Have me get drawn and quartered
Tear my attention span shorter.
Go and tear me limb from limb
My weeping smile from cheek to cheek.

Mutilate my childish mind
Creativity left behind.
Beat me into submission
Misery; your only mission.

**** me and tell me I'm wrong
Hide and whine your pathetic song.
Father's your supposed name
He who ignores his growing shame.

Forgive him is what they say
Unaware of what's given way.
Tear me open for all to see
Dismember my will to be.

If you’re the one sitting on against your window with tear filled eyes and an empty heart.
I understand how you feel
If you’re tired of speaking up because who might chain you back down.
I’ve been on thrown out also.
If you hear your name used as a curse more often then a welcome
Mine has been ruined before
And if living has become a responsibility rather than a blessing
There is so much more waiting for you outside.
I believe that whatever trial or issue contains you now, just as it came, shall leave. Don’t think life is over just because you can’t see it. Lovely things come to those who let God lead them to it.

You may not see the damage,
but it's there
beneath smiles and politeness
deep inside the laughter and
within every crevice of joy
lives doubt

You may not know you caused it
but don't deny it
inside every tear and worry
deep inside the sorrow and
within every doubt
you live

Up and down
Far and near
In love closest is tear.

You haven’t seen the scars of the tears.
Lightly etched on my skin
Hidden under heavy layers
Covered by colored masks

You don’t see the breakdowns in front of the mirror.
Every inch is inspected
Every inch is rejected
Every time I see the reflection

So how can you know everything is fine
You never bother to ask
I no longer care to share
We sit at distant ends of reality

Because

In real life I’m shattered inside.
Every second I break a little more
Day by day I break away
Soon I fear

Nothing will be left

I haven't looked back after letting go of your hand.
It was a promise that you made me do.
I've kept that promise in every step away from you.
I've kept that promise in every tear I cried for you.
I've kept that promise in every moment I was missing you.
I've kept that promise hoping it would lead me back to you.