I've always loved fog
How it makes everything around it
seem like it's holding some dark secret
and like it's different from how it usually is.
Fog brings out another side of everything.
It brings out the darkness and mysteriousness of it all.
And I love it.
I used to be terrified of horror movies
when I was only 5.
And I used to be terrified of horror movies
when I was only 7.
But by the time I turned only the age of 13
the horror movies didn't seem so scary.
I didn't get nightmares from movies like The Grudge
or even reading books like The Shining.
Now I can watch a horror movie that I was so terrified of when I was 5
and not even flinch at the scariest parts.
And that is because my life
has turned into it's own horror story.
And I am used to the everyday fears of my life
passing day by day.
Everyone has eyes ,but A poet has a cute eye Simply because he looks Around differently ... A poet looks at things from A different perspective that Makes his feelings and his Emotions go elevated anytime ...
All I do anymore is read.
read read READ
It's an escape from reality.
My mind drifts from the worries of the real world
and enter the action-packed adventures of whichever character I'm immersed into.
Or into the un-faltering love of the two starstruck characters that are happy with everything in life.
Even into the deep depression of another character, but as they get better it is even an adventure to me.
Books are my escape nowadays.
All I do is read
I feel nothing
I can't cry
I can't laugh
I can't scream
because I feel nothing at all
not a single human emotion
courses through my veins
I feel like a machine
imitating a human being.
I care so much
but I care so little.
I care so much about people
but I don't give a **** about anyone.
I don't even know what i feel anymore.
It's all conflicting.
I say I wouldn't care
if you left me behind for good.
And part of me really doesn't care
but that other part of me
would be completely broken if you did leave me.
I listen to songs about
caring and loving you.
and I listen to songs about
not caring about anything
while I go get high
and doing whatever I want.
And it proves
that I really don't know
how to feel.
Or what I feel.