it’s not that i don’t trust you
i just have trust issues
i guess i’m trying to say it’s not you
it’s me
or does that just sound too cliche?

I remember when you told me you loved me
I told you I didn't believe
You held my hands and said:
"Baby girl I am in love with you, from your smile to your heart. I love you more than the world. And nothing can tear us apart."
I was so scared to open up but, with those words I let you in
And from there, you knew, no matter what, you would always win
So you started your journey with me until I realized that journey would never begin
I saw you with her and the same words you spoke
Poor girl, if only me telling her would help realize he is too broke
I knew I shouldn't have believed you but, those eyes played me for a fool
Now, I'm wrapped in wool, staring at a wall, wondering why I allowed myself to fall

i keep giving myself away
blocks of love
or trust
constantly leave my foundation

and sure
i get love or trust back
but i've given     so
            much
that no matter      how much i
      get
my.  foundation
remains
fra  gmen  ted

i          know  
     that           i'm too giving
but at the same   time
i can always
g i v e
      more

i will give until
i       b  r
e
     a
k
until i    f
                 a
                    l
                      l

no matter how many times
i give
and then break
i will never
stop
opening      myself
               up

to being broken again

You know
That moment
When they say
I don't care about all of that
That's in the past
It's us now
& you feel
Uncertain
& full of hope

Where once you knew
That which confuses
Brings one to question so many things
How can it be so untrue
Why were you so oblivious
Why did , I not see what , I knew
I was so consumed in you
I believed fell into the hope
I trusted that's the truth
I trusted you
So I'm not just hurt but mad at me
A bit disppointed in what I thought
You wonder why , I refuse to trust
You wonder why , I question now
I will not be confused by mask of deception or be fooled by pleasure
If I know if I knew
no longer will , I be left to question
© Jennifer Delong 3/11/19

In your darkest days you’ll remember my name.
When your brain is clogged with the wind and rain.
To those December summer nights where our love will reach new heights,
I’ll always be there.
No judgment, I don’t care.
I don’t care because I do, I only care because I care for you.
When the world turns against you and there’s nowhere left to run.
You’ll always have somewhere to hide, because you’ve found the one.
And when you’re on the podium waving pandemonium
I’ll be there saying I told you so.
No matter what the world can throw.
You and me, will never be alone.

A gentle wind blew and a leaf falls down,
Soon footsteps start crushing it,
Days pass it dries and it dies!
So does happen with love!