This war is raging in my mind, a battle not betwixt mankind and I, but betwixt myself and darkness.
An army of ice cold fighting the fires of a hopelessly torn heart.
So much pain and sadness overwhelming the soul.
At times it feels as if they are winning, but I know if anything I will continue fighting.
Only as soon as I give up will everything be lost.

We been together five long years with a beautiful, gorgeous daughter,
She brings the child in both of us she our little joker,
There are never any regrets in the choices I made to be with you through all the arguments through all the obstacles and struggles from good time to bad,
To every emotion from joy and happiness even from anger and sad.

This is the hardest decision in my life that I ever had to make,
Splitting up isn’t going to be easy for the both of us to leave you and our daughter when the time come to be set apart,
I know the pain it going to cause me the hurt in my chest even though there going to be times my heart going to break,
But I just want to let you know that no matter what happens that I will always have a deep place of you in my heart.

You are so strong your capable of so many things you’ve broke obstacles and never realizes you have won them you have a big mind and so may dreams,
Through the mountain you must climb don’t give up no matter how hard it might seem,
You can do all things just keep your mind focus keep pushing through and the most important is that you got to believe,
I don’t want this to be the end of us even though we may be apart I still want to see your goal and see you live your dreams I still want to be there to see you achieve.

Just wanted to let you know for me leaving has to do with spiritual reasons you did nothing wrong and have no fault in this,
When this time comes for me being away, I have faith that our relationship can get stronger but if we don’t ever get back together, I understand and I hope that we can grow another relationship and become best friends and I hope when you are ready that you find love again and find the one,
You and especially our daughter has been the best thing that has ever happen to me you girls help me grow so much the man and father I’ve try to be everyday there no words that can describe how much you girls change my life you are beyond my bliss,
There something I do want to say that important and I’m going to real with you through the past five years I’ve been with you I have dealt with being accuse and blame of thing I had no fault in. The feeling of shame of treating you unfairly or encouragement I’ve try to give you but somehow you take it as a negative point of view, or the exhausting overwhelming feeling of your anxiety, fear, low self -esteem, depression and so on the things you fight within. I’m no angle myself but all the things you have put me through have taught me this is to be patient and that love is a choice, all these years that I’ve stayed is because I love you that much. Let’s pat ourselves on the back that it’s been five long great years with a twist that with all the struggles we overcame a lot together I feel like we’ve won.

P.S God love you unconditionally meaning when no one cares or when no one there when there no support or in life when you believe you don’t have a purpose or just don’t have a clue, ‘’God said before I formed you in your mother womb, I knew you.’’ (Jerimiah 1:5)
When you feel like there’s weight on your shoulder and life is hitting you hard and everything seems to be crashing down, with your head spinning round and round and feeling broken,
God holding your hand and he right there beside you if you give him a chance Jesus is the living water that can flow within you like the waves of a crystal blue ocean,
I will admit that you and I have both experience suffering and that we both have felt like we’ve been in a tunnel in complete dark,
But God is the light at the end of the tunnel and to see it and reach for it you simply must open your heart.

No matter what your decision you make in your life I’m truly happy for you of the things you’ve overcame and the person and mother you’ve become and much more I am, and God is proud,
So, a toast to the long journey we had together and possibly much more in the future to come but until then goodbye for now.

By: Jacob Cuadro

Here's the thing,
               You are a boy, not really but you try to be,
               You are a boy, addicted to masculine words, and pretty poetry
                                                                          About two boys falling in love
You enter a room and say,
                             “Hello i am a boy, and if you tell me i'm not ill show you.”
Your fists do the talking when your throat cant,
You come home to your mother,
                                  All black eye, and busted lip,
“I’m a boy!” You cry,
                           And she shakes her head, eyes wet like
                                                                                            Rain,
You are sent to your room,
                                           To wallow in your disgrace.
Your chest aches,
                      But you ignore it,
                                           Choosing instead to rest your weight.

It's has been a hell of a ride
Goes a lot of downshift
Love ones bid forever goodbyes
Had to let go of things I wanna stay
Accident that almost took my life
Never ending stress and anxieties
Nightmare after nightmares
Hell no you can't make it they said
But here I am...
Hell yeah still fighting

Congratulations on your victory
it’s a shame the blood got on your clothes,
but each blade and pin you stick in me
will stain each and every thread anyone sews.
I hope that you are feeling proud
that you still have the power to wound,
as you want it known and shouted loud
“look at another thing I successfully ruined”

Go on and paint me as the villain,
just make sure that you’ve shaded well.
Every inch of the canvas is filled in,
express that story and scene that you wish to tell.
I’m not going to beg for mercy,
I’m not going to call you a hack.
I’m just sorry you see the worst in me,
if I was a mirror I’d be reflecting it back.

Well done on your gigantic win
I know the scene isn’t set exactly right,
ignore the blood, the guts and the skin,
we’ll have it cleaned by tomorrow’s first light.
Continue to embrace your golden moment,
though you didn’t have to work too hard.
Good fortune and a carefully picked opponent;
one who was already stressed and scarred.

Go on, cast me as an antagonist
but make it believable in each line.
Illustrate my hand holding a demand list,
but my other one has a white flag hidden behind.
I’m not going to plead for forgiveness
and I’m not searching for approval,
because when something is as vicious as this sickness
it’s a quick call for it’s removal.

This isn’t an invasion
it takes two sides to fight a war,
and you’ve given every clear indication
this is what you’ve been waiting for.
We don’t need bullets or guns,
we don’t need forces in the air or sea,
‘cause we’ve both got our mouths, and our tongues,
and a lot of repressed ancient history.