I cannot do this anymore
Digging myself into a hole
Allowed myself to hope
Instead I ended up broke
It's both our fault but most is on me
My wish was that we were meant to be
My worst and best days shared with you
Were everything that I knew.
Made me feel complete, so full of life
Little did I know, that was my own knife
I told myself "Just keep it light"
My heart and soul just shined too bright.
But then it hit me like a storm
That you will never call me home
You are exactly where you want to be
Your heart and soul were with me temporarily.
This was a game, I think I lost
Now I'm ready for the worst
You chose the easy way out, so do I
To get you out of my heart and my mind
I wish you happiness with whoever it may be
I don't think I have the strength to see.
I will be first for someone new
Before that happens, I'll forget you
Turns out that you never loved me
It was my perception of reality
I told you goodbye and then I hung up
No txt or a phone call, you never faught back
The saddest thing is, that this is the end
In just one moment I lost love and a friend.

and the earth split open
ravenous and unforgiving
it swallowed us all whole
not one of us was left living
i was taken last
made to witness the fall
to say goodbye to the past
to say goodbye to them all
they all stared blankly
as they were taken
i heard no asking
there was not a scream
or a begging sentiment
and as they swam
to the second hell
before i could speak
cry or yell
i was swallowed as well
to the pit of reckoning
where everyone fell

When it ends, the little things will haunt you most.
The text you don’t get in the morning.
The notification you no longer see.
The snaps that aren’t from them.
Not knowing about their day.
Or anything in their life at all.
It’s being unfriended.
Unfollowed.
It’s the left you used to take, driving to see them. It pains you to go the other way.
It’s the loneliness that haunts you, as you wonder — do they miss me too?
It’s tossing and turning late at night.
It’s just not being hungry.
It’s the empty feeling without them.
It’s the pain in someone asking how they are.
And you have to tell them you’re not together.
It’s laying there at night wondering who is holding them.
It’s the dreams that turn into nightmares.
Like they are everywhere and there is no way to escape them.
It’s running into them and just not knowing what to do.
It’s looking at them as if they were a stranger.
But you know every one of their secrets.
You know how they like to be kissed.
You know how they like to be held.
You know exactly what to say to calm them down.
Here you are with an abundance of information.
You don’t know what to do with.
Then you try and move on.
But in everyone you look at, you search for them.
As if finding them would lead you to find yourself again.
Because when they left they took all of you with them.
Everyone falls short.
Everyone leaves you a little more empty.
Because when they one person who can make you feel better.
Is the one who has made you fall apart.
How do you even save yourself?
How do you find yourself again?

You seek to destroy
Everything that loves you..
Spreading the darkness within
Wont make it grow lighter..
I know you're broken
I know you're hurting
I cant be the one to fix you
I cant be the one to swim
In the depths of your mind
I cant be dragged down with you.
The truth is
I never really loved you.

I am fine with losing you

I was waiting for a happy ending
But now I'm just waiting for the end

Forget you
I have to
Six years and nothing to show
but singeing cold
and Melancholy’s sweet glow

Forget you
I have to
Six years of arduous arguments
and confidence sold?
Yeah, good riddance

Forget you
I have to
Six years of-
of cosmic conversation
undulating revelations

Six years of-
of seismic adventure
prismatic music creation
both of us our best contender
learning to wake from the world’s sedation

Wait!
Don’t go
Six years carved my soul...
But alas, that didn’t matter
****! Clouds shattered

You forgot me without error
But forget you?
I could never