Though it's hard
and often, I am
close to giving up
I remember you
your love,

It gets me through
yet, another day

As I turn the pages
of my story
long ago and today
and perhaps, a little longer

I dream of sunflowers
and summer picnics
by the lake
fresh jasmine scents holding me

The peace of dandelions
dancing in the wind
of hope
and love

I dream of pretty drinks
celebrating each moment
chamomile tea and fresh mint
soothing my slumber

I hear your voice,

Calling my name

I swear, even

During a thunderous storm


I feel your arms

Around me

Keeping me safe

From any harm


I see your face

Only in my dreams

But I swear I know

Your beautiful eyes


Perhaps, the wind itself

Knows how I yearn

For your arms to hold me

And to hear you whisper my name

From my new book "Unforgettable" now available on amazon.com

love is beautiful
between perky pyramids
avoiding the heart

We all make mistakes
no such thing as big or small
they are all lessons
big, valuable lessons

We pick up the pieces
little by little
often, dragging them along
for decades

A river of thoughts
frozen emotion
icy tears
brutal scars

Our 3am
...thoughts
our only...
...companion

...words
unspoken...

your lips
poison to my senses
the sweetest sin
bourbon whispers into the deepest part of my soul

dance with me
kiss me
need me
crave me

your tongue
tracing sinfully
along my
trembling and
quivering body

As I walk through

These blurred, darkened walls

Displaying portraits of my hurt

Bloodstains that gives

My memories color


My handprints

Grasping, at my will

To reach the light

I always have time
to offer a kind word
share some news
sincere advice

It annoys me when I
invest my precious time
and it's not valued
It is the greatest disrespect to me

Do not give me your sugar-coated
words of entertainment
it really does not impress me
be real honey, that is awe-inspiring

You think I care
I do, more than I should - actually
I am independent and strong
I do not need to be your side distraction, honey.

As the night greets
Silently
Hauntingly
My memories rush in

What seem like a life time ago
Feels like just yesterday
Our last goodbye
Not a final one, but still

When I was
All you thought about
Dreamed about
When I was, enough

These days
You prefer
My silent presence
And that's what will remain

I don't need
... silence
I love words
Pretty ones too

through the bars of love
she longed, a caress in stars
sunrise, acquittal

I woke up
to the glorious sound of the first rains
the unmistakable scent
of petals dancing

The wind a little calmer
resting in awe
blossoms smiling,
grateful, to be kissed with natures love

Sing your beautiful
lullaby to me
drizzled with your
silver drops

I cry with you
we dance
the dance
of aching souls

There was a
reason why
our souls
collided

We may
... never ...
know all the why's

Does it matter?
I think not!

Deep tranquil aromas
steamy mirrors
warm liquid all around
my senses come alive

fantasies of your touch
in places I soak
in this luxury
reflect

I lay back
and feel
knowing
You are right here, always!

Round Six!
Your head on my naked tummy
touching my inner thighs
ever so gently

butterfly kisses trailing
your tongue gets a taste
of the effects of you
we just can't get enough

you need your fix
let's start round six
your tongue swirling
in my spot

I grab your hair
pull you even closer
I squirm
soft moans

your finger enters
my zone
you pull out...
and offer a taste
I obey!

With one motion you're on top.
tasting my creamy sweet mouth
******* my tongue
biting my bottom lip

We move to the rhythm of our lust
Hard….Fast
Deep...deeper
Filling me
As you collapse onto me!

Your eyes
I see your trust
broken and shattered
I know you are hurting

Sad sad eyes
I cry with you
under the moonlight
the brightest stars

Your troubled tears
let me wipe them
A third eye kiss
passion on your dry lips

Rain pouring
no colorful rainbows
baby, let me
hold you through this hurt

Give me your
hand...
running into
the night... passionately

Your gaze will not penetrate
my steel frame, easily
my rusted heart
and olden thoughts
only know cold frozen emotion

My nights are spent with
memories, barely remembered
snippets of forgotten love
and betrayal  

My soul remains a muted
flickering light
of a little hope
and perhaps, love

I still hope
that one day,
love will unlatch
my rusted heart

Show me
all the parts of you
that's not so pretty
your story, your truth

Allow me to share in
all your beautiful scars
even those,
... hidden

I give to you
all my heart
and all I am
I am ready, my love

I have waited
for your
beautiful soul
for longer than I should have

You know my scars
You love them
You show me yours
I embrace them

Our souls
Searching through
Beautiful scattered
Shiny stars

Find me
And I'll find you
For once,
Look past the clouds

Close your eyes
feel my skin
your breath on my neck
a third eye kiss

Your fingers
... linger
silky smooth
goosebumps...

Kisses trailing my
twin pleasure
peaked
sensations rising

This fearless soul, shine
vivid memories of you
detached furious heart

Our the wordless goodbye's
Misery of your silence
My mind screaming loud

I remember your voice
Your words linger

Like a piano
ivory keys stoking

the memory of each
straight into my heart
... and memories

I'm steaming my ******

You're cooking

freshly showered

drenched hair

towel left to warm the floor

The kitchen counter

becomes my burlesque stage

lit in your

alluring stare

you revel

in the backdrop of

my exposed

cravings

With that hungry look

you cannot resist

shifting towards me

honouring my body with

all your attention

Laying in the tub
Oh, how I need a rub

Just your one finger
I am begging you to linger

Feel my need for you
Look at your view

Kiss my lips gently
My hips move elegantly

My juices want to escape my body
I am beautifully greedy

Pause
Still
Breathe
Gasp

I beg for you
Your **** needs to spew

I stand
Facing the taps
Gripping
With both hands

A ******
Deep
Deeper

The deepest part of me
I am soaked and creamy

Somewhere between
the wind and
the rain
we missed the
beautiful rainbow

"I'm somewhere
Between your soul
And my last breath"

My sorrow will
always find
your memory,
and smile...

Tell me all the
things you will
never say
out loud

Whisper your secrets
into the deepest
part of my soul
I'll keep them safe

Unspoken chemistry
Infinite attention
Unconditional trust
from my soul to yours

I never talk to strangers
it scares me to get close to the unknown
but, then I remember
how we met ...

My heart stubbornly

believes that one day

            you will truly see me

... truly love me

A collage of
colorful memories
turns to
tearful cheeks

The beauty in
a journey traveled,
often reflecting
our pain
our loss,
but it is in these
moments we reflect
The beauty in pain

To look at a soul
and not seek
the face
of beauty

To look at a soul
and not need anything more than it offers
too many are judged, in such cruel,
unfair disgust

Look at the beauty of scars
pain, hurt
loneliness
... despair

If you seek beauty
you will never
truly see
the beauty of a soul

a sunflower smile
on this windy sunny day
with hope of some rain

I have often pondered
and wished
sometimes prayed to the Gods
cursed to the universe

To feel so much
hurt so deeply
cry so often
sleep deprived

Yes, I have often wished
that you were the
...one
that got away...but in my soul
...you stay

I see you through
a reflection I only wish
you could enjoy, raw and beautiful
but this is my view, for now

At first glance, I dare not ask to dance!
Intimidating...
Breaking down your high walls
has been a task, a frustrating challenge

You speak few words,
your time
I have to demand
but demand,  I will

For the man I see, the gentleman in you,
is worth my effort
surely one day, for you to demand
... more time with me

My soul listens
... patiently
lovingly, taking in
the sounds of a beautiful soul

I blame the wind

for whispering your name,

luring me

into the intoxicating

fury of your love

Thoughts of you
melt my heart
set my soul on fire
your soft lips on mine

your scent of woody under tones
lingers through my darkest night
your breath against my skin
the soft touch of your hands

the taste of your lips
you are my wine
you are my drug
that feed my needs all day long

Your voice 

Your face

Your beautiful soul 

The way you say my name


Ti amo

I carried you
for 9 months
In the safe confines
of my body

I sang to you
I played the classics for you
I read poetry
It was utter excitement

The waiting was torturous
could not wait to see
Your precious face
and touch your little toes

The day, finally arrived
pain, indescribable
Joyous tears
I was to be a new mommy

But here I sit today
remembering...
you didn't cry
But died

I held your lifeless body
my hands shaking
my heart shattered
you were gone

All these years later
On this day
I still remember
Your birthday

I celebrate your soul
for I know
God had better plans
The answers I may never know...

All I know
On this day, 22years later
I still remember how
Time stopped... briefly

R.I.P my little boy, always in my heart.

We share hurt
unbearable pain
our truths are not always pretty
but we have each other

We get excited about the little detail
and absorb aches in the aftermath
of hope ... lost
often we believe love is not ours to have

But we are friends
and we love each other
no matter what
to infinity and beyond, my friend, my Werner.

On this icy night

I look to the stars

With questions

And teary eyes



I surrender

To the heavens

And embrace

The chill in my veins



Standing still

Weeping

Hoping

Believing



My soul

Filled with hope

I still believe

I will love again

Come and lay
Hold me close
Don’t explore

Just be still
Shut out the world
Clear the sounds
Close your eyes
Inhale
Exhale

Feel my warmth
Feel my love

Touch my face
******* lips

Our tongues dancing
To the sound of Debussy
Our hands wonder

Our souls meet
You are inside
Don’t leave yet
Don’t stop
Don’t move

We wake
To the sound of Debussy
You never left
You didn’t move...

Come lie with me
hold me close . . .
don't explore

Be still
Shut out all sounds
of the world;
close your eyes

. . .Inhale
Exhale. . .

Feel my warmth
my love . . .

Touch my face;
******* lips

Our tongues dance
to the sound of Debussy;
our hands wander . . .

Our souls meet;
you are inside
Don’t leave, yet --
don't stop;
don't move

. . .Inhale
Exhale. . .

We wake
to the sound of Debussy;
you never left . . .
or even moved

Do you want the sensual,

the confident and the *** appeal?

A woman who knows exactly

what kind of reaction she will illicit?

A woman who knows

her body,

her strengths

and her weaknesses

Who knows her body is aging

every single moment lost

Who knows that without a doubt

she has to up her game.

Days are busy

and all we really want to do

is be comfortable and relax

in oversized T's and no restraint of a bra.

An evening reading and sipping on wine or, an evening

in a glitzy restaurant with crisp white linen,

flutes of champagne

and fine dining.

Some would simply opt

for the cosy

fireplace evenings,

I certainly do!

In a world where time is money,

we often think that

without money spent,

we cannot enjoy an evening.

But it is in my moments of solace

that I reflect and know without a doubt

the cozy evenings are where real emotion

and memories are treasured.

You mean the world to me... remember that,

and keep my words

safely tucked into your

beautiful heart

                          ... forever