I question in pain the blood running in those veins!
Questioning those purposes i found created and realized in my journey!
questioning with bitterness..with being lost in my space, my soul, mind mind...**** inside me!
**** towards a black whole!
knowing nothing if i'll be getting out of it or not!
knowing nothing except i saw the lonely air, lonely feelings, lonely self!
I questioned finally if i have Human Blood!

i'm not in love. and it *****.
once you have it, it's so hard to have no feeling.

it's an addictive feeling and i want it so bad.
but i am afraid to let myself again.
is it worth it?
that feeling for a week followed by 6 months of pain?
honesty yes.

it is the best feeling in the world and i just have to wait for a while,
till love feels it's the right time.

Lipstick is red,
B a L L s are blue.
Your mom S U c K e D my D I c K,
And your dad did too.

When i'm not okay
I hate myself
When i am down
I hate myself
When i have failed
I hate myself
When i can't be what i want to be
I hate myself
When i have so much problems stuck in mind
I hate myself
When i can't shine like everyone
I hate myself
When i hate myself
I hate myself

Nothing's special in me
I can't be like those girls
I can't be like another people
I can't struggle with creative mind
I can't survive the hardest time
I can't solve problems with smartest way
I can't reach the top
I just can see everyone's standing on top
I can't be like this
I can't be like that
And i can't be myself

What is a smile without the pain.
Does it feel like you are on bliss?
Or
Does it scream out hope?