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V3NUS 1d
they needed you more
so I ignored myself
easy doesn't mean happy
V3NUS 6d
saying "I'm sorry" is like putting a bandaid on a stab wound
it makes you feel better about yourself
makes you feel like you solved the problem
and if the person is still mad?
then they're overreacting
but in reality
you didn't do anything
slapping a bandaid on a stab wound won't stop someone from bleeding out
saying I'm sorry wont change the fact that what you did was wrong
I'm so tired of petty *******
6d · 116
Overreacting
V3NUS 6d
you're being irrational
you aren't being bullied
your parents are loving and caring... for the most part
you have lots of friends
you're "normal"
you're pretty
and you're privileged
and you have a lot
your friends have it way worse
you're overreacting
I may tell myself this, but reminder: just because someone has it worse, doesn't mean you can't feel a certain way. your feelings are valid <3
Jan 17 · 161
Untitled
V3NUS Jan 17
I cry because I don't want to live
but at least I look pretty doing it
I'm a pretty crier
Jan 17 · 64
Crying
V3NUS Jan 17
when I got a concussion
I didn't
I didn't cry when I broke a window with my bare hand
and had to go to the ER to get stitches
I didn't cry when I fell
and the wire of my braces
went right through my lip

I didn't cry then

so why do the floodgates suddenly open
when I have to talk about my feelings
I don't cry a lot. talking about my feelings is really hard for me, so I just don't.
Jan 13 · 126
don't give me that
V3NUS Jan 13
"he probably did it because he liked you"
no ****
but that's no excuse
he should've just told me
maybe
even though I don't like guys
we could've been friends
but no
he had to take it too far
because he didn't want to take no as an answer
so don't give that *******
he ****** up
and he knows it
the kid who sexually harassed me told his mom I reported him and she tried to defend him
Jan 13 · 52
a conversation
V3NUS Jan 13
"*****"
excuse me?
"*****"
... why?
"I saw you talking to all those other boys, you didn't report them"
Noah, Gus, Josiah, and Carwyn?
"yeah"
they sit at my table, I have to talk to them
I had to talk to you
"that doesn't explain why you don't report them"
that's easy, they havent--and will never do--what you did
"how do you know that?"
Noah knows better, we both know that
Carwyn is scared of me
and my mom knows Gus and Josiah's moms
"why don't you talk to me anymore?"
because you made me uncomfortable
and i'm not taking my chances
"but I won't do it again, I promise"
you had your chance and you blew it
"but... you still talk with Gus and Noah"
they didn't make me uncomfortable
and they were on my side
"but you said you had to talk to them"
right
and I had to talk to you
but you took it too far
STORY TIME!!! in sixth grade I was sexually harassed by a kid in my science class. I told my parents and my parents reported him to the grade's assistant principal (each grade has one at my school). At each table in science there were four people. the one I was sitting at before was me, Gus, Noah, and the kid who harassed me. I was moved to a new table, which was me, a girl, Josiah, and Carwyn. I spoke to Josiah and Carwyn because I had to and continued to talk to Gus and Noah so the kid got jealous and this conversation followed.
Jan 13 · 46
not actually a poem
V3NUS Jan 13
should I start writing poems about my friends?? I feel like I talk too much about my family
this is a question, can anyone who sees this answer??
Jan 13 · 126
Dear Mom
V3NUS Jan 13
I'm not going to tell all my friends I'm suicidal
and I'm not going to send three texts to every contact I have every day

I don't need to make plans with them
I'm fine with the socialization I get from school

I'm not suicidal because of things at school
my problems stem from home

Dad is almost never home
just because his job makes him have to work far away doesn't mean he can't call

Meena needs to get off my ***
every single tiny ******* thing she feels the need to point out
and not to mention the fat shaming

And just because Lali has ADHD doesn't mean she can be a *****
she can't tell me nobody likes me and I have no friends because she's angry
I'm no psychologist
but I don't think ADHD works like that

And you need to get off my *** when it comes to grades
I made it into the school musical
I have a pretty big role
And band
I might ask for a solo
but you wouldn't care about my intrests would you
no... all it is is school, school, school, and grades with you

and maybe
yeah
most of my friends from my favorite friend group are going through a tough time
but you know what
I get more support there
than I do at home

so no
I'm not lonely
i'm... neglected, I guess
my mom found out I was suicidal and made me text my friends more because she thought I was lonely. but the thing is I told her she and Dad don't pay enough attention to me as a person... but good news: I found out they actually love me :)
Jan 13 · 129
Oh no...
V3NUS Jan 13
"You wanna tell me what you searched up?"
STORY TIME!!! Basically, I made the mistake of searching up "I'm gonna kms" on my school computer and the assistant principal guy pulled me over and asked me this. Then he called my mom... so my parents know I'm suicidal now.
Jan 13 · 179
Characters
V3NUS Jan 13
making characters and stories in my head
and realizing
my favorite ones
are just my issues and flaws
personified
unconfident, being mean and distant from the people I love the most, being really nice to people who've just met me, a pushover, those all appear in some of them. Being suicidal and not wanting help appears in a lot of them
Jan 13 · 80
Dear Skye
V3NUS Jan 13
sometimes I really hate your guts
"Is Rosie hanging out with them now?"
"is she one of them"
what the **** does that mean

you're lucky i'm scared of confrontation
otherwise I would have left you in 4th grade
when you ghosted Kai because she dared to have another friend
when you ignored me and Rowan because you got in trouble with your parents and we had the nerve to be there
why did I have to apologize then?
why did I have to be the messager between you and Kai?

"What will I do when you've moved"
I know you say that
but do you really mean it?

Do you talk behind my back just like you talk behind Rosie's?
"Why is Ahalya hanging out with them, is she one of them?"
"Ahalya thinks i'm mad at her"
"She follows me around all the time, she's so annoying"

i'm not even sure I want to be your friend anymore
Skye has been my friend since first grade. She's the "Excuse me, she asked for no pickles" type of girl and I'm the type of girl who stands behind her and smiles awkwardly. But now that I've started hanging out with other people and distanced myself from her a little, I've realized she's a massive *****. Like, all she does when we hang out is talk **** about her FRIENDS and scroll through Tiktok.
Dec 2024 · 29
advice
V3NUS Dec 2024
do you know why
when parents give their kids social advice
the kids always find it hard
to follow

it's because parents are thinking
"how would an adult react"
and not
"how would a kid react"
I think i've figured it out
V3NUS Dec 2024
I don't know
maybe it's because
no matter how light or dark
it's still the same color
red and purple get lighter and turns pink
orange and yellow get dark and turns brown
I just don't like green don't ask why
Dec 2024 · 47
dear conservatives
V3NUS Dec 2024
dear conservatives using this excuse:
"HOMOSEXUALITY BROUGHT THE DOWNFALL OF THE ROMAN EMPIRE"
1) I think you need to retake a couple classes
because I learned that there were a lot of things that might have ended the roman empire
but gay people
was not one of them

and 2) if homosexuality was so bad
why was Julius Caesar having *** with a king
i'm still in 7th grade but I'm in honors so the lessons are like a year ahead the 7th grade curriculum
V3NUS Dec 2024
i've lived in 5 different disticts
by the time I was 5
and in my experience
the best time to move is when you're 6 and under
because nobody cares who you are like the older kids do
"oh, she's hanging out with a BOY
she must have a crush on him"
when we were little
girls hanging out with boys
was just girls hanging out with boys
"ew, she likes crawling on all fours
like an animal
she's a ******* furry"
when we were little
doing that was just
playing pretend
"oh my god, do you see what she's wearing
SO extra"
when we were little
it was always
the bigger the better, right?
"no, you cant hang out with us
you don't even like the stuff we do"
when we were little
everyone was everyone's best friend
as long as they knew how to have fun

why did that change?
I miss being 6
Dec 2024 · 82
mixed signals
V3NUS Dec 2024
do they care?
of course they do
do they act like they care?
... mostly
does it feel like they care?
not really
this is referring to my family btw
a friend of mine told me I don't have a good family
Dec 2024 · 265
the domino effect
V3NUS Dec 2024
if I fall
then she falls
then he falls
then she falls
then he falls
then she falls
then she falls
then she falls
then she falls
then she falls
then they fall
then she falls
until we've all fallen
got to stay up
moving in a year, might do it then
they don't have to know
Dec 2024 · 130
Untitled
V3NUS Dec 2024
why is it
that when you're always sad
it's so easy to fake a smile
have not seen a therapist in about 6 months. record
Dec 2024 · 220
every single day
V3NUS Dec 2024
the bottle of pills on my dresser
becomes more tempting

or taking the blades out of my razor
and killing myself in the shower

jumping out the window
it has no bug net

hanging myself with my charger
I learned how to tie a noose on Pinterest









"don't worry
nothing's wrong"
my mental health jumped off a cliff in October and it already wasn't too good
now I'm just holding on cause I'm scared to actually do it
but that fear is slowly going away
Dec 2024 · 140
don't you love it
V3NUS Dec 2024
isn't it amazing
when your mom's a therapyst
yet somehow
she can always see you friend's and family's problems
but fails to recognize her daughter isn't doing well
like seriously??
V3NUS Dec 2024
this country is severely ******

we elect a man who
makes empty promises
provides specifically for the white, cis, male, and privileged
gets people killed when he doesn't get his way
should be in prison
in general a bad person
all because most weren't ready to accept
a mixed woman
might be better than a white man

or the police
don't get me started on them
"tHeY'Re PrOTeCtINg ThE PeOPlE aS A wHoLE"
absolute *******
do you know the amount of black people have been killed?
because they were "a threat" right?
stepping out a car, sleeping in our beds, cooking our own food
incredibly threatening isn't it?

or jobs?
female employees getting paid as much as men multiple levels below them
blacks, asians, and Hispanics getting jobs they are way too good for
because we apparently will never be able to do the job we're QUALIFIED for
as good as a white man

and why is it such a big deal
if a boy loves a boy
if a girl loves a girl
if someone doesn't want to choose a gender
if someone doesn't like the gender they were born as
if someone loves girls and boys
if someone doesn't care who they love, as long as they're a good person
if someone doesn't love at all
they're living their own life
who they identify as doesn't affect you in the slightest

we aren't doing too good
it can't be just me who sees this right?
Dec 2024 · 72
School
V3NUS Dec 2024
I hate school
too much work
too many bullies
too much pressure
staying still too long
no good food

but

I love school
no need to hide
no constant need to be perfect
nobody telling me my grades are terrible
nobody saying I'm slow
nobody calling me fat
nobody telling me nobody likes me
no need to worry if people hate me
because if people do
they can mind their ******* business
is it weird I like being at school more than home?
Dec 2024 · 209
I love my family
V3NUS Dec 2024
"YOUR GRADES ARE SLIPPING
              WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU"
                            there are people in my grade that would **** for a C
                                                               ­           an A- is not that bad
"I KNOW YOU CAN RUN FASTER
    YOU'RE JUST NOT TRYING"
                                                         ­           this is the fastest I can run
                                                         i'm sorry you're dissappointed
"YOU'RE EATING AGAIN
                  SLOW DOWN BIGGIE"
                                                         ­                   it's just a granola bar
                                               I haven't eaten anything else all day
"NOBODY LIKES YOU
                  N O B O D Y"
                                                              ­                                            ...
it's fine
it's all fine
i'll fix it all
don't you worry
                                                           ­                                         Mom
               I promise no assignments will have less then 100 ever again
                                                           ­                               every 100%
                                                            ­                     every smiley face
                                                            ­                    every "good job!"
                 will be written on the paper with the blood from my wrists

                                                         ­                                             Dad
                ­                                                         I promise i'll run faster
                                                          ­               i'll run until I throw up
                                                              ­                                           no
                                                                ­                            even better
                                                          ­                            until I pass out

                                                            ­                                      Meena
                     ­                                     I promise to stop eating so much
                                              matter fact i'll just stop eating altogether
                                                      ­                    and I won't start again
             not until you can clearly see my ribs poking through my skin

                                                           ­                                     and Lali
                                                            ­                                  I promise
                                                        o­nce I make everyone else happy
                                                           ­                   i'll make you happy
                                                           ­                          by ending it all
doesn't my family sound amazing??

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