Our connection was intense
Our kiss was toxic but sweet
The colour of your eyes was like autumn
I was so keen
I was all in

Our bond was strong
Filled with pure alcohol
And when I got sober
I saw clearly the end
You pointed it out for me

I followed your arrow
I followed your footsteps
And you led me to the exit
Now I need a compass
To get the hell out of your soul

Nothing lasts forever, doesn't?

I'm only 18 so call this meaningless
I'll tell you I've been in love on at least four separate occasions
with at least four separate girls.
Say that it wasn't really love then
that I was too young and naive to know
what love truly is.
You have every right to believe that if you want.
But to me, each and every one of those times
It truly was love and honestly still is.
I guess it's that they just don't feel it anymore.
I'll doubtlessly fall in love so many more times over
and cry on so many friends shoulders over having my heart broken
but if this is the path I must take to find a truer love than I have ever experienced before than so be it.

I want a love that burns with a passion and intensity so bright
that most others would be burnt up in its light....



Is this too much to ask?...

wE wOuLd DaNcE iN thE reFriGeratOr ligHts
aS iF nO oNe wAs watching and SING SONGS
NO ONE EVER KNEW AT THE TOP OF OUR LUNGS
WITHOUT EVER pausing to bReAtHe BECAUSE
SUFFOCATION IS NEVER A PROBLEM WHEN YOU
HAVE OXYGEN AND YOU WERE MY LIFETIME SUPPLY
WE WOULD GET H I G H OFF OF
CIGARETTE DAYDREAMS THAT WOULD NEVER BURN OUT
AND ON SNOWFLAKES THAT WOULD NEVER MELT bUT I GUESS
FOREVER ALWAYS MEANT SOMETHING DIFFERENT
TO YOU BECAUSE yOu  hAVE MET SOMEONE ELSE AND
YOU SAY SHE REMINDS YOU
OF ME BECAUSE SHE LAUGHS A CERTAIN
TYPE OF WAY AND LOVES YOU ENDLESSLY
(oops she didn't tell you that yet did she?)
AND I ALREADY KNOW YOU DON'T FEEL THE
SAME WAY BECAUSE YOU NEVER DO AND
I DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT GIRL BUT IF SHE IS
ANYTHING LIKE ME LIKE YOU SO OFTEN CLAIM
THEN pLeAsE dO nOt bReAk hEr
sHe dOESN'T DESERVE IT SHE DESERVES TO BREATHE
OXYGEN NOT CARBON DIOXIDE SHE DESERVES TO
GET HIGH OFF OF HAPPINESS AND NOT AN ASHTRAY
SHE DESERVES A FOREVER and you will never be able
to give it to her, because forever will never mean
the same thing to you.

(h.L.)