night
My tears leave me

In the beautiful night
My smile evades me

In the beautiful night
Depression and anguish returns
Everything bad comes again

In the beautiful night
My fantasy is gone

In the beautiful night
My wishes leave me

In the beautiful night
My youth and hope are dead
Reality is all that's left

The night is full of stars
That fills the sky with little faith
But I know that all of this is a lie
To trap us in a fantasy that has nothing to of life left

When I wanted to escape
My hands raised
Ready to knock down all the walls
I did not want to hurt you
But this is the only way
To escape from this cruel world
I did not want to hurt you
But maybe this is for the best
That you do not remember the truth
From this cruel world
And how did they lied
Filling us with lies

That wishes do come true

The beautiful night is falling
And we are the cause of it
With our hands, we are going to
Shatter it
Burn it
Change it
We will  make our reality

In the beautiful night
We are going to gain faith

In the beautiful night
We'll consume the stars

In the beautiful night
We'll be the light that shines for the future
And create fantasies



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Everyday we will smile and play
Windows will shatter across our platters
The morning will come and bid us hello
As you can imagine everyday was fantastic

All of a sudden the world came crashing
Rivers overturn and tress were falling
Echoing around me where sounds of animals screeching
The colors slowly fadding

Light cried goodbye, Night rose awake
Now these forbidden colors washed into grays
I try to tell everyone but no one listened
blinded by their own injustice
Green has been replaced by death
and i try to bring them back to life
all i have are ashes

The world grows form the tinniest of seeds
And blossoms into the flowers that captivates our sights
We pull form the ground and we stop its life

And for what?
To see it die in a glass container in our house

Forbidden colours of a field in full bloom
But not anymore
Greys have blocked the sky's light from reaching them

The world is slowly coming to a screeching halt
Winters are longer and summers are hotter
I wonder if we will survive

Forbidden colours
Of ice in the north and south that are melting away
Into the blues of oceans that are heating

The rush of water that is filling our land into a swamp
People try to fight against something they cannot control
People will like to blame anything at all
But themselves

All of these colours
fade away as we destroy their homes
And become extinct
Have filled the world with ash
Dark and thick like ink

Forbidden colours
Of the ocean blue
Magentas and purples of coral reefs
Red of the uncut redwood forest

Forbidden colours
Of white mountain tops
And cerulean of shining lakes
With underground forest vibrating viridian

Forbidden colours
Meadows that flow of fushia and lavender
Or fields of golden corn
With the rich brown of dirt

Forbidden colours
Of our pink lungs not filled with industrial vile




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I walk down this unknown road
But I am not afraid
Of the dark or silence that follows
So I keep walking forward
Arms swinging by my side.

With my head turned
Turned up towards the sky
As I welcome the sun's rays
And the rain that falls
Bathing me in its life.

I've traveled far and wide
But never by myself
This is a new experience
It's a little bit scary and new
But I am not afraid.

The stars twinkle brightly
I remember your eyes
Reflecting back on the memories
Happiness and sadness
I'll hold them in my heart.

Whistling the songs
That you sang during dawn
As we eat breakfast and laughed
Such vivid noises and sights
That I will dream as I travel.

I know this may seem unexpected
But I need to leave the past
So don't be afraid
This is not a goodbye forever
I promise I'll see you later.



© Sofia Villagrana 2021

All I felt with you darling
Was a battlefield

Trapped in my mindscape
Trying to find an escape

None of your words soothe me
All I felt was apprehension consuming

These final words were meant to hurt
To act against all the pain you made

The time we have spent
Is now wasted

Laughter that echoed
Is now a hollow sound

How could we let this get this far?
Did we try to change this at all?

It is better if we just leave this alone
Lets not repair a broken soul

I want to thank you for the time given
Now it's time to say goodbye



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Take me to the
Back row
Back room
Back door

Touch me
Where I said no
Pretend and act
Like you don't know

That these
Tears
Aches
Cries
Are from you



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I never want to be
Alone in space
Closed or open eyes
Half alive or dead
I do not know what I want
Take away life
Cover my mouth
Hands on my heart
Squeeze stronger
Do not be afraid of the present
Certainly you hands
I do not want to hurt you
Some are cutting me
Little by little, sacred
Skin pink to white
Doing me in nothing
Floating in the galaxy
Body is frigid
Skin breaking down
Eyes are not shining
My dead body
Converting into comet
I explode into time



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Eyes ahead
Foward and dead
I am unsure of the path I am taking

Hands up high
Reaching towards the sky
Fingertips brushing the morning light

Frizzy hair
Dew on the edges
Blocking my perception of the world

***** feet
From walking on the street
Guided by the cement sidewalk cracks

Mouth agape
Words suffocate
Uneasiness building inside my chest

Fly away
Run before its too late
Better to be hurt than to be caged



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I don't want to die young
Disappear into obscurity.

Stretched thin like nylon
Something that you see as pretty.

Rubbed raw by a cat's claw
Watch me as I keep bleeding.

Feelings like a jigsaw
Don't know if I can keep going.



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Deberia saber
Que me dejaras

No mas para que ves
Te la estas buscando

Hacimos pareja
Pero te vi alla

Mucho para aguantar
Tu eras mi vida
Pero  la vida no es justo

Era estupida para amar te?
Era tonta ayudar te?
Era ovio a todo lo de mas?

Me calli por tu mentira
Tu nunca me querias

Engañame una y doz veces
Voy a morir en un paradiso

Tu nunca me vas a ver llorar
No hay tiempo a morir

Lo deje quemar
Tu no eres mi preocupacion

Fantasmas de mi pasado regresan
Otro leccion para aprender

Tu nunca me vas a ver llorar
No hay tiempo a morir



© Sofia Villagrana 2020

Hanging 'round your place
Days keep passing.
Sitting here for weeks
But don't worry.

Wanted some closure
Where are you going?

Hope you'll come back
Yearning for you.
Please, just stop and listen
Before the sun sets.

Needed some closure
Where are you going?

Can't you see I'm hurting
Just make me happy.
You don't care about me
Waiting here for you.

Give me some closure
Where are you going?



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You want to run
Just hear my voice
Shouting out loud
Hearing me out
You're doing great
Until you fall



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Body just a reminder of our physical existence
Our mind a creation of simple electrics
Bodies become a barrier for mental fortification
Escape it and we’ll achieve God as a creation not imagination
If we stay locked we will become ghosts in shells
Surpass that and you won’t experience mundanity hell
Crossing wire connects our minds not bodies
It’s time to reevaluate our conception of what is humanity.



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Take a train to Mars
Want to escape all earth’s traffic
Bumpy rides are just the best
When there’s only yourself complaining.

Taking a detour to Saturn
So the gases can lull me to sleep
All night no one sees me dreaming
Turning to the motion of these rings.

Boat ride to Venus
Want to feel my skin melt off
From the carcass, a new me emerges
And tans from the beams of light.

Heading over to Mercury
To actually see the sun
Without all the rocks in the way
Now I feel more alive.

Flew myself to Pluto
To share the excitement of my life
No one answered my knocking
Maybe they also fled this sight.

Bike ride to Uranus
Wasn’t that far away
But everyone is too distant
Big heads, acting kinda insane.

I booked it over to Jupiter
But everything just felt too big
Spent most of my time looking
At the neighbors spinning by.

Vacation in Neptune
Wanted to get ready to head back
Chill-off from self-inflicted pain
Applying ice to my travel wounds.

Walked myself back to Earth
Head held high but still a hitchhiker
But no one picks me up
Wonder if they know what I been through.



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Your pride won't let you down
Too afraid you won't get up

Trying to give you some space
But you won't let me try

Delighted to give it a try
But eventually, I come down

Reality crashing on me
As I try to be better



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Admirame
O mejor largate
No mas te queria ver
No sabia que tenias mal humor

Mirame
Darme vueltas
En la oscuridad del cuarto
Contra el corriente del abanico

Dando circulos me hace mariada
Casi me quiero vomitar
Pero no hay nada adentro

Te do
Puro puro chantaje
Puro puro verguenzas
Quiero verte sufrir en mi sombra

Puro puro burlas
Puro puro mentiras
Y te veo en esquina
Quiriendo ganar te la vida



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Running after clouds as they rush by
But I don't turn back
They are now waterfalls
When I try to look beyond the horizon
I am meeting with an endless ocean of thoughts
Scared of delving deep
Don’t want to lose my sight
People wave and call me
I don’t have any time to halting
Shoes are gone my feet are bare
Feel the broken asphalt biting
But now it's more like a comfort

When I
Stop

I can hear my heart
Beating so loud
Pulse in my throat is jumping

When I started running
Blisters were forming on toes
Hands scrapped cause I kept on falling
Wasn’t use to doing things on my own
Behind everyone’s bikes
But now I am ahead of them

When I breath
A deep breath

One
Two
Three

Out

One
Two
Three

In

One
Two
Three

Go

Look onward
Don’t stop running
When you are amazed
Keep running alongside these clouds
And maybe you’ll catch one in your hands
Don’t stop and take a breath cause only one road
It's getting destroyed so stay on the path don’t fall down

Every day there was puddles and thunder
And you fell down a hole once in a while
Broke your arm
Scrapped your legs
Missing shoes
Bleeding knees
Scratched face
Fragile wrists
Dry mouth
Shaking limbs
Vibrant eyes

What else is there for me?
Do I run and try to be free?
Why was I running in the first place?
I don’t remember I think?
Or was that the whole plan?

But clouds keep on calling me
So I listen and ignore my soul
The world is turning
And I feel the motion underneath my feet as I move

Until I suddenly stop
There's no more path
I am panting though
At the edge of a cliff
Feet half on
The Ledge
Hanging

Do I jump, knowing there's no way back to myself?



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

I whisper words to you at night
Telling you, I know your white lies
I wonder if I am going to cry
Seeing you on the floor unalive



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Gave everything you had
To a love you thought would last.

You wanted to be there
By their side till the end of time.

Favors they asked of you
Stretched you thin like paper.

Your calls and messages
Were left on read, unanswered.

You waited for them
As the sun rose and fell asleep.

When you walked away
They decided to plea and beg.

You decided this was it
This will be your last first lover.


You said goodbye
To the person that made you suffer.



© Sofia Villagrana 2020