I used to be such a beautiful delicate Rose, now all I am is dead Rose that has been Wilting in the winds of disappointment/stress and solace.
    I used to look at myself in the mirror 🪞 and be happy with what I see, a beautiful girl with long spiral curly hair along with a nice slim figure and beautiful beautiful big brown coffee eyes. All I see now is a used to be beautiful girl that went from an 8 to a 4, her big brown eyes became smaller, her nice slim figure is thicker, and her long textured hair became nothing... Relationships, the 🌎, and people can damage you. Most importantly.. YOU can damage you. Putting others before your happiness will destroy you. Since I was a little girl I was putting people before me at all times; I wish someone would of taught me to love myself the way you're supposed.
    I used to be such a kind soul. Still am but my eyes and my glow are not as bright anymore. It has dimmed down to depression, anxiety, and introversion what makes me seem like a monster... The people I gave/give my heart to and my all to are the same people (including myself) that made me into the dead Rose I see today. I just want to see my glowing light shine nice and bright...
  🥀
     Like it used to.

you used to dream in moody lit bars
raise your glass
higher
and higher
each time.
you used to live in tricolors
gleaming across the atmosphere
all
at once.
you used to shine brighter than the sun
but your light dimmed
darker
and darker
every time.

i know you aren’t ok anymore, but i really wish you were

Just
to
let
you
know
that
these
days
I
don't
miss
you
like
I
used­
to
miss
you

Why       don't       you*       love       me       anymore?
I      understand       why      other     people      don't,
*But                                  you                                  did
O                         n                         c      ­                   e.