Thanks Bruno mars, she does make me feel like iv been locked out of heaven now.
I hate that I love you, and I love that I hate you, you make me feel like I know what love is, this pain I constantly feel, it never numbs or goes away, iv just learned to deal with it.
I stay close to you, because if I ever let go fully, id loose a best friend along with a lover. Its karma, I thought I knew everything there was to know about you in auch a short time, even now im finding things I love more about you.
I love that I hate you.

Once upon a time, we gave each other the title "best friend".
To me, it meant so much more than it did to you.
It meant acceptance, openness, honesty, love.
To you, it was just a title.
You told me once that we would always be best friends,
That nothing would ever change that.
I was ignorant enough to believe you.
Even after you played games with my heart and mind,
I still believed you.
Perhaps, it was stupidity at it's finest.

They say your first love isn't necessarily
The person who shares your first kiss,
Or the person you marry.
It's the one you compare everyone too.

You are my first love, though, you never even loved me.

You put me though so much unnecessary ****,
And every time,
I continued to run back to you.
Because you were my best friend.

You will probably never understand the depths of my love for you.
But it's okay, because I don't either.

I just wish you knew that I choose you every time.

I've cut off all possible traces that could lead me back to you;
Because it's not worth it anymore.
I'm tired of being ignored.
I'm tired of being taken for granted.
I'm tired of you getting the final say.

Wanna know what I say?
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