I feel like I'm
holding my breath,
waiting,
waiting for something
to happen,
even though
I know
nothing will.

Today was the day I found reasoning.  
Reasons to all the madness you've bestowed me.  
It was true, the spark was not there anymore.  
But the deceitful lies should have been saved for yourself.  
I didn't need false hope to be okay with you again.  
A friendship would have sufficed.  
But you're so selfish that you thought you wanted more.  
Instead you've left me here again.  
Guessing why I wasn't good enough this time.  
The truth is the complete opposite though.  
Were you good enough for me?
After all these years of self-improvement on my part.. You're still the same.  
You don't know what you want, as far as love goes.  
You will never be satisfied if you're always expecting something from nothing.  
Love can't be forced, I understand that..
But a friendship after so many years of being close,
That would have been ideal.  
You wanted the whole thing.  
You wanted the comfort, the love.
You wanted all of these things from someone who was trying desperately to love themselves.
Someone who didn't even feel comfort in their own skin.
Boy oh boy did you let your colors shine this time.  
It's true, I am very devestated.. Losing you was hard for me.
Realizing that I was putting you on a pedestal where you didn't belong, is the worst part.  
Realizing that I have wasted my time and love on something, never to be appreciated, kills me.
But God works in the most beautiful ways.  
I prayed for him to show me who you really were, because of my doubts.
He answered my prayers the day you called me and said you couldn't do it anymore.  
I know it was her, the reason you left me.. the one that you believe got away...
But just wait and see, one day that girl will be me

Regardless of the tempest that embraces us
Let our branches keep holding together
Let us hear the whistle and be swayed by the wind
And let the love keep binding us forever.

You are brighter than
the shining sun.
When I believe
I cannot be happier,
you come along and
prove me wrong.

i have so many things
to consider doing with my life.
minor things, major things.
just too much for me
to handle.

hugs
mean more to me
than anything else.
they mean more than your kisses
and the pleasure you could
bring me.
I would die for
your hugs
and your hugs only.

Lovely little human,
Often do you cry,
Lost inside your mind.

Broken little soul,
Yelling to the moon,
Explore the dark inside.

I think of you
quite often.
You mess me
up sometimes.
But when it comes
down to it,
I wouldn't want it
any other way.

I am a sad soul pretending to be happy.
I often believe that I have actually found happiness.
I sit alone in my dark room and realize I was never truly happy.
I want you to be here with me before I do terrible things again.
I know you can't be here with me because our parents won't allow it.
I hope that when I wake up in the afternoon everything is normal.