You were a red flag
all by yourself
trying to convince me you loved me
while still putting me on the shelf

don't know why I ignored the sirens
or you running from the lights
I guess I never noticed
Or maybe I was blined by my wanting for
Mr. Right.

who knew it was going to be this way?
for you to believe that your life is amazing and nothing can break this stream of happiness you are drunk on.
for you to only then realise that this is a world you have created as an illusion for this dystopian world that surrounds you.

no one can hurt you.
or so you thought...

you've only ever been open to everyone around you.
this is the source to your ultimate weakness.
and you're the only one to blame.

you're vulnerable and have no opportunity to fix this.
maybe this fact isn't a bad thing; we're just viewing through a negative perspective.

on the road to self-destruction...
and i didn't even notice since i've been blinded.

Didn't I tell you that you're
beautiful as the lights
floating in the city?
Didn't you tell me
that long ago my sight
always varies?
From the the truth
that is so obvious,
but subtle around me.
Baby, I think it's just my love
rising above your
identity

should stars like tears
fall to my feet,
i shall look up for damage done,
for eyes like mine
from which beauty may shine
simply seem to know none.

To live a life only vicariously,
is to be blinded to the beauty of it.

Ma Cherie © 2017

When I look at you i see the day
A morning where a few of my life will be
Slowly it will be dark as your promises
I will see the dawning in your eyes
The threshold of hope above your chin
The lies within your illuminating path
Guiding me in a sea of anything
Random clouds will pour beneath you
For the ray of you aren't perfect
You are still forever shining
But living under you is blinding
How hot you could be yet in a cold way
So good as necessities
Burns in a million sunburns i felt agony
Why am i awake when i see you?
Why do i sleep my life away when you're not around?
It got me twisted
You are someone i love to have
But i need to accept that some point
Too much of everything can be bad
That the world is spinning
Some things are going to be missing
And when i look at the sky at night
I shall remember how the day used to be
Back then
Every time when I look at you

I'm out of my depth
Out of breath
In over my head
Filled with dread
Lost at sea
Down on my knees
Tossed in the fire
Lost in desire
Churned in the coals
Playing the roles
Left in the sun
In front of the gun
Out in the snow
As the northern wind blows
Blinded by the light
In my forever darkened night