think to yourself
and just breathe
take something
to make you feel
above the clouds
past the moon,
past the stars

loneliness is a rock sitting on my chest
painfully restricting my ability to breathe

Take care of your smile
You're always frowning
It's been a while
Notice it is raining

You looked up to the sky
It is bright and clear
Did not notice the streaming tears
On your face, you wonder why?

Stop Harboring all the pain
Lean on me and Let it all out
Free yourself from your chains
Don't stop, Don't doubt

Leave the past behind
Cast aside all the pain
Never again be confined
Happiness you shall obtain

Our world when we are small.
Our bane when teenaged.
Our friend as an adult.
Our loss when death takes.

do you have moments, where you can’t imagine a future?
you’re lying there, staring at the
same walls
same ceilings
same words
with nothing but the same feelings-
empty and pale,
like there’s no reason to go on,
when you can’t even do enough to fail.
the future is coming, but you don’t want to be in it,
can’t imagine yourself in it.
where you just want to stop.
everything.
and just sit there for a while.
maybe not death, as that’s too permanent,
but something close to it.
when you can feel the rope around your neck,
the razor on your wrist,
the way the pills taste.
you can imagine it, and you aren’t sure if it’s what you want,
or just the feelings you imagine it will give you

I sleep the day away to try and save a part of me,
And every night I rise to see it fall apart,
The eye of my heart is closing faster than I'd like,
But this time, it isn't love that is closing it,
Not the cold touch of the dark, not envy as it sees fit,
As age further blurrs my vision, and I can't see where I'll go,
I shall slumber and dream away all woe,
Maybe I will see again when I awake.

~ Umi