I LIKE HER
Tear it off.

     I LIKE YOU
     Tear it off.

          I LOVE YOU
          Tear it off.

               I LIED
               Tear it off.

                    I'M SORRY
                    Tear it off.

                         I like her.

I hide behind these lines.
In my head.
On my arm.
Around my throat.

My life is full of lines.
Learning them.
Cutting them.
Writing them.
Hearing them.
Living them.
Breathing them.
Wanting them.
Needing them.

Cutting isn’t going to **** me.
One painkiller won’t either.
If one can’t **** me, two surely can’t either.
Two isn’t working anymore,
Better take another, and another, and another, and another. (another 4, get it?)
Soon the bottles are empty,
Just like me.

I don’t have enough will to **** myself.
And I hate that I reached out.
And I hate that my friends care.
And I hate that I’m on medication.
I hate myself.
Because I hate myself.

And I hate myself for typing my thoughts,
For someone, maybe to see.
I want to date someone, but don’t want someone to care about me before I go.

Look at all the lines I’ve already done.
They still aren’t enough.
I know I need to get better,
But **** it.



I’m finally happy. (I̶f̶ ̶h̶a̶p̶p̶y̶ ̶m̶e̶a̶n̶s̶ ̶I̶ ̶h̶a̶t̶e̶ ̶m̶y̶s̶e̶l̶f̶,̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶i̶s̶)

Somehow you found a way
to cut through my inferno of pain
and find the icy source of all my grief

Broken heart.
Bleeding arms.
Battered soul.

You saw these things, and didn't shy away from me.
And I still can't find the words to tell you
exactly how I feel.

I walked alone down my road of broken pieces and I felt stable.
You joined my side and things were just a bit warmer.
I saw you lurch toward the abyss, and I tried to catch you.
You came back, shaken and scared, but still safe.
I held you, afraid to lose you, who meant so much to me.
But the abyss called you, and there was nothing that I could do.

I walk alone down my road of broken pieces and I am empty.
My sides are cold with the wind, howling through my thoughts.
I stumble toward the abyss, and there’s no one to catch me.
I make no sound, but I fall away from everything that once was.
I spread my arms, glad to leave nothing behind.

I sit by my piano, the sorrowful notes climb through the air, as my wishes gently fall to sleep.
Through the mirror I see scars of memories past, and though I can’t quite feel them, I know they are real.
Now I see you, laying there, cold and gone, warm and lifeless, strong and thin, weak and dead.
Could I just have one more day with you by my side? To make you see why you shouldn’t leave, cause girl without you, I can’t see the good in me, and I just want to be where you are...

Just the other day,  I saw you in a dream world,
You said that you missed me, and all I could do was cry,
Because I know you aren’t coming back, not until I leave,
So I’ll sit and wonder what I should do, ‘til I fall in love with Ana too.

So please don’t go, I’m begging you to stay, just hold my hand and we’ll break free together.

We all live in our own world, once the lights are out and we sit alone in the dark. Waiting and watching ourselves unfold into angels and demons.

I see your troubles
and I watch you fall
I hold my breath and dive again
sinking into the frigid depths
Just so you can see the light
and hope to God that you’ll be okay.
You’re my everything, my one and only,
So please don’t leave me, it’ll only make me go with you

So I’ll break for you, if you can stay together for me,
Cause without your beating heart near mine, I can’t seem to breathe,
I’ll hold you in the moonlight, as the waves lap at the shores,
Slowly dragging us down, as we hold our breath again.