we begin.
i am painted pink
and your hands are my artist.

we begin again.
and i might be hurting
and you never notice.

we begin again.
and you are running miles for the both of us
while i am hesitant to take a step.

we begin.
you and i, both shaking, letting go of holding on.

I never seem to stop thinking
It is the worst when I find myself alone
Memories sprout from the past like weeds
Their misguided roots reach bone

They love to watch me squirm
With complicated scripts and plots
It's not fun to be kept awake
By regret that contorts my organs into knots

Every little secret, wish, and lie
Stress concealed carefully during light of day
How I long for company other than the clock
Lonely hands desperate to interlock and overlay

The purest type of painful suffering
That which takes control of my mind
It takes its sweet time drowning ideas
I choke, oxygen I cannot find

As steadily as life goes on
My foolish head feeds dark scenes
I am a projector expressing miserable emotions
I bring motion to my brain's blank screens

A rainbow of silly mayhem
I long to escape taunting greif
The twinkling sky offers a chance for salvation
Amongst stars I see small shreds of hope for relief

he sang me to sleep each and every night,
he keeps me smiling, warm and bright.
but somehow i feel my mind falling apart,
and why is it you that still owns my heart?
why is it you that takes up my mind?
leave please, would you be so kind?
i’m trying to move on from you,
but thinking of you is all i do.
i love him,
i loved you.
i loved me,
i lost you.
i loved him,
i found me.
you forgot me,
i miss you.

I watch people drown in pools of complicated
but I don't think it's really that hard to stay afloat
It's actually quite simple really
Just keep your pants on

Loving you is complicated, but love has no limit so let's spend it slow. I know I haven't seen you in a minute but you got me writing like this. Because of you I handle feelings with care. Look for the light in all weathered hearts even the glare. Relationship is effort but I'll match your work. I want to be the one that makes you the happiest regardless of whats to come. You'll never be a *****, but you'll never be my property so I wouldn't call you mine. There's much more to your name than just you.

You see not many people will understand the uninity of woman and man. They think *** is where it starts but never know where it goes.

But for you I'll write in the stars that you're my moon and if heaven had height you'd be just as tall. If we understand each other we will never fall. For I am your tide and you're my moon together we move. It doesn't take much to recognize sunshine. For you I crave, to be by your side, in lost times I try to find you. It's love, it's happiness, it's more than just words my heart defines you as such. As my reflection of light I will lead you.

My Travels:
I have traveled the country,
All across, state to state,
I’ve met people that are so different,
You’d never find anyone else similar to them.

I’ve traveled my mind,
I’ve seen all of the darkest corners,
It’s only made up of shadows,
So it isn’t that difficult.

I’ve traveled through the waves of emotion,
I feel sadness,
I feel anger,
I feel numb,
I feel nothing.

My travels include everything a teenager could ever want,
But my travels just make me feel more lonely,
A lonely road for a lonely girl,
It isn’t difficult to feel lonely when you’re always alone…

My travels,
My travels have taught me to always say the words,
“I’m fine”
My travels have taught me,
No matter where you are,
No matter who you’re with,
A depressed mind cannot be fixed through positivity...

Are you, conflicted? You shouldn't be, right?
I mean, we all fall into trenches in life many times over. Down there, you may find the meaning to your existence. Maybe, it may give you the answer that long eluded you. But, before you stumble into it, you need to decide if you'll choose to uphold the rules you bear, or be prepared to get out of it completely different.

I know. We already established what kind of disposition this is, but you know how dangerously intimate this can get out of control.

But, if you're aware, I guess all will be well, and everything is clear?

You desire the Purity of lakes 
the Lightness of clouds 

She's the naked truth
the war soldiers give up on
she is the Heaviness of black clouds
the Rain inside

You recklessly dance on her hips
step after step
where ships once were wrecked

Mind your dancing steps
mind the landmines
some might Viciously explode
some into rainbows never Explained

So there's this guy

I find peace in his vibes
I find true love for him even through my disguise

My several failed attempts to hid my love for him
Show me just how much I truly love him

He makes me feel like the sky's the limit
when I get down and limit myself to my surroundings

He has taken over my mind
24/7 my Thoughts and dreams are now filled with my 75 and 8

If only he could see my thought
If only he could read my mind
My 75 and 8 why are you so blind

We say were just "bestfriends"
He is my bestfriend
Maybe one day we can be more than "bestfriends"
but I do not know my fate
so I'll just sit and wait on my blind 75 and 8