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 Nov 2014 Liv
arubybluebird
the thought of having *** makes me ill
this place holds the time we first kissed
go backwards with me
stay, lets lay underneath the moon for another year
I'm bored of the constant mention of the heart
of the condition of my own
of not knowing whether yours keeps its blood moving for mine
I've become indifferent to the gentle heedlessness of the world
I have your hands to wipe my tears with now
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
Night
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
Wrapped in my comforter at 2 am
Makes me realize how terrifying nighttime is,
It's not the dark I'm scared of anymore,
Or monsters under my bed.
It's the Tornado of thoughts
Making my head spin.
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
Showers
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
I've been turning the water on hot
In the shower lately,
Hoping to boil the goosebumps that
Creep up my flesh and the
Thoughts that crawl into my mind.
I've been scrubbing my skin and lips raw,
Because I still feel your finger tips
Running down my body
And your lips brushing mine,
And it ******* hurts.
October 16, 2014
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
Fluoxetine
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
I had been drowning,
Yet not fully engulfed in the waves.
Trapped in a daze of being numb to any feeling at all.
No sadness
No happiness either.
I am finally emerging, and taking a fresh breath of air.
I never knew I would be so happy
To be able to cry,
To smile,
To feel anything.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
I realized as my friends shared a cigarette in the car that the smell reminds me of friday afternoon drives and not of sitting on your porch those summer nights, entangled in your arms and the ribbons of smoke.
Now as the smoke escapes out the car window, so do the remaining thoughts of you.
And I couldn't feel any better
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
Untitled
 Nov 2014 Liv
Casey
I don't want to miss you.
But we lose over a million skin cells
In a 24- hour period
And it's been 22 days since I've touched you, and that skin is long gone.
I drink more and more to try to forget the color of your eyes, or the way your voice sounded when we would wake up.
It's not the ***** that makes my head spin it's the ******* memories that are branded into my brain.
I miss you.
and I ******* hate myself for missing you
 Oct 2014 Liv
axr
I hear thunder
No you don't,
The voices in your head
want some more

You're lying!
I am aware of my blunders.
I can hear thunder!
No,  you can't
you're just deaf
and without a plan

You're just inviting trouble
Everyone is trying to hurt me.
My only defence is the thunder
I hear it. I feel it. Zeus loves me.
Mountains tremble in fear.
He is ready with his bolt.
It's a message
you don't see it
yet
but when thunder shakes the ground
you shall hold your breath.
Talk about Hermes, Apollo
and everyone else.
The thunder shall do us no harm.
Olympus was never safe.
Aphrodite knows how to sell her body
There will be war, my friend.
The titans will rise.
Kronos will escape from Tartarus
and attack in stealth.

You dummkopf,
you have no idea what you have been talking
Don't argue over Father of God's bolt!
God of the skies.
Traveling by air? You might die.
Poseidon can make your way back difficult
This behaviour of yours was very typical.
*You ignore your mind when it plays tricks on you
Oh dear, you really are a fool
I have no idea why I wrote this. Greek mythology obsession perhaps
Dummkopf means stupid head in German.
 Oct 2014 Liv
axr
I hate the term
Tragically beautiful.
If you find something beautiful about my face
or me as a person,
Say it.
Just say it
Quit using that dumb term
it's as good as romanticising self harm and depression.
I will try to help you through your recovery
But I won't kiss your scars.
I will lose my mind when I realise that you are hurting yourself.
There is nothing Tragically beautiful about depressed humans
or humans who are just having a hard time.
If something about that human is tragically beautiful,
try making 'em happy.
Make 'em laugh.
See through them.
and you might find some *real beauty
 Oct 2014 Liv
axr
In the morning, she refused to move from the hospital bed.
By evening, she walked the red carpet with grace.
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