"impounding" poems
Susan
with her china-white skin
relaxed
down to lace bra and *******
“Have you ever heard this?” she asks
… sets the album, drops the needle
in the groove
We wait till bass fills in the room
sending time and silence empty-handed
down a hallway
Susan lights a joint
settles on the bed
ample legs begging apart
She ***** in deeply
impounding clouds
Head thrown back
Thick glossy hair—
loses gravity
Eyes half-closed, shadow-heavy
clear and blue like piano
The walls are muted trumpet
stutter-hush of cymbal and the snare
Crackling over scratches
We are barely there
Susan exhales
a swirl of fog to a frail moon
Only her sultry voice still holds me tethered
“Have you ever heard anything— like this?”
Miles flows
around me
Smoking
On the floor of Susan’s room
lying clothed and drunk
Soaked
with chords and wonder
I never hear him coming
Miles takes his time
Nov 25, 2016
Nov 25, 2016 at 12:22 PM UTC
The doctor of Geneva stamped the sand
That lay impounding the Pacific swell,
Patted his stove-pipe hat and tugged his shawl.
Lacustrine man had never been assailed
By such long-rolling opulent cataracts,
Unless Racine or Bossuet held the like.
He did not quail. A man who used to plumb
The multifarious heavens felt no awe
Before these visible, voluble delugings,
Which yet found means to set his simmering mind
Spinning and hissing with oracular
Notations of the wild, the ruinous waste,
Until the steeples of his city clanked and sprang
In an unburgherly apocalypse.
The doctor used his handkerchief and sighed.
3k
A cloud surrounds me.
Suffocates.
The lies, they feel so real they must be I can't see anything else anymore so
Clearly, so they must be
Everything I've forgotten, every scar that I had gotten, and the words, the stares, new knife-marks in my skin
I know the Truth, but I can't always discern the lies.
It only takes one, to get in, penetrating my skin. And downward, I spin.
Into the darkness, the abyss. I can't
get out
Drowning
The words and I think I'm the end of everyone's stares. It only takes one thing, to hear, and my mind runs wild. An inescapable spiraling of words and thoughts of self-loathing.
It's a tangled web of heart-broken conditions, misintentions, these afflictions, did you know heartbreak is a diagnosable thing? It is. I decided.
My heart was breaking.
My heart is break
ing.
Tangled misintentions, a wave of self-doubting afflictions, all conditions of this mess
we've woven.
A web we've spun from our brokenness, and in the madness my minds screams,
This is all your fault
Never good enough
Too much, or
Too little
You'll never be whole
Broken beyond repair or care
This is all your fault
Time to leave
Always say never
Because you aren't fit for any
Endeavor
It's better if you leave
You aren't good enough to believe
Just go
Never
good enough
The lies are so thick I can barely breathe
Scars aren't really healed if you're still bleeding from the slashes. Cut hearts and, broken wrists.
And none of it's true and part of me knows it, inside but the lies keep on coming and sometimes
self-deprecation, feels good
self-imposed asphyxiation, fills you up more than air in your lungs could
Because pain is an addiction when we won't believe who we are.
When I don't believe.
I'm just creating more scars.
And the lies wrap me up, suffocating in this web of misintention, but a moment of clarity reveals all these afflictions, I sense the darkness creeping in surrounding and
impounding my heart.
Drowning out the Truth, masking the lies, telling me I should believe I'm worthless.
And the lies
make sense
I'm
suffocating inside
I cry out, inside my heart and my mind
Tell me the Truth, I can't discern the lies.
That
infiltrate my soul, I've heard them so many thousands of times
But the scars haven't healed and I'm still bleeding from the slashes
I need a reason to sing, I need someone to bring me out before the swirling darkness settles in and poison takes over my veins. **** out the venom
Or I'll die here alone
And I cry to hear the Truth that overpowers the lies.
I was alone in a claustrophobic cloud of hateful invention.
And two hands reached in, grasped my shoulders, turned me round.
Looked past my eyes and straight into my soul.
Gentle and loving, I hear,
I will fight past the lies to tell you the Truth.
You're Mine
Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 1:28 AM UTC
I will not fall
down
down
down
Into that deep, impounding darkness.
That sinking, violent pain that once consumed me.
I am no longer a shadow of myself,
A broken, sallow creature, lingering alone
In the ashen wasteland of its everlasting night.
I am not weak,
I am not broken,
I am not insignificant.
I am infinite in Him.
Jul 27, 2013
Jul 27, 2013 at 2:22 AM UTC
Energy games these days.
Synergy claims.
Learn to relay, signals
Impounding on my ears.
Listen closely my dear.
It's all in here. There's just
Nothing to fear.
Tear fully, submit consciously,
Celebrate the oath of life.
Taste the flavors of the Earth.
She is here for us. And all.
And everything.
Questioning may continue
For a short time more.
My desire to know for sure,
Though will out soar,
Will implode the weak,
Low vibrations, Til they barely dim.
Peace is within, the faithful
Chant. I now sing this hymn
My heart has the beat,
And when I watch,
My mind finds the keys,
The steps, the recipe.
Faith is only the beginning...
I must be my best me.
Perfection is reality, no need to strive.
Standing up, Notice the toes on my feet,
Just being me. As I have no other
Choice.
Releasing IDs,
Sculpting energy,
Creating,
Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 6:23 PM UTC
Torrential spirituality
Religion in the way that your lips meet my spine
You are the connection that I used to have to the moon
Milky, glazen sunshine
You are the freckles in the glass of my great grandfather's telescope
Sizzling electricity blooming from frayed power lines
You are the anxious potential energy impounding my body
Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 10:28 AM UTC
Why......
" Why feelings and thoughts -
of mine are unfeeble,
And with an oft soulful cry!
Never embroided in it's
brinkmanship of A dwelling mirth !.
often wondering of the days that gone by .
Why being an unmindful 'Abu ben Adam '
often I embark on a distinct parody of bliss?
Why my lips quiver,if destination is far cry.
chasing my impounding fleet of wry smiles
and daunting hopes to pursue,
And for a few souls to succor !.
Jun 24, 2016
Jun 24, 2016 at 2:07 AM UTC
Throats hoarsen with daggered insults
A plea for control –
A threat of death–
A trust long frayed.
One arm reaches for the other
And uses it as a batting ram
A steady. beat.
Impounding on a vacuumed. chest.
And when hours pass
And scars are painted over
She provides flesh on a porcelain platter–
An apology for mistakes never made
She stares blankly beneath the sheets
And screams.
But hoarse throats make no sound.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 12:48 PM UTC
Flowers, flowers and more pretty flowers.
That's all one ever thinks about Spring.
What about Thorns, I ask?
But no one seems to hear me.
All they want to know about is the Rose.
As the Spring I feel compressed,
Obstructed by the Strain of the stretching length.
Crushed by the load of impounding Stress.
But, I am a Rose.
My fragrance spreads joy to a billion others,
But no one releases me from the Thorn that binds me.
They're scared they say,
And I don't blame them.
For I beat myself to become this Rose.
So I stand, as Spring does,
Watched by a million eyes.
I bounce when the Stress of Summer arrives,
To live carefree another day.
Only to realize I've trampled on the Thorn.
The Thorn that Strains to cut the Rose away.
May 31, 2018
May 31, 2018 at 10:20 AM UTC