on that cold night
i remember us lying in the dark
hands encasing each others
heart beats louder then
the rustle of the trees around us.

we laid there wondering what
tomorrow would bring for the two of us
if the world knew you were mine
if the world knew i belonged to you
entirely

what would happen then?

Fooled by love,
rather fooled by life
a maze to walk
seldom traversed
without the inevitable blank wall
tormenting befuddled mind.

Love is real.

Life is a hazy non-reality.

Trust the heart

for melodious, rhythmic beats

signal that 
life is now
not some distant goal.

Love is around,
within awareness

find it

among sky, among trees

within *****, within 
wombs. 


Will you be worthy of love?
Rather will love be worthy of you?

When words were in slumber
I tried listening to the silence
Heartbeats reminded me of life
Calmness of the soul, of peace
It is now, I woke up to silence

Everything was but a dream
I hear you calling out to me
Your silence is audible from afar
A plea to listen to your soul
I am floating away from you
When you try to reach out to me
We are just frozen in time
There is nowhere we can go
Our heartbeats have come to a standstill
Only memories which are alive
We have lost track of time
The world goes on-
But we are lost in the moment
Nowhere will we feel alive
Except when we are wrapped in this dream
A journey between us
Where we fail to move beyond this

I thought I was
over the silly little butterflies.
But whenever you're near,
I could feel them fluttering around.
I could hear my own heartbeat.
I could feel it beating like crazy.

I find myself looking down
and around just to
avoid your brown eyes.
The eyes I've always adored.
Wishing I could look straight into
them without feeling anything.
Because when you're around,
I feel all the butterflies
and heartbeats x2.

- S.S.

why do you make my heart beat so fast?
i feel like it's pounding out of my chest.
i don't know how much longer i can take it
i fear it will stop all together, be put to rest.
they say love is butterflies,
but instead mine are hawks
and a venom in my blood
i don't know what to do
and i don't know what to say,
all i know is that i need you
yet you remain so far away.
you used to be mine but now are hers
and how that happened i'll never know
but just your name drives me crazy
you're my highest high and my lowest low.

I have got a question.
How do you tell someone you love them.
And not mean a single word of it?

How is that even possible.
If I did that.
I'd have burning hate for myself.
Because right then.
You just injected poison into someone's heart.



But the real question is.
Why.

Is it too hard for you to face me?
And tell me  that you in fact do not have passion in your heart devoted to me?
Because it would have spared me the scars and ****** wrists?

I want to lay down
Under the night sky
And watch the stars
With you
For so long
We notice them spinning
To the sound of our heartbeats.