Translucent
A burned dream
Fingertips at trembling galaxies
Remembering stolen breaths
Dismantled from rusted logic
A steel garden flourishes
Sealed with infectious passion
A reflection of mirrored pain
Emerging bloodless depths
Rising to a caged silhouette
Shrouded in sacrifice

I didn't know anything about a ******
I was called from sleep to be told your love had died
The lanes and lights passing you by
But your path never strayed
Your mind became lost
Because the enduring sounds of the waves
Kept you up at night
I'm still here
And now, a knock resonates at my motel door

And took her I did
She resisted
But I win
When passion stands next to us
Can we say we were together
Until the end?

Please, just hold my hand
Like you did back then
And if I see you again
Would you believe life is in full bloom
Without a trace of remorse
Transported
To a future
Drowsy and distant
Blacked out
The clock can't be right
In all my ways
In all my faults
Dearly yours

In the picture
Of a treacherous silence
I hear fate whisper its lonely plans
A lost deliverer
Of doomed hearts
The soundtrack
To a perfect purgatory
And their war torn eyes
They will
Cry out
Once more

Shattered glass as the curtain drops
Noticeable yawns of immortality
Agreed now we breathe
A ***** of pain
I die twice on tile floors
However we will change
To a gradual descent
Your bloodline dead
Teeth keep you still
Everything left to God is quiet now
Simple dreams
Our mistakes lay downstairs
There's nothing more

Campus streets
College jeans
Drinking
Excitement
Football teams
Tuition fees
Classroom leans
Confusion
Home
Dorm room dreams
Finals it seems
Ready to scream

Make my heart stir once more

Furthering a silicon sickness

Unreachable this time

Sworn from these graces so long ago

An immense melody scarring reflections

This too will haunt our past

Speaking with bruised wrists

All roads home are now erased

Mountains yielding permanence

Emerging with gorgeous anticipation

Shed their fallen attempts

For your eyes are not green

They were born from the most ancient of moss

Wrapped in a dripping globular of starlit jade

And I watched all night as you bled
Never left the side of your bed
What became of this life I had
Too numb to even feel bad
I wanna see your face tonight
Just to know if these feelings are true
So I cried like you were dead
You never showed up
Never showed up
Yeah I watched you just as you bled
Told me everything that you had read
Thought that I was gone past ten
Wanna go through this song again

We will share this death
Unrest with subtle detection
Further collapse
A lighter consumption
Agony prone
Shutters open to relax veins
Focus with a decayed world
You're still learning to stand
Remembering the end
Passing twisted resonance
Bottled winter
Half-bruised with buried innocence
You want to be known

Sealed in space
Motionless love theme
Neglecting a soul saved
Precipitated malice
Unoriginal to a shameful crypt
Rearranged embrace
A slave within
You keep steady warmth in Denver
I wither continually in Memphis

You could leave
But you can't go
I can still feel you in my soul
And for you to carry this away
I guess you'll have to stay
Or you'll end up alone
Please know
I can still smell you in my clothes

Language, anguish
Wrapped myself in blankets
Thinkin' about girls that consider me strange-ish
Well who really cares
Givin' off looks, and creepy stares
Stalkin' and talkin'
Chills and sidewalk chalkin'
Layin' in bed with you
Makin' plans we'll never do
Pretty girl, anywhere, I'll take you to
Just wanna kiss,
And kick it too

Sleeping tonight, feels so wrong
Alone, tonight, feels so long
But you call, talkin' *****
We up till seven-thirty
You know I'm right here
Let me whisper in your ear
Let's fu- I mean make love
And then maybe, if push comes to shove
I'll let you act just like a white dove

Scheming, dreaming, it's all seeming
A little hot, but not shot
All my plans and secrets too
Cause when I'm in your bed
I'll stay lovin' you

Grace moves in these structures
Virginities undersold
Saving familiar breaths
Tissue restraint
I head away and leave my name
A kinder morning than we've shared before
Finding Jesus in a Subaru
Unable to create from ashes
Stained glass
This glass is stained

And it will never go away
With blameless transcendence
Delicate machines choking
Slowing perpetuated logic
Failure in a green pool
Weaker to welcome
Power lines down in October
A spiders ninth leg
Phantom systems asleep
Backyard rapture
Circling hope as a drain opens

Smother my creation
My furious space
Lock the door
Force this tangible restlessness
And mortal wound
Upon me
Rise against my every word
Dressing my cares with every delicacy
Beat my heart
Without a pause or glance
Because for no
I will resist
But know
That this could be construed as love

Still to be seen
Awakening a deceased compromise
Mirrored prey
Driven by enveloped creation
Fever consummation
Visions of your childhood home underwater

As we stood still
Images crossing lanes
Quick unsettling
Shards of light
Assigned
Quaking
Not for fear
But in the presence
Of the multitude of expectations
There I was proposed
For the certainty of things to come

Intangible strength
Quiet love
Finding new meaning in darkness
A moths demise
Our eyes will speak of more

All of our memories now wasted away
Page break
My mother's voice downstairs
Stretched dawn
Tonight's drippings
Dreams of your torn mouth
Visions again of a failed birth
Glass and it's promised demise
Cancerous resonance
(slit)Flushed(slit)
(exit)Naked(exit)
(fail)This how I feel(fail)
Being driven away
White coats and tourniquets

As life holds itself

I stare

High above

In the safety of my rage

This piece has passed

My agony fallen

And my wound lies dead

Leaving me here

Alone as I was

Beyond you now I feel the whims of freedom

A comic relief

Perfectly captured

In your split wrists

Death will become victorious

In your failing

Choking now

Understanding the cosmic and somber consequences of my selfishness

We are not ready

I admit

A shift finding my concrete absolute comfort

Turn the music up
My favorite song
Ethereal
Set in motion
Ice cold window
Coasting at seventy-five
Dropping low
In the right direction
Passing every exit
The murals written
The night time
Jumbled emotions perpetuated
In a handshake
Or a smile
Sigh
Yeah
Now that's the real America

The hollow course our love ran
Our veins
Drenched with rain
A night tower
Flashing
With weighted scars
In the distance
Gleaming from your notions
Of society and suicide
I thought of you
As the street glistened
The smoke pouring from my mouth
Bent in your direction
Finding you empty
Exhausted logic
With a waking memory
You don't know yourself anymore
I just wanted to hold you

Because you prefer it
Winding down with a stranger in bed
Your prayers and future lost
Better fasting in mind
With a heart that jumps too freely
Just a window glow
As night comes for these shards
Your swiftly torn undercarriage
Vexed to the incalculable
Bleeding out under hot water faucets

And you're still with me
In every rolling wave
Warranting unclean requests
For a reflection of freedom
Concealed below
It's the edge of cold perfection
As we surface for solutions
Doubting your grace exists
Feeling the gravity of an escape
Celestial restrain
Persistent devotion

Securing your perfection
A glossy light
Held by two strings from a dying star
Six million noises put in their place
Chrysalis agony

Your breath held undying
Cloned eyes
Gazing a solitary entrance
Loneliness sequence
Capturing a scarab in synesthesia

Wicked
And how could you know?
Lonely blood
And my heart pounds
These are my friends
Betraying the tide as it comes in once more
Walking
And destined above all
To be alone
No one
And anyone knows
Just how high you'll go
Alone

The ground quietly settles
In search for a final lover
Innocent strength forming freedom
Rendering gleaming muscles useless
Pricing a broken smile
Beholding a discarded identity
A prayer with cancelled meaning
Glimpse these trembling signs
When they awake to drown indifference
Commit this confusion
Losing my souls inheritance
Hollowed demands
With healing desperation
Consume my sworn efforts
As we fuel a reborn process
And collapse with tangible wounds
She wept with haunting surrender
I mourned a dangerous solace

And of love never known

Trembling

Waiting

This neon midnight speaks of more

Pounding silence or a hand held too close

Fearing the fast swords from God

And a dim solicitude that falls to ashes

Why must you starve my love?
Impetuous
Resigned now
Being cast down upon the walls once more
A seemingly trudge
Royal blood you say
Waiting for a hero
Fairy tale ending
Hidden quietly
Behind your grin
Consciously ambiguous
Traveling
To the abysmal keep
Where your true feelings
Wither
Away
Hush now
Under broken glass
And trampled petals
Deep breaths for the taking

Days passed with no regard to time or events
I'm on my own
No strings attached
As much as people tell small things do not matter,
I cannot reckon with those thoughts
Everything matters
The time, the place, the story
The room, the people, the looks
It all comes together
Life isn't as simple as everyone around me wants it to be
And so I meet her
She walks into my apartment
Comments on how clean it is
Immaculate, is the word I liked better
She changes clothes
And we head out for a night of bliss
Dancing, drinks,
Gaslight lounging in booths that stuck out in a nostalgic way
I became awestruck
With a magnitude of euphoria that pumped through my veins
Ribbed through my head to toes and back
I was dizzy
I was happy
I knew this is what should take place,
At least once in every person's life
Give yourself that one night
And your fever sweats itself out

Just keep me alive
Sleep pendulation
Deluxe cell reincarnation
Mercy lays upon you adept and compatible
Subliminal narration
Your recurring shadow children
Unfiltered anguish
Disillusionment
Cruelly I recall

True hearts tear straight

Like smoke trapped inside a bottle

How to instill our chance of love

Stomach an empty window

Strong feelings of wonder

A source thought small

In essence my beauty not faded

Bring your memory to a child's grave

The sea is alive with rust today

And the darkness is an angel awake

East coast eyes

I won't die how you think

As a brother you may say nothing

Singing without reason

Feeling the blood hold

There was love in your eyes

Death is missing

We walk the warm night air

By the time these eyes grow quiet
They will speak of her concrete lungs
Mistaken sickness
Crumbling forgiveness as we mourn the struggle
Sonnets of such desperation
Pillars of passion melted to liquid silk
Devoured by precious creation
Fathom these damaged voids
With a jagged prose
Hungering breaths
Foolish
Monstrous
Kidnapped composure
Restless with trembling intention
Collected to a stillborn resonance
Discarded with shadowed reform

Finding myself
With no keeper
No doors closed
I sway
Move into the night
With fervor
For what lies ahead
The delicate instruments
Grinding
Stowing away
The secrets kept
From the surrounding cities
Turmoil
Building up
Releasing an uplift of spirits
I could hardly imagine

Impossibly transporting desperation
We skip to a deafening consumption
Complex sirens
Photo sterilization
Hysterics
Paranoia
Grief without repentance
More of your witnessed erosion

My body will break

Then the world will die alone

Maybe my lips will speak truthfully

Yours show pain from last year

That's why he thinks he loves you

I can feel the sadness grow tight

Lay in bed and beg for answers that only I can give

My garden grows

And you fall further, unaware

Leave me here by the forest
Revealing measured suffering
Confusion of a knife
Denied importance
Swallowing common voids
Unspoken process
Hungering for faceless absolution
Lighthouse eyes
A funeral in full bloom

I've been searching for you
In an endless sea of white
Torrential
With a frail head
And split intentions
Searching memories
Currents of you
Bringing scars of past breaths
Half buried
A cruel reminder
Of how deep this can go
Magnetic
Sum of parts brush past
Impure space
Glowing total
You are so near
Falling with grace
I want you
And will wait once more

Your heart understood mine
Peaking through the chain links
Seen flying above
Coursed through parchment
In these fine lines of our DNA
And how she cried for you
As smoke billowed in July air
With these rooms of the house
Yours seemed invisible
But you perceive this distance
In smiling eyes
And smudged windows
Blessings sent
In a whisper
Or a tear

This reflection of slumber

Unnoticed sirens find us missing

Fulfilling ecstasy softly

A small push to know lasting rapture

Love bridges this lonely nocturne

Listen as corners devour deeper

Stray flocks of lightning illuminate pale crests of your posture sleeping in my bed

Evil demons
Red light demons
Frost breath
Winter death
Keep harm with her
God's plans so sure
Meals with family bread
Forget every word she said
Suicidal thoughts
Self-harm plots
Just me and you
Guilty conscience, dinner for two
I'll be everything you never wanted to
Sleep soundly tonight
Silent screams and silent bite
I guess you lied
My patience is tried

Paralyzed
To break the sound of your arrival
The stars mock him
Leaving him
Defeated
Ashamed
Never knowing
Where she might be
Oh, he could say
She's on the porch
Whilst staring through cloudy lenses
On the roof
Leaning against the tiles
For the embrace
Never felt by any lover
Or on the road
Making sure
The reason she's leaving
Are different
Than the ones
Used to say she will stay
That perpetuated imbalance
Could surely be her demise
Deep black
Brilliant
She awakens
To shower
To start the day

This bed of ashes
Confined innocence
Cry all night
And I'll taste your current
Permeated
Transformed
Thrown across
You'll miss
This bullseye
Of our love