Silently I stand
Surrounded in stoicism
Submerged in saddening sorrow
Saddled by stacking sour and soulful screams
This pressure building heavier
Yet I endeavor
I carry this weight
Always knowing
The load I bear
Will at some point
Give way
Releasing a cavalcade
Of despair
My life has not been easy
Albeit easier than others
This pressure grows on you
Sometimes so much it smothers
And covers
The screams
That replace my dreams
That shine
In my eyes
Over time
It has died
All that's left is grime
My eyes
An everlasting echo
Etched into everything
I've ever erased from memory
A cliche I'll enter
I hurt myself
To make sure I can still feel
I meet love head on
Full of zeal
Incessantly inquiring for that iconic
And inspirational ideal
But to no avail
My heart seems
At least to me
A fun thing
For people to step on
I rush to aid the ones
Who remind me of myself
Because for me
No one cared
No one dared
So maybe I should
Maybe I could
Offer my opinion
Grant a little guidance
My lack of direction
Makes me a foul figure
To follow
So my advice is unheard...
I apologize for this dump
Recently I've been in a slump
Just wanted to say this stuff
And also ask the world
****,
When have I given enough?

She has fair skin
And crystal blue eyes
I can only love her within
I must let my passion hide
Unsure of whats ahead
Will I be a hero
Or will I be dead
Am I trapped at zero
Am I weighted down like lead
I look at her in a smokey haze
As I see her avoid my intense gaze
Will she know
Does she know
Can she know
What I wish I could show
Will she be
Can she be
The only one I see
I would say her name
But then this poem wouldn't be the same
And I would be playing a losing game
She is someone not to be tamed
She has to power to unlock my fame
She's the one in my aim
But I cant tell her
I cant see her
I cant be with her
A love, yes a love, that seems to fit like a glove
My heart beats
My mind thinks
I'll be nothing more than a silent love

Feel the amplifier
Pulsating a passion
that pushes and pursues
Values
Jubilantly jumping
In and out of musical Eroticy
Sensuality
Music brings forth the life
Inside
A mind
Trapped and lost
A maze
A daze
These days
It's my only escape
The wailing weeping and sweeping
Down the fret board of a fender
That centers me in Ecstasy
The pulsing pounding petering
From the bass drum
Teetering
And then some
Crash goes the cymbal
I let out a scream
A resonating symbol
That brings forth my dream
Arrogance
Pestilence
Enemy of silence
My musical Resonance
Stills the brewing violence

Listen...

A ghost
Trapped and wandering
A host
Lost and wondering
A conception
Of a fatal reflection
An unknown deception
That spreads it's infection
A specter who needs a confession
To be known
Not thrown
Into the dark
Hark
Who comes to pass
When a tortured man breathes his last
But cannot speak his fears
Horrible and grotesque were his years
A torturer becomes tortured and true
When I lay my eyes upon you
I see through
The fog that faintly filters forgettably
Regrettably
He dies
And is trapped watching you
Trapped in a dimensional center
He is dead and gone now
Nothing but a starry eyed specter

From the past I am revealed

A lonely mind to which I appeal

To rescue him

From his dark past

Although my chances are slim

We make progress fast

I am his past-life manifestation

I must stop his dark delegation

With the only tools I know how

To make these in-mind dark creatures bow

I may not be able to save him

But **** it, I'll try,

I am Steven's rescuer, Daemon

I'm caught in a daze
Stuck in a maze
Of my own confusion
Of a desperate delusion
Its all an illusion
Of better days and better nights
I keep on finding myself in fights
About nothing
About no one
Still there's something
Still there's someone
That holds still my beating heart
Keeps me from falling apart
It's a firefly haze
That lights my way
Until i find you
And i shine through
What has held me back
Given me a heart attack
As i ascend to glory
I'll tell you a story
Of a never ending maze
Where i live out my days
Guided by a firefly haze

Hurry, hurry
Say the mice as they scurry
The cats in a fury
And my vision is blurry
Faster, faster
bow to your master
Dreams that appear in plaster
Built by demonic stone casters
Ring, ring
That bell does sing
With a boom
A crash
And a ding
The sound
Flies around
And puts the cat in a fury
The mice scream as they scurry
Hurry, hurry

I'm a writer
Inside and out
I'm a liar
Is what you all shout
When my heart breaks
It blasts open the gates
Of the darkness within
I know I'm guilty as sin
My mind falters and surrenders
And now i can't remember
What they do
When they have control
They hurt who
I love and wish to hold
I thought they were gone
I thought i didn't have to run
Anymore
I'm so sore
Inside my frontal lobe
My spirit travels across the globe
As i'm expelled from my body
And I'm locked out
And i hurt everybody
And gut them like they were trout
Caught on a hook
Of mind totally shook
An empty shell
Confined to hell
As i wonder an look around
With my face to the ground
I erupt into a shout
Due to another blackout

My world comes crashing down
Around me like a storm
Raging forth
An unstoppable force
The pain tears at my flesh
And I am nothing
Once again
Tears fall upon the glass
How could it happen so fast
I am attached
Nothing I can do
It would never work
I know
As I attach to her
She still clings to her past
I find myself amidst tentacles
Glowing green
Pulling me
Under the sea
As if a ship overturned
The darkness
Yes
The darkness has returned

Have you ever been broken
Have you ever been beaten
Have you ever sat smoking
Looking for a reason
Why am I always on the other side
Looking in I see true happiness
And this glass
Attached
In between myself and my dream
I see it
I hear it
I feel it slipping through my fingers
Is there someone
Is there anyone
Who can pull me to the surface
My pain will always linger
Is there anyone
Is there someone
Who will caress my face
I've completely lost the thing
That brings
That drive to write a sing
Still I try
Wishing I could just die
But I just hide
Who I am inside
With a guard built up outside
My life just a lie
I'm completely broken
And why!
I've never hurt anyone on purpose
I do my best to see the good in others
Even without a purpose
I'm feeling as if I'm smothered
What I write here is all truth
Its what is me
Out there in the air
To the people reading this
Do any of you even care?

Jealousy???
No this isn't jealousy
This is much more dangerous!
Tick tock
Goes the clock
Which measures your safety
Because you've encroached on my territory
Here comes another horror story
I will beat you
And break you
Until your blood flows like a river
So shiver
Your worst nightmare arrives
What will you do
When even your hope dies

Fire lights the sky
Explosions up so high
How I love the fourth of July
But then I think
Why
Why do we celebrate
When our brothers and friends are dying
When innocent youths duck down crying
While on our own streets women are *****
In the loud crack of the fireworks
A man is shot dead
By a silent thief who quietly lurks
In the shadows where a man now lies in a pool of red
Police abuse their powers
While mere children are trapped in bullet showers
As a shopkeeper is killed as he cowers
All i see is impending doom
I do not know to what or to whom
As you sit reading in your room
Do you also think we've built our own tomb
Will we all be without homes
Will our country fall like Rome
Will this become an ancient tome
A mere relic of our great land
With its beautiful beaches covered in sand
Purple mountains standing graceful and grand
And I realize
I should dry my eyes
Because no matter what
Nothing can take what we have built
Never will our flower wilt
An I will say forever, and ever
Remember, remember
Change will come in November
Or maybe not
I know not what lies ahead
And i don't care, I just hope i wont be dead
And then I avert my eyes
Oh how i love the fourth of July
Because then i can think
And watch the beautiful iridescent skies

In a world of pesimism

I am the messenger of optimism

I'll break his clouded vision

This is my only mission

To show him that there still is good in existence

I'll fight his in-mind resistance

I must bring love back to his heart

Before his subconcious falls completely apart

There once was only one

To see that this mission is done

Now I am added to this mix

Of voices, actions, and tricks

To help part six with his goal

To see that Steven doesn't turn cold

I leave you all with this solemn promise

I will pick up the peices, my name is Thomas

Your beauty blinds me
It takes me
Can break me
I can't see
When greeted with your radiance
Lost in your innocence
May I have this dance?
Attached to your glow
Which blazes hotter than the sun
And I come undone
And then I know
You know who you are
I'm falling
For a white hot star

As you feel the cold air touch your face

you do not know i follow at a rapid pace

you notice me out of the corner of your eye

now is the time that you die

i will drain you of your life force

this is my only course

you think you know me but im a stranger

your not aware that your in danger

in my eyes there is a fire

so look at me and the flames get higher

my life will end upon the stake

people know me as the vampire, Drake

In the beginning
It was pure
It was full
I was sure
That I loved you
But it ended
When you broke my heart in two
We started over
Again and again
And once again
I see the signs I see
When things must end
I cant bring myself to do it
To break her heart again
I know I still love her
Enough to care that much
But I dont know
If love is really true
Should I hurt this girl
Or stay miserable in where I sit
In this poem I fear
A message will be sent
As her eyes scan the words
To read it will be tough
I know I love her still
But just not enough
I hate the message I must send
Because a heart always breaks
When things must end

I feel my anger rising

Though all my deep despising

I feel my fury soar

Surrounded by things i abhor

You let me slip through your fingers

Vengence replaces a love that lingers

Tip toe tip toe past my mind

All these answers I must find

I'm not who I once was

They know not what this pain does

I am a messenger of revenge

The courrier of hatred sends

We break through his mental dam

I am the sabatoeur of stevens mind, Sam

How do I feel?
I feeling like killing
I feel like dying
Watching blood spilling
And sitting back and crying
Life is lost inside
A feeling of emptiness undefined
Charisma and friendliness
Nothing in tenderness
Wretched is the soul of loss
**** and beer
Make my insight clear
And it fills my heart with temporary cheer
I take a **** and chill
I drink and drink and still
No fill
But its all good
I understood
The difference in time
And on my mind
Is suffering as fleeting as the wind blows
And I know justice rules all
When blind eyes see
The darkest darkness breeds
Deep down a mind defines
Its life
With meek lines
Flowing outward into a black hole
That is a world of genesis
No longer in crisis
As I sit here and write this
I wonder if anyone will even like this
But I don't care
My veins are ice
My soul is frozen in time
But other than that I'm fine :).

When it rains
I count the little droplets on the window
I avoid the cold black widow
As it hangs high at the ceiling
It gives me an odd feeling
A feeling that makes me wish
That even if I'm rich
Death would be my escape
From a world
Hollow and *****
From a vision
Of pure and total hate
Why do these people hate me
Why do they hurt and interrogate me
Asking unspoken questions
Looking for unknown answers
Invalidating my prestige
Through intolerably hateful banter
Yes
I see this
And feel the pulsing of my veins
Yes
I see this
Every time it rains

Malice
Meticulously marking
My malevolent mind
I put up shields to stop this very thing
Before my eyes my heart is breaking
Again
I said I wouldn't let anyone
Seep through the cracks again
Why?
We weren't together long
But when we were
I thought it could go far
Now the stars have faded
And I am left
Painfully jaded

Its everywhere
In everything
Its over there
It makes me sing
A song of sadness and lament
I'm stuck in the ground
Trapped like inside cement
and I hear the music calling
and feel myself falling
again and again
I stop
and I lose my friends
I dont
and I end up dead
I cannot rest assured
as long as I'm pressured

In the dark corridor
They cannot hear you scream anymore
Armies have fallen to the maze's mysteries
all who meet him will decease
The man, the bull, with inhuman speed
Will grasp your throat until you bleed
Inside the monster, deep and hidden
He wants to be forgiven
He is trapped inside of this beast
An excruciating disease
if you would please
listen to me
Then you shall see
An empty room
Where he lives out his days
Accompanied by a firefly haze
Do not dwindle or take a breath
For if Sebastian hears us
It will be our death

A boding of ill will
Gives him a new life, a new thrill
Enter the tenth part of torment
A past life that lies dormant
Enstilling a passion in those we've met
People die
And now I watch her cry
I thought I had found the love of my past
A friendship which runs so deep
Meets a precipice so steep
And alas
It was all a cruel lie
Causing a soul to attatch itself to a mind
The mind of this poor boy
So lost
So hurt
So cold
His life spent as a mere toy
Such a cost
What's it worth
The loss of one's hold
Making happiness so hard to find
Reality
Is a mystery
To a mind shrouded in misery
Hoping for a feeling of sincerity
Or clarity
A rarety
That his soul should be unfurled
Upon this world
So lost
So hurt
And so cold
We have all but lost control
A sickness not even it's host could fathom
Yet I'm merely a piece of this puzzle
And my name is Adam

Hello Sebastian
My young guardian
'Tis me the maze
Starting your heart again
The maze be my mind
And you are the conscience
Helping me through the indifference
Hearing the sound of resonance
Echoes upon the wall
Have made you fall
Into a slumber which has crippled me so
Sebastian don't go
Your gone now aren't you
Oh my
And oh dear
I have stumbled upon my worst fear
The maze has no keeper
The firefly has no haze
My hellish rule is over
I have no more days
I will make my sounds of pain so subtle
When the stone of my walls begin to crumble
Into the underworld's clammy grasp
Sebastian sweet boy
Your soul is free at last

I am a snake
slithering silently
Through solemn sorrow
To borrow
A soul
One rule
En jeweled
upon my tomb
Is that we cannot control
We cannot hold
Anything
Our dreams are fleeting
Passing us by
I need more money
I ask the world why
Why should I pay
For my voice to be heard
Why should I pay
for my own artwork
For that matter why should anyone pay
To shine
The world is a snake
Slithering silently
In solemn sorrow
To borrow
A life
In strife
And in turmoil
A large fight
Leads to radioactive soil
Children's bodies litter the ground
All around
And I ask why
Why should the innocent pay
For the crimes of a leader
Why must the poor pay
In blood and in fear
I awake in a scream
As I rub my eyes
I come to realize
It was a serpentine dream

I once was a man
Born into profit
I was given everything
But I've lost it
I ran away
I've gone astray
In utter disarray
In total dismay
And there i stood
Trapped in a maze
An unknown neighborhood
But suddenly there was light like day
It was a firefly haze
come to guide my way
And I understood
I am the keeper
My life to walk deeper
I must live out my days
In this never ending maze
guided by this firefly haze

I'm sick
I'm sick of the world
I'm sick of my curls
I'm sick of small toys
I'm sick of a voice
I'm so sick
And I know not what to do
I'm so sick
Of the hell I've been through
But most of all
I'll say it proud and stand tall
Because my words are true
I'm so sick of not being with you
I'm sick of not hearing you talk
I'm sick of not holding you as I walk
I'm sick of not smelling your hair
Because mon etoile
I love you more than air

Inside the pain erupts

A pain so bad it cuts

Into my skin

Down within

My soul

Turns cold

With every breath

Of air tainted with death

Heart break comes at a bad time

As insanity knocks at the doors of my mind

I am lossed

Tossed

Locked

And stuck

Im in a fog

A mist

A haze of bad luck

Im confused

And used

And unsure of my mind

Im stupid

Intelligent

Dumb

And smart

But mostly blind

These answers i cannot find

Caught in hypothetical execution

Im trapped in my own confusion

Feel it pumping
Feel it flow
My pulse is jumping
It's time to throw
You ****** me off
For the last ******* time
Blood you shall cough
As your lungs die
Your breath leaves your chest
You ****** with the best
Now die like the rest
My boot crushes your throat
I'll get the last vote
As I leave you to float
In a stagnant mote
Of sewage and ****
And I'll go and get lit
And watch you burn
Because *******
It's my turn

Virulent virtue
Variably veering
Away
A coldness so dire
My own frozen fire
Desire
Is abstract
Attack
The ones who yearn for life
We are guardians
We are the bricks
Your blood is the mortar
A red wall made slick
By your gruesome torture
The future
Is oblique
I seek
An answer
For the weak

A feeling of loneliness
A showing of heartlessness
Soaring and flying
Living and dying
Inside this force, it grows
A felling we all know
Inside a darkness grows
From my head to my toes
Inside it rises up
And yes it pulls me down
I see an empty cup
Insignificance is my crown
For this I shed one tear
For there is few I fear
You persecute outside your preference
Merely proving your own insignificance

I sit back

And relax

Through all that i lack

I take my fury to the max

As the numbness spreads farther

My eyes get darker

With every breath

I wish for death

In a world that keeps getting harder

I'll be the next martyr

As I say the end is nigh

I am the lonley ones thought, Sly