you say your there for me.
but when I really open up to you,
you just don't want to see it.
you act like you care,
but when I have these thoughts,
and break downs,
I ring and your never there.



© Copyright Tyler Atherton

What's this game you play
with my heart like prey
everyday
what do you have to say?
it all started last May
I knew there would be a price to pay
and to my dismay
i would've said no way!
if i the the price it be forced to pay

Lies come and
cover your eyes
from the truth
because that's
what they're meant
to do.

Frigid winds pushed up against my car,
and then I saw you come inside.
Those chestnut eyes
that had been gone for so long.
My enraged thoughts
were quickly unraveled
because just a simple moment with you
was worth a thousand days.

But, the feelings didn't last very long.

The car swiftly became a space filled
with words that were never said
and words that would always be dismaying.
All I wanted was to understand
but that wasn't a part of your plan.

I wanted you to come back for more
then just an obligatory visit.

Why couldn't you come back?

For now, though, we'll drive to my house
filled with laughter and lies.

See? I'm smiling.
We're doing fine.

I need your love, it's the only thing that keeps me alive.  When were together I felt whole, then when you left and had not responded hours apon hours, nights apon nights, I belittle each and everytime.You've broken my heart three times...What is there left to break? Nothing...nothing is what you left me with.No goodbye, no reason why, you just vanished. We had love that was forbidden, we did things but kept hidden. At the moment I'm thinking of you, well when am I not though? It's funny becuase when you are here I can be myself without actually being myself. Doesn't make sense does it? Well that is what you do to me. You carried me, then you let go becuase of a little acident. We got caught, but isnt that what happens when you love a forbidden love? You promised me all 4 of the evers but couldn't even give me one? Wonder why you can't keep love at all. I'm attatched, I'm glued the only thing I could lose is myself in you. I love you. No matter what happens, no matter how much it hurts, I will always love you for better or for worse. I will come back to you again and again, even though it might be my greatest sin. Only becuase I see my other half of myself in you and maybe that is why we loved a forbidden love it can only be the most true, becuase baby I love you,

Last night I was betrayed,
again, are you surprised?
Last night I found out how,
alone I actually am.
Last night my body shook,
from knowing the unknown.
Last night I saw the light,
light I didn't want to see.
Last night I realized how,
how much I love the darkness.
Last night the light truly,
intimidated me.
Last night will become my,
biggest anxiety.
Last night forced me to open up,
open my eyes to the dishonorable.
Last night you drove me home,
yet you still drove me away.
Last night made me wonder,
will I soon catch a break?
Last night my heart shattered,
and has not stopped breaking.
Last night showed me my value,
at least my value to you.
Last night you left me in,
light that was blinding me.
last night you lied to me,
last night you lied to me.
Last night you lied to me,
way to many times.
Last night you affected,
me in ways you cant imagine
Last night. Last night. Last night,
will I ever stop saying that.
Last night. Last night. Last night,
will you stop making me.

Our arms lock and embrace
I stare at your lovely face
the reflection in your eye
shows another guy
that's standing behind
me.

Dagger stabbing, blade twisting
back bleeding, stomach turning
eyes blurry, ears ringing
mouth drying, brain denying.

Am I just your stability?