living makes me want to die
while the sound of the river keeps playing,

and my privilege will soon drown it out
as the river trickles down my ears,

but i keep hearing the same song.
I dance in the rain

people start to believe my lies
and I splash in a puddle.

i laugh with grief

there is no me anywhere, anymore
My clothes are soaked with protection.

I run and run and scream and play,
Waist deep in my little river,

it's thick
must be the polution

no one hears my calls or wishes.
I let myself float care free.

I hold my breath everyday
I feel it slosh in my brain

I won't wake up from this dream
I'm sinking

drip
drip

I hear the river stream
as it moves past my body
as it moves through my body

it goes on
     it goes on
          it goes on

what goes on when i can't?

drop
drop

silence.

I love that smile.
It makes my day.


With the clear, morning sky,
And the smell of fresh, recent rain,

Let's take a walk
down my favorite lane.

Stay by my side
Let's enjoy the endless time we have.



It's amazing how
The presence of someone really special to you
Can uplift your world entirely.

the man with the long hair caught my attention today.
something inside of him was luring me to stand by his side.
the weight of the captivating man's ambiance was suffocating.
i was drowning in the feeling of his life that surrounded me.
what was so special about the man with the long hair?
it's as if power was raveled in the beautiful mane that lay atop his head.
when our eyes met for the first time, there was something holding me there. Something's preventing me from pulling away.
there was something about his stare that was so bewitching.
i suddenly desired to know this man.
i longed to hear his story; to know why i felt so biddable just from his aura.
i turned to ask his name, but alas, he was nowhere to be seen.
and i was left standing in the middle of a busy street,
wondering how my life will be complete
without the man with the long hair.

A lion and a tiger live in my house
I hate their roars
My voice is as silent as a rabbit
As they slash slash slash
Our home gets trash trash trashed
Bash Bash Bash
I warn beware
Lion Paws through walls
What I’d give to be a bear
After the battles the tiger is calm
While she still rattles
Her paws are soft and welcoming
The lion sits ticking like a time bomb
Pride to great
To admit to any mistake
When the lion roars all run
Except the tiger
She stands and defends us
We wish though she didn't fight fire with fire
Her roar is just as fierce
Even my wails and screams can't pierce through their roaring
Once I had seen
That even the tiger could scream
The lion had scared her into a corner
She told him to leave but still he'd scorn her
The tiger tears spilled
And for once I couldn't take it
My anger filled
And from then on I became a bear
Without a tear I endured the roars of the lion
Without a tear I stood tall
And when the lion closed in
I didn't let him know he scared me
Now the lion stays in his cave
And with his pride
He acts like he has done nothing
Nothing at all

Alice! You’re falling down the rabbit hole!
Losing yourself whole.

All of your free time spent,
Chasing this descent.

You named this place 'Wonderland'
You think it is so grand

Just remember dear,
We're all mad here!

This spread of paper          so cold that
      my tongue-tip    aches-freezing
the    dense flowing words    as ice
    down the ***** by gravity

Katabatic attack
    relentlessly      for weeks
My preception --whiteout;
rain, snow, hail, sleet.
    Precipitation always
measured by soul & pain

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