Our chemistry is like a beautiful glass of richly red wine.
Taken in by slow sips in order to be thoroughly enjoyed.
Chock full of dopamine, seratonin, and endorphins.
And you want more, you want so much more because
the liquid slips down your throat in a way you've never experienced before. But it is an enlightening experience
Enlightening to the point of toxic. Toxic because it is alcohol and too much of one thing is a bad thing.
But it is deliciously addictive and you start to feel your body slip into an unconscious state.
You remain in this euphoric state with your heart racing and your soul ready to jump out of you, but your mind sticks like glue.

Live your life , enjoy your life, love your life . I don’t wanna die knowing I didn’t live my dream and was all that I wanted to be in life . It’s starting to become more clear to me that if I don’t do what I love and what’s meant for me I won’t be happy . I’m never happy doing something I’m forced to do you shouldn’t feel forced you should want to have a certain career not be forced into it and hate it and waste your life etc I know I love to sing , act and dance I know that’s always been in me it’s my dream . What I need is a manager someone who knows what they’re doing , someone who has connections . Connections are important in this industry . I know I’m gonna make it if I keep trying at least I can say I never gave up . I’m never giving up on myself or my dreams again . **** dreaming I’m trying to manifest and create my own reality .

Why are you so
familiar to me

You can't know the waves
until you have experienced their roar
that comes out of the bubbled seafoam
or their intensity
that uprushes your legs
and lures you towards the setting horizon

You can't know music
until you have been pulled in
by the thrum of a guitar that echoes
into your heart
or the emotion that overflows through
your fingertips and your eyes
when the chord has struck

You can't know the sun
until you have encountered
its sweltering heat in midsummer
that fills your lungs to the brim
and draws out every piece of energy
through your skin
or the softness of the glow
that is filtered lighted through
the red and orange leaves
on a brisk autumn day

So why are you
so familiar to me

let's run away and never look back
this place isn't for us
it hurts me—
all these missed connections,
this guarded vulnerability

i never want to come back here
never again—
these memories i buried
keep coming back to haunt me
it hurts so much i can feel it in my bones

i don't want to listen to the wind
as it whispers all its secrets
i don't want to look at this familiar town
as it drips pain like honey
not anymore—

i want nothing to do with these
blood-soaked histories
let's run away—
leave everything behind
in this ****** town where everything hurts

sometimes I day dream you'll give me a moment
But as I sit and think about it
every opportunity  we have just never seems to work.
whether you got things to do or people to see
It's clear you've got time for others  just not for me
Hurt wouldnt be the word to describe what I want to express
more like confident that I'm better than the rest
I'll let you figure that out when he sends that late night text
you'll realize that his lust isn't love it's  all about the *** and as you sit there full of regrets  if I come to mind it's because you know those chumps aren't even on my level not even close to 2nd best.

Thinking  about it when it comes to women .
**** I love them all
Not in a way where just *** involved
More like everytime I see them I fall
A smile, a laugh or a touch
Just being in their presence makes a fella fall in love
**** heavenly creatures is what they really are
But the past truely makes them question my motives from a far
Trust me im not looking for a quick one in the back of my car
More like someone to just talk to and maybe heal up the scars
People can go ahead and tell you what I seek is a lie
But all those people walked a different path than mine
Cut from a different cloth
Ofcourse I am a man and I have my flaws
But believe me when I tell you
I don't go a day without thinking of you all
what it would be like to have dinner maybe even a call
or what it was like when we first talked
Memories are all I'll ever have and that's fine
I like to think I live like Johnny
But for all of you I'll walk the line

The melodic drum of his laughter was intoxicating.
Chaotic energy burst from his stomach in the most enticing way possible.

It’s rare for two people to see the same truth.
That’s how genuine connections are made,
They see it and share it.

Constantly on the mind, a burden seemingly undefined.
Monday to Sunday, occuring daily without falter.
A posit ineffable, some would say laughable.
Like silence when broken, cemented in time.
Do not fret, life's not done with you yet.
Your time is nigh, get up and fly.
Leave behind those dark fragments suspended in time.