Do not speak, love.
Hold your peace.
Keep your silence.

Listen.
Listen.
Listen.

Do you hear it –
The lub-dub, lub-dub, lub-dub?
Tell me.
Do you hear it?

I’ve been trying
To silence it,
Muffle it with poetry,
But it is there.

Lub-dub, lub dub, lub-dub.

It won’t stop.
It won’t stop…
It won’t stop!

It’s right here.
Right here!
in my center,
at my core!

Lub-dub, lub dub, lub-dub.
It won’t keep quiet!
Lub-dub, lub dub, lub-dub.
It won’t be still!

Lub-dub, lub dub, lub-dub.
Lub-dub, lub dub, lub-dub.
Lub-dub, lub dub, lub-dub.

Be still, love,
Be still.
Be still!

Do not speak, love.
Hold your peace.
Keep your silence.
Listen.
Listen.
Listen.

Do you hear it –
The lub-dub, lub-dub, lub-dub?
Tell me.
Do you hear it?
Listen!
Why won't you hear?

for j.e.
*100114

I've never felt this,
It feels like true bliss.
My heart changes its beat,
dub-lub, lub-dub, dub-lub.
Every time you make a glance,
I grow cold, almost still in my stance.
That smile,
I bet you I could see it for a hundred miles.
I yearn for the warmth of your embrace.
dub-lub, lub-dub, dub-lub.
I've never wanted someone so desperately,
You make me feel like a kid.
Do you see what you did?
I wonder how it would be,
If you were here with me.
dub-lub, lub-dub, dub-lub.
I imagine us jamming to the station,
It's obvious which one is your favorite; the rock nation.
You with your hand on my leg,
I can feel my heart racing once again.
dub-lub, lub-dub, dub-lub.
Please forgive me,
But I think I'm falling head over heels.
Maybe because you make me feel at ease,
Maybe because the way you make me feel is natural like the summer breeze.
*dub-lub, lub-dub, dub-lub.

Lub dub lub dub our hearts go
Looking for you, trying to feel you, talk to you,
We miss you...

Lub dub lub dub our hearts say
You came to this world,
We cared for you, loved you, guided you and then you are gone.
You left us with your sweet memories.

Lub dub lub dub our hearts remember
We want time to revert and take us to those days we spent with you,
Those days full of love, affection and fun,
Thank you for making our lives so beautiful.
We know you will be watching us from the sky,
Up, up so high,
Shining like a star, so, so far.
Lub dub lub dub our hearts go.

We close our eyes, we see you,
We sleep, and we dream of you.
We walk, and we hold you,
We talk, and we hear you,
We feel you, always in our heart lub dub lub dub,
Our hearts go with you...

lub dub lub dub
fist clenched in my chest
nerves and nodes grasping the strings
my pacemaker running rampant

lub dub lub dub
each chamber beats and pounds
pressure rising ever higher
millimeters of mercury mounting

lub dub lub dub
my vena cava caving in
my pulmonaries passing out
tight and taut now limp and languid

lub dub lub dub
my atriums crumpling
my ventricles moldering
its contents come spilling

liquid straw spouting
a serum suspending
red discs running
gasping for something
then slowing and clotting

my leukocytes leaking
my platelets melting
blue blood is boiling
crying for something
then breaking and rotting

my strings are snipped
cutting off the circulation
a cardiac collapse
i wanted love to make my heart beat
not bring my arteries pain
i wanted you to make my system complete
but alas it was all in vein

Lub dub lub dub my heart goes
Looking for you, trying to feel you, talk to you,
I miss you...
But where are you mama?

Lub dub lub dub my heart says
You brought me to this world,
You cared for me, loved me, guided me and then
You left me alone, alone and just alone,
To face this world full of challenges, struggle and hatred.
Why mama? tell me why?

Lub dub lub dub my heart remembers
I want time to revert and take me to those days I spent with you,
Those days full of love, affection and fun,
Thank you mama for your efforts to make me stand on my feet BUT
Mama mama mama I always need you,
To guide me, to walk with me, to be next to me...
I miss you...
But where are you mama?

I close my eyes, I see you,
I sleep and I dream of you.
I walk and I hold you,
I talk and I hear you,
I feel you mama, always in my heart lub dub lub dub,
My heart goes with you...

The shape of the reason why I am not getting any response from you,

                it's ʀʜᴏᴍʙɪᴄᴏsiᴅᴏᴅᴇᴄᴀʜᴇᴅʀᴏɴ

20 regular triangular faces,
30 square faces,
12 regular pentagonal faces,
60 vertices and 120 edges,
Yet you told me our hearts are asymmetrical?




Paint me as the woman you once loved,
Blend my past and future into one another

                 in sfᴜᴍᴀᴛᴏ

Without lines or borders,
With myriads of minuscule brushstrokes,
Till the smoke hoaxes their visual for few seconds,
Albeit they know what they saw some time after,




The melody of your heartbeat,
Just like my poems,

                   it's ᴜɴʀʜʏᴛʜᴍɪᴄ

"Lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub lub lub lub-dub",
Every single night failed to lullaby,
So all this time I've been an insomniac,
Wide awake studying the pattern of your pulse as you call it a night.

Tick tock tick tock, lub dub lub dub
So happy I was, in you
So secure I was, in you
So warm I was, in you
My favorite place is in you and with you.

Tick tock tick tock, lub dub lub dub
Those moments I spent in you, I cherish
Those moments I shared with you I relish
Moments without you are unbelievable
Moments without you are unthinkable.
My favorite place is in you and with you.

Tick tock tick tock, lub dub lub dub
Why did you let me out?
Why did I come out?
To see this changing world?
To feel these changing thoughts?
I wish you take me in
I wish I could go back in
My favorite place is in you and with you...

You always said believe in love
But this word doesn't know the meaning of trust
I wish there is a miracle and
This world also turns into a place
That I always dream of
My favorite place, my favorite place
IN YOU "MOM"
In you...

Draw a heart on your palm
if you miss someone really bad
And pretend it's beating there
Pulsing away dub lub dub lub.
Its hard I know
Pretending makes it easier

(The sound of breathing)

I am the air / unseen
a breath
underneath
                  the rush
                  the coffee
                  the traffic
on concrete streets

I am lifting the dirt
                  the grime
                   the dust
polluting us
I am adding wings
to the speed of your feet
to where your dreams may meet

I am the sigh
in your quivering lungs
inside your heart
                  such self defeat
when you concede to its
deceit / disease / cease to breathe
never to notice me
or listen to our song
Time’s
Wind chimes
a summer's relief / a breeze
strides along
cooling your face from the heat

Do not say you blame it all on me

Don't say I'm the purpose
                    the reason
or                  the space between
Wound of flesh, lips compulsive kiss
The mindless lies
Loss of will
between the heart & the eyes
unable and refusing to see
It’s why our love
retreats

Dagger / plunged
the deathblow
a quick hands woes

A heartless man goes
so neat and clean
so discreet
hiding in the bleak
uncaring

so...

I am the air
   you never notice me
touching
           your sorrow
            your skin
yet never being / your glee
invisible
that is how despair begins

I am the air / unseen
waiting for you to care
                        to notice
                         to open eyes, see!

I am the air, here / with you
a friend that is always
there

invisible
waiting to be / seen.

do you notice me?

(The sound of breathing)

A heart is beating.
Lub Dub Lub Dub

Did you notice
The life we misbelieve …
Us
The invisible
Unbecoming
Unloved