How do I end up in this bizzare world, is it normal?
How do I go back to where I came from, was I off it all?
You counted every second that we spent inside their prison
Brought us here from beyond the high fences and Gates then
Could you please explain, why I never thought of leaving
Why I always dreamt of looking up at the stars
Is there some other way of trying to be thankful
Why do they always act so shameful

Your lipstick smile, your polished nails
Your lovely eyes, always saw through betrayal

Save what I hid in my closet, from the monsters under my bed
Save what I hid from father, from the trolls of the internet
It wasn't gonna be easy, they said
It never ever gets easy, why still talk now?

Do you like to run on a wheel, coz you're spinnin round and round all day
Do you like the white flashes, does it act as a band aid
Do you like to flash what you got hidden in your mouth
Do you always have to live, and talk how you live, come on now

I said they don't wait up, they're tired
Your words wake them up, they wouldn't rather be tired
You gotta know where to keep your feet
Coz yes you'll lose balance, you'll lose all your fears

Say it now, move slow
Hope is yet to come, you got nowhere to go
Shame grows like disease
You gotta try and get back up on your feet

Who else in this world is tired
Of everybody making you feel like you don't have a home...

I remember walking all around the city
Flashing lights and bustling cars
All the people kept staring, looking at you
You smiled and looked back at your heart

It was breaking, cracks appearing
You were crying, we were saving
Couldn't mend it, coz he broke it
Glad you ended it, he wasn't worth it

I remember pink clouds of candy floss
Long walks on the beach
Fun days and endless crazy days

Was it when you laughed?
That I found peace
Was it in your hand
That I was beaten
Everybody still tells you what to do
Nobody gives you a chance to think of you

Was this how life had to be?
You moved away, further from me
Was it when you stood him up
That you fight back harder  these days

Remember the mornings, making toast
Remember the feelings, of letting go
Remember your heart when you said no
Remember that time almost lost

Was it when you laughed
That he came back
Left you hanging for a while
After two days of love
He never told you what
He was supposed to

And you made your own
Sister talk with him
And you two went out
And then you left him

You barely talk at all, maybe with your friends
But they are not around, they never were with you till the end
And we can run around, like the kids we used to be
And they can TAUNT us now, but we don't see

Was it when you were laughing
That you let go so hard
Was it when I was crying
That you had to leave
Why did you go through with everything
You could've just let me know

And in the memories, in the evening
When the sun sets, you're still breathing
Letting go of, all that you love
Let this end now, it's time to go now

I've not been myself for a while,
had my heart
broken y'see;
It was a little while ago now,
the pain has faded,
it merely ebbs now and again

I've not been myself for a while,
it changed
me y'see;
I pieced myself back together,
best as I could,
but cynicism still spilled
into the cracks

I've not been myself for a while,
totally someone
new y'see;
there is so much that I want now,
so much more than boys or love,
I'm hardened to all that

I've just discovered myself,
I just realised a second ago,
I never really went away,
I was just concealed under the surface,
waiting for life's little pleasures
life's little happinesses,
to pull me through,
out of the ever-ebbing darkness.

If you feel you have no reason to forgive someone,
Consider this one - forgive because you deserve peace of mind.
Holding a grudge is like making your worst enemy the center of your life,
Don't give such authority to anyone,
A grudge only hurts you,so what's the point of holding it?
Its like holding a really sharp edged knife hoping it'll slice your enemys fingers when in the actual sense its slicing your own.
We all wish grudges could hurt the ones we hold them against but sadly they only hurt us.

How silly of me
Everything I'd ever wanted
Staring me in the face
And I chose to turn away.

I'm currently in this complicated situation of trying to figure out who I am and exactly what I want to do with my life.

Yet self love in a world seeking to mould us to a social convention is the greatest hurdle to overcome in the step to figuring out exactly who we are.

Can you remember who you were before you were told who to be?

I endeavour to do this through taking time out and moving away for a while. Indeed I have wanted this for a while.

One must find oneself before expecting to be found.