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6.9k · Aug 2018
Lucid
ls Aug 2018
I rest my head in the dusky hours
early in the hope I'll awaken refreshed
instead in the lonely hours
at 2am, 3am and 4am
my body rests
while my mind races with complex thought
caught somewhere between sadness and complacency
the past present and future merging into one
clashing and colliding
confusing
working hard into the night
sending my heart to palpitations.  

I close my eyes and the words I see written on my ceiling
are engrained on the insides of my eyelids
crawling with the spiders
I overthink instead of sleep
I dream in my conscious state
of what could've been
what is
and what might be
restless in a state of exhaustion
lucid in a state of total consciousness
hopeless to stop the relentless tide of my imagination
from rotting my brain inside and out
ruining any faith I have in a night of sleep
or a day of clarity and competence.  

The thoughts leave when I rise again at 7am
as planned
with the chiming of the bells on the nightstand
my head snaps into reality again
focus returns in the form of routine
get up, go
move on, mend.
Distracted and oblivious
my lack of sleep haunts me
until I repeat this dull cycle again tonight
I live my nightmares in the lonely hours
at 2am, 3am and 4am.
5.0k · Aug 2018
Deadly
ls Aug 2018
They say never to underestimate
the rage of a woman
but what we should not underestimate
is the touch of a woman
for that is what will break you
sending you insane
with desire.  

Spinning through all seven deadly sins.

From gluttony through to lust
pride through to envy
anger through to greed
leaving you at sloth
avoiding all else that matters
craving only;
the touch of a woman.
623 · Jun 2019
solstice
ls Jun 2019
'do you hear that?' i whispered
signalling to the birds beginning their slow rise with the morning sun
the 4am glow on a tuesday morning in mid-june

i see the outline of your figure as you bring yourself closer and press yourself against me
'you're the one who has to go to work'
she teases as she kisses me again

she sends a shiver down my spine
and chills though my bones
in the stuffy room filled with the heat of our breath
and the warmth of the summer air

another hour passes and we are still awake
we sang with the birds and our hands danced
until the light became brighter
and trickled ever stronger into the room

we drift off into a soft sleep
to the sound of the waking birds still singing their morning songs
sweetly she rests on my chest
unmoved by the noise

again we awake at 7am
i slip away from the bed and ready myself for the day
hiding in the corner of the room quietly so i don't disturb
but i catch her subtle sleepy glances in the mirror

the bright sun now beating through the gaps in the curtains
she is illuminated in all her glory
more radiant and more beautiful
than the warm summers day that awaits beyond our four walls.
458 · Oct 2018
Furnace
ls Oct 2018
I collect sunlight and warmth from the summer to keep me burning

Enough to keep me alive long enough to watch the autumn leaves form crisp orange tunnels

Until I begin to simmer and fade in the winter when the snow falls on bare branches

Before the cherry blossoms bloom again and the flickering glow on my skin returns

But nothing can ignite the furnace in my chest like when I see you. The flames roar and flare scolding anyone that comes too close. I collect the heat from the summer sun, but if you were here beside me, all my life, you could keep me burning. Brighter than any sun. A force of nature unmatched.

Instead you have left me shrouded in my own personal darkness and you leave me to smoulder dimly all year round. Left to hold the images of the summer to keep me ablaze. But winter came early and I don't know if I have enough light within me to keep myself alight.
ls Aug 2018
I still remember
The shade of blue of the sky
The day that we met

I still remember
The taste of beer on your lips
The first time we kissed

I still remember
The deep pounding of my heart
The moment you left
384 · May 2018
Muscle Memory
ls May 2018
When we met again
my body remembered yours
they fit the way they used to
our fingers interlocking
as if they'd never been pried apart
it was natural
and right

But now we are separate entities once again
my body awaiting yours
searching the empty space in the bed
my hands lonely
they reach out to touch your hair
but is met by dust in the air
my limbs suspended in front of me

There is nothing for me to feel
my eyes gaze through where yours should be
my hands lowering to your hips
and your fingertips
but they find nothing there
just pain
and loneliness
372 · Aug 2018
Evens
ls Aug 2018
She doesn't like odd numbers
so I kiss her head
in twos,
her cheeks
in fours,
and her lips
in sixes,
eights,
and tens.
330 · May 2018
Eden, Part 1
ls May 2018
In the garden she danced
Hair flowing ebony
Flitting and fleeting from one flower to the next
Inhaling their beauty
Admiring their depth
My delighted eyes entranced
Locked on that sight
As I watched her

She climbed the trees
And rested among the branches
Counting the leaves and the creatures
Marvelling at their magnificence
Commending the creator
My enraptured eyes fixated
Silently
As I watched her

The sun grew taller
And the heat grew unbearable
A splendid combination of her passion
And the peak of summer's glory
She was restless
In perpetual adventure
All in the confines
Of our small slice of nature

She grabbed me by the wrist
That grip she held on the branches moments earlier
Pulled me to the grass and we lay
We laughed
We dreamed
Of summers days to come
Her excitement and vigour
Breathtaking

Finally at peace in the silence
Next to that ebony hair
And hazel stare
We lay until the sun dipped into the horizon
And left nothing but a pastel glow
Inhaling the scent of the evening
Admiring the softness of the clouds
She was locked on that sight

Yet,
I watched just her.
322 · Apr 2019
Cherry Blossom
ls Apr 2019
no sooner had we bloomed like the cherry blossoms on the trees
we wilted
and i fell

because like those cherry blossoms we were beautiful for a while
not destined to last longer than a week in March

with a whispering gust you blew away
while heavy with the weight of aprils rain
i crashed to the ground
304 · Jan 2019
The City
ls Jan 2019
The soil where I am supposed to grow
Can be found deep under concrete
Under layers of dirt and steel
Sheltered from the sun under skylines of glass
The fertile earth lays not at the surface
But saturated far below
That is where I will be planted
When I can find the strength to dig so deep
And I will root myself in place
And burrow back up through the earth
Breaking through cracks in the sidewalk
A tiny sprout of life that will flourish
Into a seemingly beautiful accident
And become too striking and too mighty
To destroy
The natural phenomenon among skyscrapers
ls Aug 2018
I no longer keep a journal
But these words I write on paper
Are my deepest thoughts
The ones I keep inside.  
I would rather romanticise them
In poetry
Written over time
With rhyme,
Form,
And broken
Lines.
279 · Jun 2018
Soft and Slow
ls Jun 2018
Touch me with only your eyes;
Caress my cheek with a soft stare.  
Show me that you can be gentle
With only your eyes.

And maybe I might let you in;
Into my eyes too.
Where our gazes attach to one another
Through the dust that lingers in the air.  

Then your hands may meet mine;
The skin draped over my bones.
Or perhaps the heart that is buried deep
Inside of this tired and hollow frame of a body.

But for now;
Touch me with only your eyes.
Soft and slow.
253 · Mar 2019
Ruined Book
ls Mar 2019
Like the pages of the book we ruined that day in the rain
When we walked through the dark ***** streets in secret
Without a care for the downpour that endured
We are warped and the ink is smeared
Overcome with blackness and nothingness
Distorting and destroying the beauty that once lay there.

Our words are gone, just the memory of what lay there before
We were made of the weakest material
Paper wasn't made to last forever
Stone would have weathered the storm
But stone was too heavy for you to carry and not as poetic as paper
You always loved poetry, so how could you let the book, our poetry die like this?

You ignored the clouds before us and let it drown me
While you stood up on my shoulders to keep your head above the flood
Careless, you left our pages cockled after I carried us
Damaged beyond repair because of our - your ignorance to what encompassed us
Beauty in words couldn't protect us from the onslaught
That fate had set out for us
The perfect pathetic fallacy for the fairytale ending we never had.
229 · May 2018
Pennies
ls May 2018
Like those bronze coins
I can never seem to lose
You are the penny that disappears
When I need you most
210 · Jun 2018
Worms
ls Jun 2018
Like worms breaking through the earth
Reaching the surface
They are blind to see the light effervescing
Right before their tired bodies
They know not what they are searching for
Nor the danger that awaits above
But they continue
Until those tiny bodies burn under the strain
And their flesh burns under the sun
Breaking though the barrier
That keeps them from the world as we know it

— The End —