Dear diary,
I just can't explain the amount of thoughts that I have daily!,
that continuous mind charter that I have daily....!
I'm filled with thoughts, every minute, and every second of my life.

My mind just keeps switching from one thought to another,
& The amount of day dreaming....
well!!!
you know my silly screaming ??!!!

Sometimes, they are really funny!
And they keep making me smile,
so that I keep glowing!
But some thoughts...,,,
They are really too dark,
That ,when I confront them,
it breaks my heart apart!!

I'm like a confused soul,
who's in search of meaning of life...
Who's in search of peace ,
Who's in search of shine!
But the moment I start thinking,
ugh!!!My head starts cracking!!
I just can't concentrate on one particular thing !

Today, if I feel like being a doctor,
Tomorrow I might think of being an engineer,
& If today I feel like being an accountant,
Tomorrow I might feel like,
" I just need an Oscar...!"

An Oscar for what??
I don't know ...!!!
It's sounds too cool and looks good to show !

Will I work for that award?...
honestly, I don't know !
I'm so lazy,
I don't even get up to "shoo" a crow !

But hey!...there's one amazing part about me,
Guess what ?
"Anyone can come and speak to me."

Being an overthinker,
has also opened up my mind,
I don't form immediate opinions,
till I get a clear sight !


I really don't know this journey of thoughts well??!!!
Will it ever be stable ?
Will it ever end ?


But ...If it ends,
I'll die for sure,
But hey!,
I'm sure there is some way to cure!

Which way?
Hey !...I don't know again !
Is that way gonna be simple
or another amazing pain!

But hey hey hey!!! I don't know why did I write this ?!
Was I trying to find a solution
or was encouraging my thoughts already  in a continuous motion?!


But hey!,
it's ok if you're an overthinker,
Try to be amazing my friend,
even if nothing is clear!

We're all so lively but dead within!,
We all smile from outside,
even when we're broken!

We're all so lively but dead within!,
We keep working,
even when we can't be subtle!

We're all so lively but dead within!,
We all build dreams,
but also see them  when broken!

We're all so lively but dead within!,
We want to belong to someone who doesn't even care about our presence!

We're all so lively but dead within!,
Are we just living to breathe
Or are we just the living-dead Humans!?

-Vranda Punjabi

People with the tired souls,
Are the most beautiful ones
to be with!
Even though they're totally empty,
All they do is "GIVE"!

They Give their smiles,
even though they're smileless!
They give their support,
even though they're supportless!

They are the ones,
who are in search of hope to live!
Everyday they sleep tried, thinking,
" why do I have to live ? "

Despite of no dreams and aspirations,
They still inspire others around!
They are filled with negativity within,
But always choose to spread happiness around !

These souls are always near us,
& are really difficult to identify!
Because they are the smarty ones,
Who can hide anything behind THEIR smiles!

Oh love of mine!,
I don't know where you live ?!
beyond the skyline?
Or in some dark cave ?

I always feel, that need to meet you,
Just wanna hug you,
just wanna greet you!

I won't ever ask you ,
"why are you so late?"
I'm ready to stand,
and wait for you at my gate !

I just wanna stand quietly with you,
I wanna feel the moon, the stars and even you!

Would you ever come & express,
that even you love me ?
Or shall I leave my expectations
" of you completing me !? "

I'm simply puzzled,
& not at peace,
Can you please come and meet me, once atleast!?