I used to be such a beautiful delicate Rose, now all I am is dead Rose that has been Wilting in the winds of disappointment/stress and solace.
    I used to look at myself in the mirror 🪞 and be happy with what I see, a beautiful girl with long spiral curly hair along with a nice slim figure and beautiful beautiful big brown coffee eyes. All I see now is a used to be beautiful girl that went from an 8 to a 4, her big brown eyes became smaller, her nice slim figure is thicker, and her long textured hair became nothing... Relationships, the 🌎, and people can damage you. Most importantly.. YOU can damage you. Putting others before your happiness will destroy you. Since I was a little girl I was putting people before me at all times; I wish someone would of taught me to love myself the way you're supposed.
    I used to be such a kind soul. Still am but my eyes and my glow are not as bright anymore. It has dimmed down to depression, anxiety, and introversion what makes me seem like a monster... The people I gave/give my heart to and my all to are the same people (including myself) that made me into the dead Rose I see today. I just want to see my glowing light shine nice and bright...
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     Like it used to.

recreation's okay

if you don't overuse

it helps on days

full of constant abuse



it's not like I'm crazy

or criminally inclined

i just like to relax

i just like to unwind



too much to forgive

so much pain to forget

the world is in chaos

it helps ease my regret



don't worry about me

i got a lot on my mind

i just love to relax

just love to unwind



it's not going to **** me

there's no need to judge

i'm careful as can be

please don't hold a grudge



you say that's it's hurting you

you say "I'm not blind"

but I need to relax

i just need to unwind



what's the harm in a buzz?

it's better than nothing

"she does what she does"

we all want to feel something



maybe I should stop

they say you only have so much time

but I have to relax

have to unwind