Endless Horizon

Endless Horizon Feb 2015

I believe somehow, in some way
We all go through an
Identity Crisis.

Whether it be
Deciding who we want to be
What jobs we want to take
Deciding
Who we really are inside
We question ourselves.

I know, because I have.
I questioned myself an innumerable
Amount of times.
And somehow I still can't
Make up my mind about it.

But don't worry.
I will arrive at an answer soon.
And I hope
You will too.

Something very personal to me and to a few friends of mine. They know.
I wanted to make this poem because I was just questioning the inner me, if you get what I'm saying.

#friends #poem #life #true #deep #deepest #deeper #everyone

Endless Horizon Feb 2015

Finally. Free.

Today wasn't like any other day.
Today is a special day.
Today is the day
...That I forgot about you for a moment
...That I didn't care
...That my problems seemingly vanished
...That my wrongdoings were forgiven
...That I made new friendships
...That I mended old ones.
Today is a special day
Because,
Today is the day that
I was finally
Set
*Free.

#love #poem #freedom #good #me #breakup #free #is #changed #nope

Endless Horizon Feb 2015

Confused

I.
No more than a confused human being.
I feel like I have lost my way.
And it's as if I can't retrace my footsteps.

I
Feel so horrible inside.
The past few years, harboring a secret
Deep down inside
Keeping it locked in a safe.

I
Can't feel guilty anymore.
I've changed,
Or, at least, I hoped so.

I
Am a confused human being
Still making my choices.
And I hope when this is all said and done
I won't be confused
Anymore.

My alter ego has spoken once again. Shoutout to Intern, Winter Silk and Blackness because reasons.

#love #poem #lol #my #confusion #second #since #hiatus #quickie

Endless Horizon Feb 2015

You're Still Looking

It has been a long time
since our eyes have met once again.
Yet, I have gotten stronger
I have gotten wiser
from the being I once was.

From the being that fell in love with you.

I know that now.
And I won't let it happen again.
Never.
Ever.
But I find my efforts at self control futile
as every morning I still search
for you.
I stop and think:
"No. It's over. I'm done."
And I carry on with life

Like nothing ever happened.

But now so suddenly
you, who didn't care about me,
you, who didn't even turn to look my way
you, suddenly did.
And I don't know what to feel inside.
Happiness, joy, excitement, hope
anger.

But know this.
If you're looking for another shot.
You've got it all wrong.
You're already too late.

The people who know me in real life will probably figure out who the subject of this poem is. Lol. Actually no, only one friend that can figure that out.
*To that friend: I actually don't feel happiness inside okay, I just feel really annoyed. That is all.*
In other news, sorry for making it really long. I just don't know how to express this in 5 stanzas below. Do you see my problem?
EDIT: I forgot to mention I'm back from my hiatus! yay! I shall be posting more poems here as my thoughts have all accumulated and I actually have material to write about now :)

#poem #hope #breakup #false #still #problem #looking #youre #oneless

Endless Horizon Dec 2014

A Time Long Gone

Sunlight beaming through the windows I
did not expect what I’d found.
Brown faded boxes scattered to and fro
little did i know what I’d find right below.

In one box, as normal as the others,
I found a friend from years long past.
My teddy bear...unwashed,
its ears weirdly bent, its eyes on its last.

Then, the memory hits me.

Back to a sunny day,
a time when I needed not worry
of complicated things.
A day just spent with this bear by my side.
Frolicking the fields and
getting my shoes ***** from all the mud.

Oh how I yearn to live in a time long gone,
when it was all still simple
and when it was all still sweet.

A poem I wrote as a class assignment! Just revised some lines and added new ones bc it wasn't concise enough.
**I want to post new poems but I can't because of all the homework and schoolwork I have to do its annoying***

#poem #life #death #forget #remember #memory #bear #stuffed #plush #teddy

Endless Horizon Nov 2014

Earthquake

Every time I look at you
I can feel my whole world crumble.
The ground beneath my feet shaking
trees rustling, concrete cracking.
Buildings collapsing.

Every time I look at you
chaos,
devastation,
they always seem to follow.

Every time I look at you
I can feel an earthquake
erupting within my heart.
Shaking the ground beneath my feet
my walls crumbling
my senses dulling
my mind wandering
to a fantasy of you and me

Every time I look at you
the ground collapses
and I fall
and keep falling.
Because I know
that you won't be there
to catch me.

Just a short one literally before I go to sleep. I wanted to post something else, but it was with a friend so I don't have it with me.

#love #poem #heart #earthquake #terrifying

Endless Horizon Nov 2014

Forget

I may have came uninvited,
but I hope you find solace when I'm gone.
I may have crept up on you,
but I hope you'll remember the times when our eyes met.
I may have cast a bad impression,
but I hope you'll find somebody who'll make a better one.
And now on your special day,
have another year to yourself.
But if I may ask of you a favor,
please forget me,
as I have forgotten you.

#poem #something #birthday #nope