stargazer

stargazer May 2018

I used to dream but now I know
Dreams are just ignorant nightmares
Just ideas with nowhere to go
And no one who really cares

I want to have hope
I wish for a light
But depression says, "nope"
I'm left in the darkness of night

I cry alone
So no one hears
I'm on my own
To face my fears

Suffer in silence
Let no one see
This became my guidance
And then my reality

Depression ***** :)

#depression #sadness #sorrow #fears #doubts #brokendreams #broken #breaking #falling #crashing

stargazer May 2018

The Descension

Walls close in
Choices walk out
Fear takes the win
Overflowing doubt

Company nonexistent
Friends only dreams
Darkness persistant
Nothing what it seems

Death looks divine
Absolutely dashing
Go for a ride
No fear of crashing

No more words
No more laughing
Nothing but shards
Survive the passing

Sometimes the fall is slow, sometimes it comes all at once.

#depression #suicide #lonly #solitude #sorrow #sadness #death

stargazer May 2018

Thoughts in the Sink

Think
Not many do
Wash their thoughts down the sink
I wouldn't do that if I were you

It's not so hard to have your own opinion, so why doesn't anyone go and get some?

#opinions #thoughts #society

stargazer May 2018

A Wish

I wish there was more
I wish surprise was at my door

I want to see everything
If I could I would sing

And no one could stop me
I'd be totally free

If only there was more
If I had a little more in store

I get bored too easily. Routines will be the death of me :}

#more #bored #poetry #poems #surprise #sameoldsameold #wish #pleading #numb

stargazer May 2018

Little World

I have a world
I keep to myself
Galaxies unfurled
Fit on a single shelf

A shelf in my mind
That way it stays hidden
Upon entering you shall find
My little world overridden

Overridden with hurt,
within and without
I am an expert
On fear and shame and doubt

This is why, you see
My little world, so far away
Is shared with only me

I think we all have little worlds, little parts of ourselves, that we long to keep hidden.

#small #little #world #mine #fear #shame #doubt #depression #insane

stargazer May 2018

Masks

People have masks
They hide behind
No one asks
They all are blind

People have masks
It's true
No one asks
They have one too

The masks smile
All around
All the while
No one makes a sound

When the mask comes off
You see a face
The smile falls off
They have given up their hiding place

You are much more beautiful when you take off your mask. Even if it is not a happy face, it is what is real. And that is truly beautiful.

#masks #hiding #superficial #happy #selflove #society

stargazer May 2018

Small and Little

You see only what you look for.
You hear only what you listen to.
You believe only in what suits you.
You fill your time only with what you choose.
You change these things, you change everything.
It's amazing how things so little,
so seemingly insignificant,
could have such an impact.
A butterfly flapping its wings at the precise moment and causing a hurricane on the other side of the world.
A word inspiring a series of words that touch millions of hearts.
A photograph that brings thousands to tears.
One falling domino that creates a chain of chaos.
"A little bit goes a long way"

Change hurts. But work always does.

#change #little #littlethings #small