Something is amiss
Lips without a kiss.
Anger cloud
And it is loud.
Try to stay mute
Cause your not being cute.

Don't waste perfectly good loneliness.

Don't waste it on the wrong person.
Don't even waste it on the right person.

Don't waste loneliness during the day,
When there are things to be done.
Don't waste it in dreams at twilight,
When there are dones to be thinged.

Don't waste loneliness at night
When your time should be your own
And could be filled with anything
Other than everything you're not.

Take your loneliness
And denigrate it.
Crumple it. Crush it.
Throw it in a blender.
An industrial oven.

Take it out
For a few drinks too many,
And a few more after that;
Lull it into a false sense of security
That congeals with its drunken state
To create a blinding dichotomy
Of vulnerability and arrogant invincibility,
So it suspects nothing
As you lead it
Down a dark alley
And beat it to death with a brick.

Have a too-close-to-call
Fight to the death
With your loneliness
In a public toilet,
With it almost getting
The better of you
Until you smash it
Teeth-first
Off of a porcelain
Sink basin,
Before dragging it
By the hair
To a cubicle,
Where you hold its head
Under the toilet water,
Long after its body stops convulsing.

Do what you can
To transmute
Your loneliness
Into solitude,
And wear it.

Inside-out.
Back to front.
Upside-down.
Right side up.

Wear solitude so well that
It ends up wearing you,
As its skin.

Use solitude to learn thyself.
To feel thyself.
To know thy changing self.

Let solitude remind you that
The existence of loneliness
Begets the existence of
The antithesis of loneliness.

So definitely don't waste
Perfectly good loneliness,
Especially if you're forgoing
Perfectly good hope.

YES ... Something For THEM ... !!!
Those In The Audience Whose Acts Are ... " Pretense " ...

PRETENDING Their ... " Friends " ...
When They Really STAND AGAINST ...
The Ways Some EXPRESS Through Raps And Poems ...

SOME Like ME ...
Whose Poetry Invites The Weak ...
To Go And SEEK Some ... THERAPY ... !!!

Fiends Who Scheme BEHIND The Scenes ...
To ... SCUPPER Dreams of Speech That's FREE ............................

Speech That Deals In HONESTY ...
Because They Keep Their Closets DEEP ... !!!

DEEP With Secrets ...
FILLED With WEAKNESS ... !!!

SECRETS Kept They Should Accept ...
Rather Than DENY The LIES They Hide ... !!!

The Types Who ... "Confide" ...
About Their Lives To OPEN Minds ... !!!

OPEN Minds That ... " Sympathise " ...
Until It's Time To ... CRITICISE ... !!!!

Well I'm THAT TYPE Who Is NOT SHY ...
To Put Their Lives Where They ... DON'T LIKE ... !!!

YES I'm THAT GUY Who's SICK and TIRED ... !!!
of Snakes Whose Brains ... REFUSE To Face ...
The Simple Truth About Their Moves ...

They're A Little TOO QUICK To RUN THEIR Lips ... !!!
About Things They Want Kept ... "PRIVATE" ... ?!?
But Here's The Bit That Makes Me SICK ... !!!

Things Said To THEM That They DON'T LIKE ...
Are SECRETLY KEPT ... Inside Their Minds ...
To Cause PROBLEMS ... Further Down The Line ..........

Meanwhile They SMILE BEHIND ... "Snake Eyes" ... !!!

Those NOW KNOWN As A TWISTED ***** ... !!!
Who YES Are Prone To ... QUICKLY Snitch ... !!!!!!!

Like Those Now Reading These Lyrics ...
Who Are Sitting There Wishing That I'd Get HIT ...

By A ...... STRAY Bullet ...... !!!

Because My Views When Using Words ...
Is Built To HURT Like Bullets BURN ... !!!
I'm NOT Concerned With Worms Who TURN ... !!!

UNTIL They TURN ... TOWARDS Big Virge ... !!!
REMEMBER What You've Learned From That Last Verse ...

Because VIOLENCE ... I DON'T DEFEND ... !!!
This Is Something For THEM To COMPREHEND ... !!!

Like Immortal Tech ...
I Will Transcend Through Life And Death ...

O.G ... Oh YES ...
An ORIGINAL Gent Who Is ... " God Blessed " ... !!!

So Wherever This ENDS It Begins AGAIN ... !!!
FAKE Friends You SELL Your Souls To HELL ... !!!

You'll FEEL The WRATH of Virge ... !!!
... WHEREVER You Dwell ... !!!!!

The ... " Connoisseur of Words " ...
Simply REPELS ........................................................

Snitches Who SELL ...
Their Souls To The Devil Like ... " Doctor Jekyll " ... !!!!!

Those Who HECKLE My Spots Like FRECKLES ...
WON'T Like How I Settle Their Attempts To WRESTLE ...
My Views About Life When I DROP My Diatribe ...

The Types Who TRIGGER ... ITCHY Fingers ... !!!
VIOLENCE As I've Said ... Is NOT My Vibe ... !!!!!

But Virge FEAR Death ...

"Son think again !
We're all gonna die, cos' that's part of life !"

But MURDEROUS Trends OVER Arguments ...
And Differences ... Now NEED To END ... !!!
As Do FAKE Friends Who Cause PROBLEMS ... !!!

But TRUST in THIS If It Comes To THAT ...
I'll SPIT Lyrics Like GATS Go BANG ... !!!!

EVERY Last Word Will OPEN Urns ...  
OPEN For THEM ... Like The Poem Says ... !!!

I've Got Some Things ...
I NEED To Bring That May Well STING ... !!!

Are You Still Reading ... ?
Cos' I Can Hear Them Now ...
YES ... " Whispering " ...................

"Let's shut him down, him and his mouth !
We'll make him wish, he had no lips !"

Is That What They Think ... ?
... " NEW AGE FASCISTS " ...
Supremacists And Hypocrites ... !!!

I Guess They Do ...
Well Here's The Coup ...

I'mma' DO My Thing ...
NO MATTER What They Think ... !!!

DON'T Like My Views Or How I Move ...
Well OKAY That's COOL ...
Cos' I DON'T Like YOU ... !!!
OH YES ... It's TRUE ... !!!

NEVER Really Did ... !!!

See I've Learnt Some Tricks ...
From ******* Who SNITCH ... !!!!!

See I'm An HONEST Man ...
But NOW ... Hold Things Back ...
From Girls And Boys Who Use Dud Ploys ...

Just Like TANNOYS ...
I Can Make SOME NOISE ... !!!

But DON'T EVER Think ...
I've Lost My POISE ... !!!

EVEN When I Drink My Mind EMPLOYS ...
Ways To .............................. AVOID .....
Those Who ..... ANNOY ...... !!!!!

I'm WATCHING Fools ...
Who Think They're ... " Cool " ... !!!
But Choose NOT To Lose ...
My ... PEACE FILLED Groove ... !!!

But JUST For THEM Imma' Say it AGAIN ... !!!
VIOLENCE ... I DON'T Defend ... !!!

But My ............................................................
................ SILENCE ..............................................................

May Mean Your END ...
Cos' it Probably Means You're In MY HEAD ...

Where You ... Should NOT Be ... !!!!!
If Your Life ... You NEED ... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's A WARNING You SHOULD HEED ... !!!

Those Ensuring ... WARS Are Seen ...
ALL This WARRING'S Giving Me ...
... HOMICIDAL Tendencies ... !!!!!!

ALL I NEED Is ENOUGH Money ...
To Keep Me AWAY From Those Who ...........................Sway .....

In ... DEVIANT Ways ... !!!!!

I'm NOT AFRAID So DON'T Mistake ...
My Use of Verse As Simply ... " Words " ... !!!!

Of Course They ARE ... !!!
But THESE WORDS Mark The Path For Darts ...
I've Got EARMARKED For ... YELLOW Hearts ... !!!!!

That's Where I'll END This HERE Poem ...
Cos' NOW The Snakes KNOW ...

I've GOT ...

...... " Something for THEM ! " .......

It's About THAT TIME ...
To Use STRAIGHT Rhymes To EXORCISE ...
What Rests Inside My ... ANGERED Mind ... !!!!!

A Mind That Tries To OPEN Eyes ...
of Those With Sight Whose Vision's ... "Blind" ... !!!

That Line DESERVES Some BIG REVERB ... !!!!!
So That It's Heard By WORMS Who Turn ... !!!

When Their Time's UP ...
I DON'T Give A **** Cos' It's Time To CUSS ... !!!!!!

Generations LOST ... NO GOLDEN POTS ...
Except For The Bods' Right At THE TOP ... !!!!!!

IGNORANCE On The RISE Because of LIES ...
And FOOLISH PRIDE ... That INVITE FIGHTS ... ?!?

The Type of FIGHTS That ******* Like ... !!!
Yeah ******* ... That's RIGHT ... !!!

******* Who Figure They're SMARTER Than Flipper ... !!!
Who Fight Over **** Because They DON'T THINK ... !!!

PROVING Their Hustle LACKS PEDIGREE Muscle ... !!!

These NIGS' Make Me SICK Cos' They're FULL OF IT ... !!!!
See THESE Are The Things I've KEPT FROM My Scripts ...
Because DEEP INSIDE ... My Blackness DEFINES ...
A Love That Is Blind When IGNORANCE SHINES .... !!!!!!!

These Days It Shines ... BRIGHT ... !!!!!
So NOW It's THAT TIME ...
To Start To Relate What Makes Me IRATE ... !!!!!

******* Who Think They're SMARTER Than Me ...
Until Their Heads SINK ... INTO My Poetry ... !!!

STUPID ******* ******* Who Think Their World's BIGGER ...
Than Those Whose ELIXIR Is SEEING ... " BIG PICTURES " ...

Those Making HOT BEATS Who KEEP THEM ... "Discreet" ...
And Make A RETREAT When Others ... COMPETE ... !?!

YES That Includes ME ... !!!
But DON'T Get Me WRONG ... !!!

My Wordplay STAYS STRONG ... !!!
And NOW Brings The HEAT ...
On ... " BIGVIRGE.COM" ... !!!

Like Em' ... **** A BEAT ... !!!!!
You KNOW I Ain't Yella' From MY A Capellas ... !!!
Like Jay I ROCK Fellas BUT NOT Like Nas' Said ... !!!!!

So **** Giving Head To Fellas In CELLARS ... !!!!!
I've BEEN SPITTING FIRE Since L' Was Shot Dead ... !!!
And Now Am INSPIRED ... To Start BUTTING HEADS ... !!!

No Beavis Can See This Because I'm The DEEPEST ...
To Put Thoughts On Paper That Jools Can Have ... " LATER " ...  
My Thinking CUTS Graters And DISMISSES ......... Favours ........
For ******' Who SAVOUR ... NEGATING Their Flava' ... ?!?

I'm USED To The Haters Who Think They're Creators ...
From Those Who Make Beats To Those Who Sing SWEET ...
They ALL RUN FOR COVER When I Bring My Speech ... !!!

FAKE *** Mother ******* Who WILL ... " Catch A BEAT " ... !!!
If EVER They Seek To Bring It To ME ... !!!!!

See THESE Kind of Flows ARE NOT ... Who I Be ... !!!
My USAGE of Prose ...
IS ALL About PEACE And UTOPIAN Scenes ...

Well These Days It Seems ...
To Be ............................................... WAY OUT of Reach .... !!!!

THE CRUNCH Has Begun ...
So Who's Having FUN ... ?
And WHO Will Be ABLE ...
To KEEP Their **** STABLE ...
WITHOUT Telling FABLES ...

That Leave Them Struck DUMB ...
When ... JUDGEMENT Day Comes ... !!!

I LOVE You STILL Mum As I ALWAYS Have Done ... !!!
And HATE Saying THIS STUFF Because of Your LOVE ... !!!

But Hope Some **** DOES ...
SHOOT Me With A GUN ... !!!
So I Can Feel NUMB ...
And END This ****** Life of ******* And LIES ... !!!

Some ****** WILL Write ...

That ... " VIRGE LOST HIS MIND !!! "

And Say That ... " My PRIDE, Denied Me Good Times ! "

Well My PRIDE Is My Heart So DON'T EVEN Start ... !!!
It's HELPED Me Survive While Weak Hearts Have Died ...
Because of Their PRIDE And ... IGNORANT Vibe ... !!!

The Vibe That I Walk With Is One FILLED With Pride ...
The TYPE That Resides In The Heart of A LION ... !!!

Therefore When I'm Talking ...
DON'T Make Me Start ROARING ... !!!!!
Just TOLERATE This Until I Find ... " ZION " ... !!!!!

A Place Where The SUCKERS Can Bring NO MORE Ruckus ...
I've Seen Enough Now To Know That ****'s FOUL ... !!!
And KNOW That The CLOWNS Are Heading DOWN SOUTH ...
To JOIN ALL The ******* And RACIST Head Figures ... !!!!!

Those Living IN FEAR When PRESSURE Draws NEAR ...
And Those Who Stay MEEK When It's Time For REAL SPEECH ...

This Isn't STAR WARS Can You FEEL THE FORCE ... ?!?
Cos' The Force LACKS A Cause Where Wars Are CUT SHORT ... !!!

When Talk Is NO MORE ...
Who'll Walk The REAL WALK ... ?
STAND STRONG and STAND TALL ... !!!
And Then START The Call For ... Corruption To FALL ... !!!

NOT ME Anymore And That Is For SURE ...
I've Written Some Rhymes In THIS PIECE I DON'T Like ... !!!

But ... TRUST In This Line ....

... " It's Time For Straight Rhymes ! " ...

My pen wore red, and scathed a struggling stroke
Black became it better, until feeble nib broke

Blue cried abiding stains, after much impatient rigour
Green was inconsolable, and pink was unconsidered

It was led who was left when all else lacked
That was until rouge eraser attacked

Is it a conscious activity of the precarious pen
To cease work as you require it again and again?

CAN'T Black People Just Get ALONG ... !?!

Well My Answer To This Is ...
... I Guess NOT ... !!!

DON'T Get Me WRONG ... !!!!!
Of Course SOME Do But NOT For Long ... !!!

That's Just MY VIEW ...
Because of Things That I've Been Through ... !!!!!

ARGUMENTS Over PURE Nonsense ... ?!?
With SO CALLED Friends ... And IGNORANT Men ... !!!

Who've GOT ... HARD HEADS ... !!!

Let Me Make This CLEAR ...
HARD HEADS And HARD EARS ... !!!

The Type Who FEAR Those Who WON'T Adhere ...
To What They Hear Coming From Their REARS ... !!!!!

Nigs' Who Hide Behind Veneers ... !!!
Well These HERE Rhymes They NEED TO HEAR ... !!!

DON'T Make MISTAKES Time And AGAIN ... !!!
INSIDE My Place ... You Should REFRAIN ... !!!

Go Home To YOURS ...
And Then ABSORB Your Train of Thought ...

Then THINK Some MORE .....................................................
Then Grab Your HAMMER And Be Like THOR ... !!!

Just Like Rappers Whose Tours Are POOR ... !!!
Because They FIGHT Like WARRING Tribes ...
FIGHTIN' To SURVIVE And GRAB Their Slice ...
of The ...... DEVILS' PIE ...... !!!!!!

D'Angelo KNOWS ... What That Feels Like ... !!!
It Can WRECK Your Life If You GRAB A BIG SLICE ... !!!!!

DISRESPECTFUL Types WILL PAY The Price ...
For ... Weak Attacks They AIM AT Blacks ... !!!

Nowadays Most Whites Have REALISED ...
Some Blacks CHOOSE To Feud With OTHER Black Crews ... !?!

And Are QUICK To .............................................. Dismiss .....
Those Within Black Skins Who TRY ...
To UPLIFT The Minds of ... " NIGS' " ... !!!!!

Those Who THINK Their ** DON'T Stink ... ?!?!?

..... " Black LOVE " .....

... " Black WHAT KEEP Talking Son ! " ...

THIS Piece AIN'T Done ... !!!
I Suggest You LISTEN And DON'T Dismiss ... !!!!!!!!

How Many Black Women STAY With Black Men ... ?
ESPECIALLY When They've Had ... " CHILDREN " ... !!?!!

Are YOU A Black Man Who UPPED and RAN ..........................
When Your Woman Had Kids And PROBLEMS HIT ... !?!

When You Packed Your Things
Did The Words Black ***** Pass BETWEEN Your Lips ... ?!?!?

"WHOA Can't Black Folks Just GET ALONG ... ?!?

Well ... I Guess NOT ... !!!

And That's NO JOKE ... !!!
Although Some Quotes Are CLEARLY THOSE ...

Like ...

" Whites Did THIS ... !!! "
And ... " Whites Did THAT ... !!! "

They've Pulled Some TRICKS ...
There's NO Doubting THAT ... !!!!!

But NOTHING Compared To ...
... IGNORANT Blacks ... !!!

Like URINATING IN ...
Your Fathers' Hat ... !!!! ? !!!!

YES The Man Was Black ... !!!
What's Up With THAT ... ?

Black Folks Seem To THINK ...
That They're OWED Something ... ?!?

Like ... CREDIT And RESPECT ...
When They're In THE RED ... !?!

It's NEVER Their Fault When CREDITORS CALL ... ?!?

Saying ... " Payments Due ! " ...

That's NOTHING New ...

See SOME Blacks ... "Hide" ...
Behind Their FINES GAMBLING And LIES ... !!!
And Things They BUY That BLING And ... " SHINE " ... !?!

They'd Rather Have What They DON'T NEED Than PAY Money ...
Back To THE MAN Who Tried To GIVE Them A Helping Hand ... ?

Where's Their DEFENCE In ARGUMENTS ....
That HAVE NO CASE But TRY To ... " Save Face " ...
NO Devils' Pie But A ... NASTY Taste ...
Is What You'll Find In A Cake That's FAKE ... !!!!!

DIVIDING Our Race Seems To Be Their Way ...
FOOLS Who CHOOSE NOT To USE Their Brains ... !?!

Can't Black Folks Just GET ALONG ... ?!?

It Would Seem NOT ... !!!

"ANOTHER One DEAD, ANOTHER One DEAD !
Shot in THE HEAD, From A STRAY BULLET !"

It's Black CHILDREN ...
Who NOW NEED Vests Worn By The FEDs' ... !!!

So BEFORE You CHALLENGE ... FACE That TEST ...
A Den of DRAGONS ... TAKING LAST BREATHS ... !!!

Go RUN Your Mouth On The WRONG SIDE of Town ...
You'll Get FOUND OUT When You HEAR GUN SOUNDS ... !!!

I SPEAK IT As I SEE IT ... !!!
If I'm KILLED ... So BE IT ... !!!!!!!!!!!

If' I'm SHOT Cos' I'm WRONG ...
Then I'll Sing My SWAN SONG ... !!!!!!!

But TOO Many Young Blacks ...
Are SHOWING CRACKS ...
You Can Tell By Their Chat ...
That It's STRENGTH That They Lack ... !!!

THINKING ...
Wrong And Strong ... Is The Way To MOVE ON ... !!!

DISRESPECTING Other Blacks ...
Whose CHAT HOLDS FACTS ... !!!
TRUST We NEED To STOP THAT ... !!!!!
And STOP These Cheap Shots .....

Whether From FAST GUMS .....
Or From THOSE Who Carry GUNS ... !!!
Put Your PHASERS On ... STUN ... !!!!!

Can't Black Folks Just GET ALONG ... ?!?

THIS Time I Hope My Rhymes ARE WRONG ... !!!!!!
Because The Answer I've GOT ... Is ....

.................. " I Guess Not ! " ...............

Attention, everyone attention!
When I stopped talking,
I thought I heard you think
But only silence followed.

You're drowning me,
But I'm gonna take you with me!

His touch clings to me
like spider webs
a tickling irritation.

When I’m stressed -
I wake up -
Fighting him off.
My body remembering his careful violence.

My mind branding over new lovers
with his fingerprints.

Want to mutilate my brain
shed this skin who recalls him
so easily.

No unconscious memories
of other touches
from anyone but him.

I will never forgive or forget.
Condition away this conditioned response.

When will I be free?
Of a man who doesn’t remember me.
--
I see his features in other men.
That gorgeous corn silk blond hair,
the strong, masculine jaw
even the cuteness of his ears.

Somehow that tugs at my heartstrings
The twinging pain disgusts  me.
How can I still feel this way?

I want to puke up this venom.
The vitriol burning my mouth.
Exorcise the malicious spirit
that wails in my ear
when I see

YOU.

Or someone who almost looks like you.

My teeth sunk deep in anger.
You foolish, reckless girl - how could you let this happen?
How could you let him do this to you?

How can I forgive myself?
I don’t know how to.
My forgiveness will never be hinged to him.
He will never earn it.

I want to forgive myself.
My naivety, my hope, my lust.
I went in search of affection and base needs of physical touch
Repulsed by his violating me.

Leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone
let me go, let me go, let me go.

I’m sorry to me for what I didn’t know would happen.
I’m sorry to me that I still blame myself for my violation.
I’m sorry to me how this trauma has burned me so deeply.
How I wish the salve of time and journaling would heal me completely.

I’m sorry to me that I still can’t quite let go.
How he still follows me around - at least metaphorically.
I want my forgiveness.