Sewn together to be torn apart,
bitten, beaten, ripped to pieces.
Put back together with used parts,
over time her quality decreases.
Drifting like petals in the gentle breeze,
the Doll goes where the wind blows.
She knows hell would have to freeze
in order to get a brand new set of clothes.
A ribbon wrapped to cover a tortured head,
wooden buttons and her bow colored red.

Sometimes
I hear you wondering
Why things aren't they were before

Holding you
Whispering
"It'll be okay"
But not believing it myself

You are not alone
Don't be afraid
I won't go too
Pulled from your small arms

Holding you
Then you lashing out
Kicking me aside
Shutting yourself off
Healing slower
Than a car crash victim

Wailing that split the night
Told;
"You don't know!"
But little did you know
I cried
And I cried
Like silent raindrops
They fell

Each hit
From your small fists
Like a bullet
Piercing my heart

Moving from place to place
Feet barely touch the ground
Then finally
When you stop
Every second
You expect to leave

Bouncing back and forth
House to house
Mother to father
Father to mother
School
Weekend
Weekend
School...

Can't stop this train
One to another
****
Feeling like a tool

Do this
Do that
Lists of expectations
Remember them all?
Impossible.

Yet we have to
We don't like that
No
But we have to go on
Doing it anyway
Until we leave
To be on our own

- Jay M
April 23rd, 2019

There's a pleasure in reading well-crafted sentences so I try my hardest but they fall apart

A mental wrestle
Thinking about us back then/
what we are not now

When were you going to tell me?
Was it the day, you moved out to a separate room
Saying you need some space of your own
Or the day, you told me not to stay up waiting
And changed password of your phone

But do you know I knew it all?
Even before the day you stopped looking at me
The way you used to, all starry eyed
I already saw it coming, when I started missing you despite you being by my side

You falling out of love
Was like a dried leaf falling off a tree
I knew it's all over
Seeing you living just fine without me.