love is complex
to some love is se x
to others love is a trainwreck
but to me love is hurt
love is pain
love is me screaming and crying your name
because you don't love me anymore
and i am going fu c king insane
When did relationships
By a read receipt?
Only measure intimacy
By a tweet?
What do we have left,
Why can’t we
In a diner seat
"No offense but you're like really fat."
this was said to me in second grade by another kid
to be fair, yes i was an obese little second grader but i had been growing about three inches every year since i had turned three
i don't believe this person was being inherently malicious
but i will never forget their words and the way they made me feel
you told me today that you don't think you would ever love me as much as i love you,
you don't know how many times i've heard that
when i fall in love i fall hard and fast
i give my all to those i've fallen for
am i the problem in this
the reoccurring factor that makes everyone leave
what is wrong with me
tell me god please just tell me
i can change for you
i will change for you
please just love me back
What am i to you?
Am i your one true love?
Am i the girl you want to grow old with?
Or just another warm body.
Someone to hold for a while, but then discard like a used tissue.
Is that what i am to you?
i am spinning in a sea of my thoughts,
reaching for someone to
but no one does,
and i drown.
it's a strange feeling when you realize you're a bigger size than you used to be,
the clothes that were once big on you are now tightly holding in your newly gained flesh,
I know i shouldn't but,
i miss being sick.