I am going free..!
You wanna come?

Today I was angry, impossible to control my emotions and the only thing I have in my mind is let's fall in love.
But am I even ready for it, would I ever be ready for strong emotions?
Last time I let them inside they nearly killed me that I had to learn how to fake.

I can't tell him I miss him
I can't tell him I am worried
I can't tell him all the thingsin my mind because I am afraid.
I am afraid to fall, afraid to loose everything I have since I decide that no emotion is the best way.

I am not afraid to target the moon.
More I try better chance I have to get to the stars.
Even if it takes time I beleive in it, again and again.
Keep trying

I have only one philosophy
Be accepted as I am.

Tonight I feel like writing, nothing comes. I am getting out of track.

I follow my head and my heart is crying. I keep myself focus at work and keep reaping in my head that everything will be OK. But that's just for my head, mid time I feel my heart crying.

I hate this feeling so much.

What if all love songs should be sing for ourselves? What is the real love is being in love with yourself and all the rest is just a plus.

I am tired of those stories that never work. Of those feelings that always hurts, of those peole that always lie of this society that is always wrong.

I am just going to listen at those happy love song thinking they are written for me. Like my soul and my head are 2 different persons and protect and love each other forever. Because at the end the only person who will stay forever will be me. At the end the only person I want to keep up with is me.

I promise I would keep myself happy because no-one is responsible more for my happiness.

More I look around better I feel about my life. People of my age seems so stuck, so unhappy while I decided to follow my dreams and make it my way.

I passed each challenges that life brings me while they choose the easy way.

I always keep smiling,  my head up and my heart open just to make sure I won't regret anything. And so far I am doing pretty well.

As long as i beleive that destiny as a great life to offer why should i not follow the signs?

For me the signs are "Feel free, be wild, don't worry everything will be alright, let's go on an adventure"

I just have to be a little careful because the days i get off track,  i feel bad until i get back on track and that can take some time...

Anyway, good thoughts : keep it easy.  Follow happy thoughts, happy people, love and share

Please lift me high

Why are you running away from me all the time?
Because i can no longer be held responsible for my actions when I am with you.

I don't know what I feel but I am sure that I feel.

Someday I would run into your arm just to smell you and got this heart bump that I love so much. Look at your eyes and loose myself, getting your crazy look at me and give you all.

Other days my mind is strong and keeps reapeting to me that it's not the right thing to do and that I will regret to follow my kind of feelings that I am not even sure about.

Then I go to my bed and everything comes back, I am having flashed of us in the bath, in your room, my clothes falling down as I don't even notice.

And I wake up and I am full of doubts : what if it's all lies, what if I am getting played. I can't throw everything I build since years for just a feeling a "I want to see".

But still I love adventures and I don't believe in love anyway so what do I have to loose : few more years? What if I can win a lot more?

But still all of this is only based on "if" and I can't risk so much.

I am really good at creating relationship

But for what ? If i don't really need them.

Do I lie to myself about the fact that i don't need them or i really don't need them ?
I think, they just make me feel normal in a society.

But why ? After all, they all lie and I am the real one, and they feel bad about my behaviour because they don't want to be seen that way or this way.
Really ? You can't come around me because i make you look different ?

Did you ever ask yourself that maybe you were always with people that don't act truly with you ? Maybe you feel different with me because i am the only one that shows you what the world really is.

I won't change, if what i do best is showing you the real world.

Do you feel lost? Not at all
Do you feel sad? Not for me
Do you love where you are? Definitely
Have you ever feel like that? Never
How does that sound? Like destiny.

Because all the world turn around you does not mean that you can make it stop.

Because no one see trough does not mean the miroirs lie.

Because at first it feels right and at the end so wrong.

What if I actually don't care? What if I don't want to play by the rules?

Less I think better I feel.