some people feel anxious a lot
some people feel overly tired all the time
some people have anger issues
some people enjoy life
some people are happy, or sad, or mad
but i am numb
when i wake up, i am numb
i stay in my room because i feel numb
i cry to try and feel something, anything
but i suddenly stop because feelings are exhausting
i hate going to school because my friends give me ****
i already get enough at home, i dont need it here too
its like everyone has their place in this school and im floating around groups
its hard to be happy when you work so hard to make everyone else happy
its hard to laugh when youre always making sure everyone else is laughing
they dont realize how easy it is to fake a smile
to tell a lie for the sake of their feelings
to act like you are just fine
they dont realize that when i look the happiest is when i feel the numbest
an easier, less painful way to live