My dad told me "Son, We all have experation dates".

That stuck with me for 5 years, I never knew what he meant by that.

Until one night, they gave my family 2 options. Pull the plug or continue his suffrage.

It's not you when
You intentionally hurt me
With a voice laced with venom
And words like  knives  
                                      
It's not you when
You crush me
After you've built me up
It's not you!

I know you
It doesn't feel like you
Shivers go down my spine
Your energy feels like a malevolent stranger
I wait for it with feared anticipation


Where did you go?

Once I felt safe
You were home

Comfortable
I was happy

Now I'm just
Afraid      
                      of you
Paranoid                  just like you

For you're own actions
That you blame on me
I accept it
Because I believe you


Where did you go?

You aren't my friend I once knew
You aren't who I fell love with.

Who are you?

It’s like being stuck in a vivid daydream.
I’m awake but paralyzed, as if I were still asleep.
I keep fading in and out through dreams
While I’m staring at the wall.
Is this death?
Then why am I so powerless?
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You can't* keep everyone happy
In the end,
Someone draws the short straw
There's got to be someone
Who doesn't get their happy ending

You can't have more than a few friends
When it comes to it,
They'll all get jealous of what you do for one but not another
Until you lose those closest to you

You cant do what you want
Always dictated to,
Being told what you can and can't do
Forever restricted

You can't talk to other girls
They're threats,
No matter who or what they are
You'll be stolen away by them

You dont get a say
About what's happening,
Word equals law, no ifs or buts
Subordinate

You are powerless
You are voiceless
You are relentless
You are subordinate

*You are the one who chooses to stay despite it all

Night charges in and Fear tiptoes after
They slither across the floor
And as they crawl into bed with me, I can hear their maniacal laughter.

In my sabotaged subconscious there is no lock on the door,
An open party where the demons dance
And in explicit, intricate agony I attempt to scream “No more! NO MORE!”

The zombies infest, fester, and invade as their decayed, falling-off feet begin to prance
My mouth is gagged and the chains tighten, as horror plays before my eyes
This is no ordinary tragedy – not one soul has a chance

Trust is meaningless and dangerous, the loyal ones are spies
Logic is thrown out – there is neither a beginning nor an end
Time turns and churns, double-crossers criss-cross – lies, lies, LIES!

My power is ripped away, shred by tiny shred
Everything is spiraling out of my control
I silently scream and struggle as Fear forcefully pins me to the bed

I swim through the sea towards consciousness, but He won’t let me go.
Eyes fly open as Fear ties me up with taught ropes, His beautiful disaster
The unbreakable fibers are woven from smoky shadows, and time crawls on far too slow

My heart beats – faster, faster, FASTER!
But the helpless heroine is no more
The shadows slink away and stick to their corners, for Daylight is my master.

Touch me where it ******* HURTS
    My mind is your last unconquered frontier
      My body is yours
Inside and out
        And i feel your control without a doubt

  I like the taste of you
I like the taste of these leather straps that hold me back
       But for the life of me i hate feeling numb to your every whip and lash

      SO TOUCH ME WHERE IT HURTS
Where love doesn't live
          In my mind and I'll give you the key
      To unlock my heart and my tar black soul coated in pathetic misery

     TOUCH ME WHERE IT HURTS
I promise i have no emotion to offer
But my body is yours, every broken inch
    To do with watcha wanna

Just touch me where it hurts..