I’m Failure!

She said that with a shining crystal tear in her eyes…

She broke my silence!

Shrinking in her bed, hiding her face, with a tear which killed my strength and toughness… I felt naked.. felt I have no power to make her safe!

Like a little child, eager to have that warm hug, that safe hug, that secure corner… and She broke my boundaries with world I don’t belong to….

Did she saw me how I see and feel her!

Did she felt how she had my back safe and my feelings secured!

Did she realized how stabilized our time and life together!

You didn’t fail me!

You didn’t hurt me!

You didn’t make me feel tired!

On the Opposite….

You did let me feel my humanity…my worthness…my existance…my signature…myself!

And after all that you are saying “I’m A Failure”

You can feel Sad..You can feel Pain…You can feel Disappointed …. You have the right to be Human!  And we will still experience Sad, Pain, Disappointment beside other things however we didn’t Quit… we didn’t Surrender… we still in the Arena that we created and will create and that we will keep creating together and with each other.

Be who you are and don’t be a shame of showing your uniqueness… your worthiness…showing how treasure you are for me…

With love..with admiration..with humble I tell you…you are Enough!

I lost somewhere
In the translucent water
With the blue violet hues
Where there are no ripples
And dirt to destroy the beauty
Of that crystal clear water
Which is known as blue lakes

Somewhere I melted
In its calmest surface
As a transcendence
Vanished in heavenly lakes
Of mystical drops
Like a mermaid 🧜‍♀️

With its first sight
I dreamed to dive in
To enjoy the visible depth
Of crystal lake
Became a real dream
As it is the most clear water
Recorded in the world

Dreaming as a swimmer 🏊‍♀️
In the clearest natural waters
Is the gorgeous Blue lake
Also known as
Rotomairewhenua
Which means lake of peaceful lands
That located in Nelson lakes National Park of New Zealand

Being a dreamer’s dream
Will remain as it is
Due to it’s sacredness
Thus not allowed to enter
In the divine lake
Which holds the visibility record
Upto 80 meters or 250 feet

Deep in the eternal blue
With its pristine waters
Everyone wish to swim in it
That is not possible
As is maintained for clear water record
But anyone can enjoy
Its incredible view
By staying in
Any of the 700 near huts
Will definitely be a
Eternal cool view
In the heart of calm blue
Heavenly lake

there is something painfully romantic
about pushing a needle through fabric
for hours, upon hours
sewing a poppet.
i know i will curse it anyways-
but the thought is nice.