I’ll never
promise you
forever,
because
forever
was when
i was with
her.

her eyes,
you’d mistake it
for the stars.
her lips,
they shine
as light dawns upon.
“will it melt
with a touch?”
I ask.
She turns away,
she laughs.
“will you fix me
if it does?”

satisfying my
****** desires,
was all
I planned.
but
your lips,
your hands,
your hips,
your eyes,
you entice me,
you.
you’re all i think about.
you.
you made me fall for
you.

and she left. the day i dreaded the most, the day i wished would never come, the day i prayed she’d never say those words.

“i’m tired of you”

was all she said and left.

with each other,
we played around,
****** around
as one would say
“never catch feelings”
our one and
only rule

but

a rebel at heart,
i was.
to break rules was a
part of myself.

“i think i’m in love.
with her.”

you told me you were different
you told me you would treat me right
you told me to trust in you
and I did, I trusted you
and for what?
I lost my sanity
I lost my identity
who I was is no longer who I am
because I let you take that from me

I hate myself for allowing you to use me
lie to me
hurt me
scar me

you want to come back into my life
and... honestly...
I crave the hurt
I know its unhealthy
I know its wrong
but yet
a part of me
wants you again
a part of me is so numb that it would do anything to feel something
even you
especially you