Somehow you always come back into view
As I watch the dawn
My heart finds its way to you
I reach out yet you’re always gone

Just in time
But always in vein
All I ever wanted was to feel your love
or say goodbye to the pain

Let me go, say good bye. I don't want to waste another moment waiting to cry.
You hook and grip at every turn, just trying to be free
But you know every turn in front of me

I loved you because you were close
but you were always really gone
You let go for a little while, so I try to be strong

Let me go, say good bye. I don't want to waste another moment waiting to cry.
You hook and grip at every turn, just trying to be free
But you know every turn right behind me

Here I go ready to fall, away from you for me
Losing you how its supposed to be

You live here in my mind but finally I see the move
In saying goodbye I have nothing more to lose

I told you so!
It must have been a blow
When she let you go.

I said from the start
She was a wicked ****
With an icy heart.

When will we learn?
Please don’t think I’m stern:
She should go to hell and burn.

It’s time to move on,
Sing a different song
Onto pastures new -
You know
What you have to do.

Right now you feel broken –
You know I ain’t joking.
Time will heal,
No matter how bad you feel.

Be more careful next time,
Don’t be the victim of crime.
Sure, you must risk being hurt
Before you can wear the shirt
Of someone loved so true
Just for being you.

Yes, I told you so,
But now you have to let go
And continue the show.

But please listen next time
We see any bad sign
And all should be fine.

Never give up –
You can drink from that cup.
She’s out there for you
And you know what to do.
Just do it.
As though you never blew it.
Rise as high as you can,
There’s a good man.

Paul Butters

© PB 10\6\2020.

I would give anything to tell this little girl with those red curls that she was beautiful, cause she couldn't see it herself. I would erase thoughts that shouldn't be there, hug her when no one else would and dry all the tears that kept rolling down her cheeks. I would tell her that she shouldn't be so ******* herself, whatever is hurting her right now won't be here forever. I would reassure her that not being normal will be something she's glad about in the future. I would tell her that I'm proud she's holding on, and still not giving up. Shes got a little fighter heart.
I would thank her for being stronger than what was causing her so much pain. Maybe this little girl just needed someone to tell her that whatever she's doing it, would be good enough. Always trying to do better and better made her question if she could ever meet her high expectations. And when she couldn't the disappointment ate her alive. I'm not ashamed of how I tried to handle a situation that I clearly couldn't deal with on my own. I wish I could have helped myself earlier so now I wouldn't have to worry about what people thought of my ugly scares. I wish I could have saved the girl, so she didn't have to spend her teenage years in her room trying to **** her sadness. But I'm thankful that she was stronger than this and decided to live.

youre the missing lyrics
to the song that plays within my soul

Pink sunsets and gold
We lay without clothes
The sky feels so close

Warm waters dancing
Colors romancing
Time never gets old

Just before I drift to sleep
I think about what you think
But I’ll never know

Pink sunsets and gold
We lay without clothes
Then the air grows cold

Blue summer is here
When you are not near
It’s our time to go

Just before I drift to sleep
Please don’t let me see you leave
So I’ll never know

Pink sunsets and gold
I lay without clothes
Wishing you were close