Lies are used to Build Walls
Lies are used to Barcade our true selves in.
Lies are used to Hide what we think is wrong
Lies are used to Build a fase world that encases us and destroys our humanity.

They tell me to write what I know
But they also tell me to write the truth
so I think I'll write what I know to be true
Though that list is quite long so I'll start with a few
I know that the sun shines always, even when we can’t see it
I know that growing up is scary, and there’s no way I can flee it
I know that sometimes people leave
I know that it makes you feel like it’s your fault,
Like you could’ve done something.
I know that you will sit alone and start to wonder why
I know that it’s important you learn, that’s its okay to cry.
I know that you’ll build up walls, way too high to climb
I know people would break them down, if you will let them try.
I know that you’ll be scared to love, even just a friend
I know you will think they’ll leave, and leave you alone again.
But I know that there are good people out there
I know you’ll let them in
And when you let your walls come down
Your life will then begin

Hold tight to hope's embrace,
   wait...

I've heard this line before.

   This corridor I've walked along before,
I walk along once more.

Breathlessly tracing my fingertips along the walls as I stroll through the halls,
  
   Feel the infinitesimal imperfections,
akin to the ones in my mind.

Mind the gap.

Ahead here,
   is a dead end.

the point I cannot see past.

what,
What is behind my wall?

~Robert van Lingen

My face blue
I race through
A misplaced zoo
Where disgrace grew
Into a mistake stew
Like the River Styx
Where people mix
Into a wall of bricks
That makes me sick

They steal my serenity
But when I look ahead of me
I see that I'll need them
To experience freedom
So I amass suitors
But I don't see them as sons or daughters
I see them as polluters
I see them as pirates and marauders

They see love as a doorway
To their own complacency
In order to see me more days
They take away my agency
Instead of aiding me
They start grading me
No longer elating me
They start deflating me

I shoot a missile
Of dismissal
Into the barricade
Of the bed I made
And keep sailing on
By flailing on
The floor
Begging for more

More people
More walls
Another sequel
Another fall
I have erected a maze
Where I've elected to graze
Deflecting their gaze
To enjoy wandering days

I experience happiness
Without their craftiness
But I begin to get lonely
My mouth starts foaming
I search to find ramparts
That can't part
Where landsharks
Eat the parked

Stuck searching
Perpetually perching
On the ledge
Of the wedge
Between myself and others
Looking for cover
I built protective walls
That became too tall

I feel a sadness within me
Tears forming within my eyes
Brimming with a glistening look
As my mind begins to pry

Concealed within the walls of my heart
The Barricade which guards my soul
Carved into each and every stone
The things that make me whole

Broken pieces which have fallen apart
Crumbling and breaking
Though cold and Black is the outer appearance
The Other side isn't worth forsaking

Inner side is painted with colour
Vibrant, Alluring so wonderful and clear
Through beautiful are the artworks laid  out
Its what's hidden within them that makes them so dear

Not everything of my heart is beautiful and clean
A great deal more of its dark and corrupt
Stirring with anger raging within my soul
Its what stands behind that which causes it to erupt

Within the volts of doors
And walls built to the skies
Its right at the center
The lonely girl cries

Locked beneath it all
Covered in chains
I keep her caged in there
She must b restrained

Otherwise my mind would run wild
Fueled purely by emotion
Running everything I've built
In a desperate plea of devotion

The outer world isn't something
I want her to see
As its not as beautiful
As the picture books make it out to be

So deep within me
She sits and she cries
Waiting for the day
Where she finally can die