i am scared,
by the brutal judgement of the world,
hide me under your wings,
let your kindness shelter me,
veil me in your love,
-memoona kazmi

It's three am.
You want the arms of a man you've never met,
It only takes a bit,
Nibbles on the neck,
Only takes a little lip,
To get a little wet.
Beach day soon,
Summer comes as soon as you do.

and when you no longer see me,
in the hurly burly world of yours,
or hear my voice,
in the screaming noises of yours,
or no longer see my shadow,
in the darkness of night,
pick my notebook up,
and ponder over it's every word,
go through it's every page,
caress every line of my poetry,
and when you realize it was all about you,
hush.....
dont even dare to say,
that you could have loved me,
never say that,
because you should have,
when i was alive,
coz now it's of no use,
to blow the trumpets of love,
on lump raised,
called my grave.......

i am afraid,
that when i'll open my eyes,
i will be alone again,
you will be nowhere,
near me,
i'll be be left alone,
in the menacing darkness,
to fight all my demons,
on my own,
allowing all the stars,
and the moons to laugh on me,
i am afraid,
that you will leave me ,
shivering in the cold nights,
i am afraid,
that you will blow,
the flower of my love,
as the dried up dandelion fuzz,
i am afraid,
that you will leave the candle,
burning in my room,
die in the wax coffin of it's own,
you will leave every question in my head,
unquestioned,
i am afraid,
afraid of loosing you...........

i am never going to be happy again,
so don't try to tell me,
i will be the happiest,
when i already know,
i can't get that,
don't make me believe that,
everyone loves me,
when i know,
they don't love me,
so dont try to convince me that,
everything will change,
i will start smiling again...

now kindly read from bottom to top

I look into your kaleidoscope eyes  
And am taken aback by your beauty
I wait with bated breath
For something
Anything
To spark between us
Having already fallen for your bait
Now all that's left
Is to hope you fall for mine

Shrink me
Cut me into bite sized pieces
Anything to make me palatable
Make me who I am not
And then we can both move on