I wish I could escape from you. Escape from the emotions I have about you. I wish I could escape from this captivation that entangles me, I tell myself that one day we could be together, But I feel myself sinking into that familiar dark abyss of loneliness again. You caused it. Seeing you with her caused my heart to shatter into a million pieces, Once again I'm alone. Once again I feel alone. Once again I feel trapped. Because I am I love with a man older than me, And entangled in a love that will never be. So I sit here, And wallow in this familiar desperation, The loneliness keeps me company, But only for now.
My recent reluctance plays on repeat My shaken hands radiate with heat I choke on my words Throat thick with lies I swallow them down Gagging on my pride Regret in my chest I attempt to catch my breath Praying for solace My head to the ground I'm stuck in this moment I don't want to be found
Get the sudden feeling that I I'd be as at home in earth as on Because I get home to no messages Which means no one knows me and the ones who know me must barely care I get the sudden feeling that half the reason I have for living ultimately isn't there