What is it like
to play the last card
Playing with cards
from the shards of your heart
What's it like
to see in the dark
light a little spark
What's it like
to see in black and white
What's it like
to feel a rainbow inside
What's it like
to feel it all together
What's it like
to enjoy
but suffer
Ask me what it feels like
trust me I know
What it's  like to laugh
when you have suicidal thoughts
What it's like
to have tears of joy
While the monsters in your head
play with your heart like a toy
And make you cry
and cry
Cry over and over
When pain is your drug
and you haven't been sober
You always tell yourself
it's gonna be over
But what is it
the joy or the torture
When will you hang
a rope to your collar
And the blood fro your wrists
keeps pouring
over and over
Or maybe one day
your heart won't be polar
and black and white
will burst into the sky
and a rainbow writes
It is finally
Over

My thoughts are like rain. They start off slowly like a drizzle, I feel the emptiness start to take its course through my body
The rain gets harder.
The terrible racing thoughts go through my brain like knives.
Being convinced I'm not good enough, That nobody wants me around, There is thunder rumbling through me. The tears start coming out of my eyes. I can't move, I can't breathe, I start to feel numb. Soon there is a hurricane going on in my head destroying everything in its path.
My confidence, my beliefs, my dreams.
Everything gets shattered.
My eyes are so filled up with water my vision is blurry
and I just want this storm to pass so I can experience the
sunshine once again.
To feel the warmth of happiness.
But every time I do the rain cloud immediately
comes and starts to pour on me and drowns me in these evil thoughts. Over and over again.
My head is pounding, I want to scream But I
feel like no one would hear me because of how
loud this storm is. This happens every night
and every day I try to get stronger to beat this rain
so I can have more sun.

My eyes ache

they weep

a shedding of a tear

like a silent wailing sirens

You're tired.
The skies have turned red.
The rivers have started flowing.
The seasons have changed.

Its ok to do things for yourself.
To be wanted, its a desire,
To fulfill it is a need.
But this Robin has your back.

If I could live on your shoulder to make sure you're fine.
To make sure you're safe and feeling as you should.
I would stay there.
You're a gem! If only you were my gem


Don't let anyone or yourself put you down.
Don't let anyone fake away your throne.
Cry if you have to...
Let go. Don't lose yourself.

Remember the day we met?
And you said you'd be mu friend?
And we started to fall
In love, in love, in love

Remember the days we spent?
Talking about the end?
And how we were
In love, in love, in love

Remember the day you met?
And she said she'd be your friend?
And we were still
In love, in love, in love

Remember the day you took her to bed?
And said we could still be friends?
And how you two were
In love, in love, in love

Remember how much I hurt?
And how you had been my world?
And how i thought we were
In love, in love, in love