i remembered the time
when i begged God to stop the night
because it was the closest i got to be with you
and then in an unexpected moment
the wish was granted

the city was still alive
and the electricity continued bursting outside
everything was noisy and crowded
but i got to cherish this lovely silence beside me
when i thought we are always moving forward
never crossing like two parallel lines in a universe
somehow there was going to be a divine intervention
that will keep us together
even in a short period of time

i heard your slow breaths
i felt your fluffy cheeks
i saw you in your beautiful grace
your hair moved in slow motion
and being the fool that i am
i captured every single thing

in an unexpected moment
i got to look at you
not looking at somebody else
like how you stare in awe
at your celebrity crushes

in an unexpected moment
i got to listen to you
not listening to somebody else
like how you still care about what other people think
after telling you there's really nothing to worry about

in an unexpected moment
i got to talk to you
not talking about somebody else
like how you describe every exact detail
of your special friends and families

and in that unexpected moment
i got to love you
not loving somebody else
like how you cry your heart out every night
wishing for that person to never say goodbye

i don't want to end this moment
but if i want to stay with you

i have to.

— parallel

One day I hope to wake
Without your name in mind
Not a single scar searing
They say it takes time

I will not write about love lost
Sun will rise without fail
I will live life in your absence
Lungs will gracefully inhale

So let's have a final moment of silence
For the heart torn from my chest
The worst part of leaving over
Now I can move on and start the best

It's exciting to live life on the edge,
until you fall off the cliff.

It's exciting to shout from the rooftops,
until you're deaf from the noise.

It's exciting to get caught up in the hype,
until you crash into the ground.

It's exciting to tear up the floor,
until you've dug yourself a hole.

It's exciting to get carried away,
until you're dropped from its grasp.

It's exciting in the moment,
until you realize it's just that.

the gray space behind
crow flys over autumn trees
one rose still alive