When you miss someone
So much it hurts
Like physically hurts
And it makes you cry
It *****
I miss you heaps

she furiously scribbles down on her tiny notebook
that she keeps hidden

trying with all her might to ****
and continue starving herself

because apparently pretty hurts

you don't know,
how bad
i want to approach you
but i can't

your smile?
it lights up my world
and i,
thank you for that

your voice?
it's music to my ears
i want to tell you that,
but i can't

i want to come up to you
and tell you how perfect you are
but of course,
i can not.

because to you,
i'm just a nobody
and  that
will never change.

it hurts to know
that you have someone new
to treat like a princess

that you're happy with her
like you used to be
with me

but even though it hurts
i still have to go
and live my own life

because after all,
i'm the one who let you go

i love you,
but you don't
i'd give everything
but you won't

you're my sun
but to you
i'm just a light

it hurts a lot
but i still hope
that maybe you'll feel
what i'm feeling towards you

i want to give up
but i can't
and i don't even know
why

maybe because,
you can't teach a heart
to stop loving someone
who doesn't love you back

I have this same recurring dream
And you are always in it
Mostly its us cuddled together
Legs over legs
Fingers laced together
You holding me
Sometimes Im crying
Sometimes were laughing
But all the time Im happy with you
I talk about my life
My childhood memories
I want you to know every part of me
Sometimes I want to give up
Because loving you this much hurts
But I can't imagine life without you
Because without you
I couldn't imagine
And that's why it hurts so much

What did I do?
for you to resent me
for you to look down on me
for you to break me

Now what do I do?
for you to go back
for this family to go back
for my heart to go back

Mother, what did I do?

Why can't you love me the way you should
I know you could...
Instead my heartache is what you're choosing...
It's me that you are loosing...
I hate what you've done to me,
I was all that you ever wanted me to be,
I'm not blind, I can see..
I see your game,
I'm not insane, you are hurting me...
After everything I have done for you,
everything I gave you, you turn around and cheat?

I couldn't help it.
I saw the open door
saw you were asleep
grabbed my clothes
from off the floor
and tried hard not
to weep
as I took my leave
trying so hard
not to look back
at you there
wondering why
I should even care--
but knowing the truth
will always follow me--
I cannot love you
or care or stay ever--
I have to be free.
So I hurriedly dressed
and quietly took my leave
and I ran,
yes, I ran
and left you to grieve
and wonder why--
but better to have you wondering
than you having to watch
as I slowly die...