Love can breathe life
Bring life
Be life

If you can love yourself enough
To believe love

I will catch you when you fall.
I will wrap around you till you feel secure
I will not let go till you can walk again.
I will always be right behind you when you feel like your falling again.
I will not break because I'm your support.

But who will catch me when I fall.
Who will wrap around me till I feel safe.
Who won't let me go till I can walk again.
Who will be there everytime I fall over and over.
Who won't break on me because I use your support to much.

I will catch everyone who falls into me,
But who will save me when my net breaks.
The netting I once had is duct taped everywhere because I've been used, torn and some I couldn't save.
They broke me..

I will be your safety net if you would be mine every so often.

the lamp
is a street away

i can see it
through the pouring rain

with every droplet
opens my imagination

the smell is rich
of regrettable decisions

the screen is a safety
from the rain to me

maybe if i just took it down
the history would shine through

the lamp goes out
another shameful mistake

the lamp
is two streets away

i can only find the open palms of my demons in that red mist, the ones that once held my face in a much harsher way than you do now. your calloused hands feel like heaven instead of the hell that slept in the creases of their fingerprints. sometimes i fall too close and i see their blackened eyes that replay childhood traumas that i have spent years repressing with self-destructive behaviours and alcohol. your own remind me of the rivers i could drown myself in but i must remind myself that diving in will only give me peace, not death, though it feels like death whenever they're not in my sight. sometimes i think about hurting myself again but then i remember the claws of those monsters and how they can't compare to your nails tickling at my back in the late of the night where theirs would be cutting me open. i don't ever want to be in their grip again. never again. never.

Love, why do you make my heart bleed?
It leaks thick red plasma that stains on my fingers
As I try to conceal the pain and hide it deep within
My own two hands reach up and take my breath away

The lies you speak catching in my lungs
Forget keeping appearances, I'm suffocating
The answers seem so clear
As I gasp for air

In shock I stare down at my hands in horror
As I find they are replaced with your own
This sudden display leaves me in disbelief
I don't want to see all the truth coming up to smother me

I wasn't smart enough to stay away
From those treacherous arms that promised safety
As they had planned from the beginning
To clench around my throat and liquidate all my strength and glory

Before we even said our first hello's
You planned the end before we began
Love, I will make your heart weep
What you give out comes back to you

I will get you on your knees
Begging for forgiveness
Till they become bruised and give out
I will break you down before you dare to believe you've won

If you are iniquity think of me as your karma,
You will never win

In the dark I think of him and his beautiful hands. They fit around me so fluidly. He is gentle and curious, lending my body his kiss as I lend him myself. We are ever gracious that our intertwined souls separated for years just so we could experience this homecoming.
In the dark I think of us. We were meant to fold into one another and find forgiveness in one another's embrace. Here, in this bed, there is no such thing as shame. Here, there is trust and warmth. Touching each other's skin is akin to reading our favorite books. We never tire of this bedtime story.
In the dark I think of how peacefully we dream together. How my jaw never clenches in anxious loneliness when he is by my side. We are tranquil as a rowboat on the lake, rocked to sleep by the moon's gravity.